Personal Secrets


Australia
StateQLD CityBrisbane GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge29Friend Age24How Long Known Each Other3 years
My friend is obsessed with a happily married faculty member at our university. Everyone thinks she is a fucking desperate wannabe. I feel sorry for her but I feel the same and am so sick of hearing about her little obsession. It's taken on a life of it's own. I wish she would just get the fuck over it and get some self esteem.... I don't want to hang around her any more because she's an embarrassment. Date of Submission 442011

Australia
StateVictoria CityMelbourne GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge22Friend Age21How Long Known Each Other5 months
I have been seeing this guy for 5 months - we have an open relationship. He told me today that he is bulimic - the day after I told him that I have started seeing someone additional to him. I am not supposed to tell anyone, and I just needed to tell someone, even if it is just an anonymous website. Date of Submission 4262010

Canada
StateOntario CityToronto GenderMaleFriend GenderFemaleAge19Friend Age19How Long Known Each Other7 years
I had sex with my best girl friends boyfriend of 5 years and I'm a guy. I definitely feel bad about it but I've felt a connection with him and never thought the feeling was mutual until one night while drunk he came to pass out at my house. I've been openly gay for 3 years and I always joked with her that my gaydar senses he's homo. Apparently I was right and I really think it's his fault for keeping up their relationship. I don't think I'll ever tell her about it because I'm sure she'd be mortified (understandably) but I think he should definitely tell her he's not attracted to her like that because she really cares about him. We've gotten in to arguments about him telling her and he says though he know's he's 100% gay it's different with her because they've grown up in their relationship so he's grown to love her flaws and all (penis or no penis). we're def. fucked and I can hardly look her in the face anymore, I just want to blurt it out. But I know she'd never reconcile. Date of Submission 1122011

Canada
StateSaskatchewan CityLa Ronge GenderMaleFriend GenderFemaleAge16Friend Age15How Long Known Each OtherYears
I masturbate to her photo, when she's walking by my house I peek through the blinds and masturbate while looking at her ass, what's wrong with me? Date of Submission 3172011

England
StateLondon CityLeicester GenderMaleFriend GenderFemaleAge13Friend Age13How Long Known Each Other2 years
Im gonna sound like a right fag turd, but i have to relieve the mental painn i my head and tell some random strangers :) I love ths amazing girl called Moncica louise Perez. Shes beuatiful and... just the best :) shes different from any other girls, strange. I like that, or love! Weve been out before and it was great but we just didnt kiss or go anywhere together much, no matter how much i urgedd to passionately kiss her or spend hours with her. Im going to talk to her and hopefuly make a better relationship in my next year of school. I love her to much for a 13 year old, i dont know whether i should, can be able, or want to love her? She is amazing though,i have never felt like this about anyone else. I love her. Date of Submission 772010

England
StateLondon CityLondon Gender20Friend GenderFemaleAgecollegeFriend Age20How Long Known Each OtherMale
I am deeply, painfully, madly in love with my best friend. So much so, that it hurts to be around him, so As of late i've just avoided him at all cost. It's killing me. We're in a close knit group of friends so it's too messy. I suffer when I don't see him, and suffer when I do. Date of Submission 9292011

England
StateNorth Somerset CityBristol GenderMaleFriend GenderMaleAge19Friend Age19How Long Known Each Other7 years
I've been in love with my best friend since I was 12. I'm gay, he's not. He's very homophobic and coming out to him would destroy our friendship. I know that doesn't really make him a friend but I'm so in love with him that I can't even risk losing him. I probably should but I won't. I had to tell someone because this secret has been killing me for years. Date of Submission 432010

France
State CityBordeaux GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge20Friend Age23How Long Known Each Other1 year
My best friend tried to sleep with me. We were both drunk but I didn't let him for 4 reasons : 1) He has a girlfriend, 2) I was a virgin, 3) I hadn't shaved my legs, 4) No condom. What was the #1 reason? Morality? Fear? I can't say. He did it more than once. The day after the 2nd time, he left for a weekend trip to go see his girlfriend that he's had since high school that he hadn't seen in months. I miss him and feel I'm not allowed to talk to him. But I secretly hope that they break up and we get together... Date of Submission 9102010

High
StateUSA CityOhio GenderMaleFriend Gender13 yearsAge18Friend AgeFemaleHow Long Known Each OtherWhen I was in elementary school, I had oral sex with both a boy and a girl. I didn't know it was wrong at the time, I knew nothing of sex. Now I can't look at those two people and 'm afraid they've told others.
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Ireland
State CityNewry GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge14Friend Age14How Long Known Each Other1 year
My friend, we'll call her, Anna, comes from a bad background. Her mom ran off, her step-mom died, leaving Anna with her father and four little brothers to take care of.A few months ago- her father was drunk and he tried to rape her. He told her to take off her clothes and that he'd make her cum. He touched her in ways a dad should never touch a daughter and he is SICK,SICK,SICK as hell. Anna didn't tell me this personally, my other friend- Rachel did. I feel horrible for Anna, she's only gotten over Anorexia. also it's happened a few times since- not as bad as the first time, but even so. It's illegal. Each time I see her, she's her same, bubbly,hyperactive self. So how can this happen to her? I'm so worried. And the night her dad did that I was about to stay over and I said 'no' because I was busy. It could've been me, I'd have stopped it with my life. God, it feels good to tell someone- I've kept it a total secret this whole time. Apart from now. Please tell me what I can do for her. ANSWER: Call social services if you friend needs help. Talk to her first before doing anything to help her. She must know and agree. Date of Submission 6122010

Netherlands
StateNoord holland CityAmsterdam GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge22Friend Age23How Long Known Each Other5,5 years
Five years ago my colleaugue asked me out, but i rejected him. After that we spend alot of time together and we became best friends. He told me lots of stories about other girls he dated and that he proposed to one, but she refused. Afterwards he said "i can"t take her back, he rejected me! so i changed my number" beacause of this, I never told him that I've secretly fallen deeply for him. I even made a list of 44 things I love about him. Some of them have to do with how much he cares for me and how he treats me in a special way. He got married last summer and i'm still in love with him. I actually may have fallen more in love with him than before. I know he's married and hands off! but i would do anything for him caus in these 5,5 years he showed me what to look 4 in a guy. I think I missed my chance with my soul mate, caus i feel he is mine. But that's probably my head talking. I'm still his bestfriend that's all the love i could get right now. Secretly i hope he loves me back, but won;t admit it....I even thought he made up the story of being married. i trying so hard to convince myself that we will end up together. but i know that will never happen. It just hurts to see him with her and it kills me to be so loveing towards her knowing she can touch him and kiss him and i can't. And when he talks about her, i secretly hope he's mad at her so i can step up and be there for him. I even hope he'd break down in my arms, so I'd be the obe to catch him when he falls. I'm so mean and even that hurts me, caus i know his wife is a great woman and he made me love her, by talking about her..... Date of Submission 5302010

New Zealand
StateNapier CityNZ GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge19Friend Age19How Long Known Each Othersince we were born
Ny u friend flick is tell my secrets to my other friends and she said to me ashole in front of my face. Date of Submission 1142009

New Zealand
StateNorth Island CityWellington GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge20Friend Age20How Long Known Each Other4
I have known my friend for about 4 years now, we were close - shared some great laughs as well as a few cry's and have so many memories to look back on. Today I found out she is a compulsive liar and her whole life is a lie. I am in complete shock because I thought she was one of the loveliest people I have ever met, now I find out that she has lied, cheated and stolen her way through her life. I feel numb right now, how could I not have realised this?!Or seen through her.. I have no one to talk to and seriously need a hug right now. Date of Submission 9272010

US
StateSouth Carolina CityNoname GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge15Friend Age15How Long Known Each OtherA long time
You complain about how you don't want to be forgotten all the time. You told me you didn't want our friendship to become strained and how you didn't want me to abandon you like everybody else had. Now they've come back around, and here I am, in the sidelines like I never thought I'd be. I tell you everything. I thought you told me everything. But I guess I was wrong. We haven't talked in a week and a half. We used to talk every day. I always keep my word. But it seems you don't anymore. Date of Submission 6262011

USA
StateArkansas CityBenton GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge18Friend Age17How Long Known Each Other5 years
I lied to you, Bestfriend. What you know: Your boyfriend and I were perfect for each other, But we used to pretend to hate each other just so you wouldn’t be suspicious. After our graduation I started spending more time with him… In fact, we were together every single night. We grew closer and closer, And we grew farther away from you. You were scared that something other than friendship was going on. You were right. We were falling in love. We both broke up with our significant others so we could be together. What you don't know: It wasn’t an accident. I’ve been in love with him for ages. I walked into the situation fully intending to steal him away from you. I’ve never been happier. He’s never been happier. He is my soulmate. I may have lost you, but what I’ve gained is so much better. I’m going to invite you to our wedding. Date of Submission 992010

USA
StateCA Citywest covina GenderMaleFriend GenderMaleAge15Friend Age1How Long Known Each Other
well i think this girl is cute but i dont know how to talk to her Date of Submission 11232010

USA
StateColorado CityDenver GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge14Friend Age16How Long Known Each Other6 months
I'm not sure what to do. I am a recovering cutter and yesterday realized my guy friend is one as well. I want to approach him and let him know that I'm here to talk and know what it's like but I'm not sure how to do it. We know each other pretty well and I know that if I talk to him honestly he will trust me, but I'm just not sure how to start the conversation. It's keeping me from sleeping. I can't stand this anymore. He needs help. Date of Submission 1182010

USA
StateFL CitySt. Augustine GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge14Friend Age15How Long Known Each Other2 years
I fell in love with him the day I met him. The first year, I wasn't really his friend. He went out with one of my closest friends for a few weeks. And when they were through, he denied it ever happened. This should have been the first warning, but I was too stupid to believe it. The second year, I met my best friend. She immediately fell for him. The only difference between her and I is that she's the one he wanted. For awhile. Six months later, he dumped her. Over the time when they'd been dating, we became close friends. After, he denied ever liking her in the first place, claiming that she was disgusting and he was stupid. One by one, each of his friends began turning against her. I was, of course, caught in the crossfire. There was a day that I decided that there was no way I'd ever date him. I didn't want to get screwed over. I began dating one of his friends. I moved on. I broke up with him after six months, agreeing to remain friends. Suddenly, he hated me, but I can't hate him. Date of Submission 11222010

USA
StateFlorida CitySt. Augustine GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge15Friend Age13How Long Known Each Other2 years
My friend is a cutter. I've been a cutter for several years. She looks up to me so much. I'm like her hero. And yet I can't help but feel like she'd never have gotten the idea to start cutting herself if not for me. Date of Submission 11222010

USA
StateIL CityChicago GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge18Friend Age18How Long Known Each OtherK-on
You were my best friend. In my basement, we cracked jokes until dawn, laughing at stupid things. We had a million inside jokes that could have us bursting into laughter everytime. We knew eachother's deepest secrets, and neither cared. But... I hated you. When it was just us, you were so cool. But you repeatedly publicly humiliated me to make yourself look better by comparsion. But I knew you better than you yourself did. I justified every action you made against me, and I believed those hurtful remarks, carelessly thrown out. You didn't know you were even doing it, and that's what killed me. Or almost did. You knew I was in the hospital for an extended period of time, but I doubt you knew about my overdose. All you knew was when I was released, healing scars on my arms, I started avoiding you. I hated every moment spent with you. I hated you. I hate you. But you never knew. Date of Submission 12292009

USA
StateIL CityMorton Grove GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge19Friend Age19How Long Known Each Other19 years
We've known each other for years. I secretly HATE you. You are the fakest person I've ever met. I just hang out with you because I don't want to start drama. Date of Submission 1172010

USA
StateKentucky CityCrestwood GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge15Friend Age14How Long Known Each OtherSince August
Basically, I'm kind of starting to fall for her. Even though we haven't known each other for long, I know so much about her already, and it feels like we've known each other for years. We click so much. We're both bisexual, so it's not like that's a problem, but I don't know how to bring something like that up without making it super awkward. Date of Submission 11172011

USA
StateMI CityGrand Rapids GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge20Friend Age21How Long Known Each Other8 months
I have a friend i met on the internet and i have been talking to him more then anyone..he has actually become the one i go to for everything. Now i want to go see him in person in hopes that maybe in person he will like me as much as i like him..cause secretly i want to marry him! Date of Submission 9232010

USA
StateMaryland CityBel Air GenderMaleFriend GenderFemaleAge17Friend Age16How Long Known Each OtherA year
My Gf broke up with me 3 months ago and I'm still in so much pain from our break up mainly cause I don't know why she did and and how she did it. I can't stop thinking about it and I can't go to my friends mainly cause I feel they'll think I'm being over dramatic about it. Date of Submission 1082011

USA
StateMississippi CityMcHenry GenderMaleFriend GenderFemaleAge19Friend Age18How Long Known Each Other2 years
I just recently had a bad breakup, and now I'm realizing that I have feelings for a friend of mine that I've known for a couple years. However, I'm afraid of falling in love with her, I'm afraid of getting hurt again, but I'm more afraid of losing her, I don't want to chase her away. She's very important to me, and I care about her a lot. I just don't know whether I should resign to being just friends. I would be ok with that, but I can't change the way I feel about her. Date of Submission 1232010

USA
StateNC CityFuquay GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge18Friend Age18How Long Known Each Other1 year
I thought she was my best friend. I told her EVERYTHING. But then she posts a long note on facebook about how she'll miss her best friend so much when she moves, but it wasn't about me. I don't have a best friend, I barely have any good friends. That's all I want this Christmas, a best friend. Date of Submission 12142011

USA
StateND CityMandan GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge14Friend Age15How Long Known Each Other3 years
I really like you. I have not known you for very long but I know I can be myself around you. We have a class together and I know I made you happy in that class today. We were texting each other about suckers and I told you I would bring some and I think you took two but I don't care. I have liked you for a while and idk if you like me. I feel like I am starting to fall for someone else so if you want me you should probably catch me before the other guy does. <3 Date of Submission 2112011

USA
StateNJ CityScotch Plains GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge16Friend Age16How Long Known Each Other1 year
I've secretly been in love with one of my best guy friends for months and it killed me that he didn't think of me like that... and it turned out he did have feelings for me afer all and no we're together! Date of Submission 6202010

USA
StateNew York CityNew York GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge12Friend Age12How Long Known Each Other6 months
We were dating for 5 months..then you dumped me and asked out my best friend..and she actually said yes..I cry everyday..and this rubber band I'm wearing, I snap my wrist with it whenever I think of you...I'm so close to bleeding. Date of Submission 4202011

USA
StateNew York CityNew York GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge18Friend Age17How Long Known Each Othera few months
I was talking to this boy on youtube who has already been signed and stuff, and we had a conversation over twitter by DM'ing and stuff.. we talked constantly for 2 weeks and had a really good connection, we spoke on the phone and video chatted and we want to meet eachother.. but now, almost a month later and he's ignoring all my texts and twitter messages.. should i give up?:'( Date of Submission 4292011

USA
StatePA Citylandenburg GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge15Friend Age16How Long Known Each Other1 and 1/2 years
my friend, no, my best friend, has a horrible past. both parents have been killed, social outcast, and no other family members to rely on. he's tried to kill himself many times, half while talking to me. i dont want him to die :( he always says he's my big brother i've never had. i'm trying to keep him alive as long as i possibly can, but i'm starting to break again and i'm afraid to tell him. i'm one of those people who are worried sick about others, and other friends and family members are ending up in hospitals or just plain dying. i'm afraid i'm slowly going back into depression, and he is too. i dont want to worry about me yet, i just want to help him. i dont want him to die, he really cares and understands me. but i'm so confused and ready to just stop everything and never talk to people again, i dont want to feel pain; mine or others or both. i'm afraid to tell him what i'm feeling, he's so happy around me. i dont know, i just want him to be happy :( Date of Submission 6242011

USA
StateSouth Carolina CityGoose Creek GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge17Friend Age16How Long Known Each Other3 years
I'm in love with my best friend. He is the sweetest person ever and he is always by my side...But he's gay. He says he isnt, but I know he is. He calls himself bi, but he's never kissed a girl. And even though I'm bi, we only ever discuss guys and how they look, never girls. I desperately miss being close to him, but after I realized I loved him, I couldn't hang out with him as much without crying. I feel like I don't matter enough for him to see what him calling himself "bi" is doing to me when I'm trying so hard to be with him...it hurts and I want to make it stop...every time i see him, i feel like it's ripping part of me out. I miss being his best friend, but I can't do it if he's not mine. Date of Submission 6292010

USA
StateTexas CitySpring GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge10Friend Age10How Long Known Each Otherabout 3 years
this secret is about hao i had a crush on her big brother for about 2 years Date of Submission 10292010

USA
StateUSA CityLondon GenderMaleFriend GenderMaleAge18Friend Age18How Long Known Each Othersince high school
I constantly try to make my friends look bad. I hate my friends so bad. All the time I try to do all sorts of stuff behind their back just to put them in a bad light. Once i got my best friend expelled for something he didnt do, he was expelled for 8 days. Ive done worse than that... Trust me. Non of my friends know what horrible stuff i have done to them. Date of Submission 9282010

USA
StateUT CityEphraim GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge18Friend Age18How Long Known Each Other8 months
I keep fooling around with my friend's boyfriend. I gave him a blowjob last week. I don't know how I faced her in history class, how I smiled and acted like nothing had happened, how I studied with her today. I feel terrible for betraying her. But I feel even worse knowing that I'd do it again if I got the chance. Date of Submission 4122011

USA
StateWA Cityseattle GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge25Friend Age25How Long Known Each Other
I would first like to say how childish I feel for feeling so lost in the situation that I am about to explain. I am 25 and thought by now I would have things figured out and not be so caught up in a situation where I feel that I have let my feelings get the best of me. We meet in 2004. I was dating his roommate and co- player on the baseball team. We didnt get along, and I continued to date his friend on and off for 4 years.That relationship ended 2 years ago in 2008. I graduated from college and moved to a larger city. A few months later he moved here as well. We have mutual friends and started hanging out,( just as friends,mind you). The hanging out mostly consist of a group drinking, going out to bars and parties, fairly normal things that friends of the opposite sex do. Then earlier this year my friends heart was broken by a girl that he literally dated for two weeks. For some reason he had ( and I believe still does) a really hard time getting over her. Through this tough time in his life we bonded. I would drop everything if he wanted to talk or hang out. He shared things with me that were very personal, so likely I did the same. He would tell me how grateful he was to have me in his life, that he wouldnt know what he would do without my guidance, support and friendship. I was there for him in a way that no one else could be. The friendship continued the same as it always had. He got better about this girl, everything was good. Until two weeks ago.... My ex came in town, the one he was and still is good friends with. Yeah that one. Naturally me and my ex got together, and I thought "hey, lets all hang out, we are all friends, it will be fun". Wrong. My friend, ex and others went and had a few beers and watched a game. I guess you could say that me and my ex were "together". It was just for that night and the most PDA was hand holding. Well now my friendship has change with my friend dramatically. First I felt like I was getting the cold shoulder, things like him not inviting me places, and giving excuses why he couldn't hang out. So being a girl, I asked " whats wrong with you? I feel like you have been really distant". I get the whole " what are you talking about? Nothings wrong" and when I asked if it was anything that I did I always got" no, you did nothing". Then the weekend rolls around and we end up hanging out with our usual crew.So were at a bar and he makes a bet where if he wins we have to make out, I was drunk and never thought he would win so I agreed. Well we won, and made out.. it was kind of awkward. We leave that bar and then go to another one. There is a friend of ours that I have made out with in the past, but its only because were drunk, but we are just friends. When he drinks he gets really flirty and grabby with me, but its just how he is. We havent made out in a long time, but when hes drunk he just touches me a lot like dancing and stuff. no big deal. Well my friend, the one I have been telling you about, just leaves the bar. We had just got there and he says he tired and hes leaving. The week after that we hang out may once that week, which is not like us, we usually hang out like every other day. So hes still being shady. Then friday hits. We are chatting online while we both are at work and in the middle of the conversation I get " I'm ready to take this to the next level" and I respond " What?" then he signs off. He gets back on a little later and acts like nothing happened. So I just rolled with it. Then I get the cold shoulder again friday, Saturday I get the cold shoulder until 1:30 am when he calls after I text him that I missed him, ( I meant it in a friendly way...I think) and pick him up from the bar, then we watch a movie after that. Sunday we hang out that night and watched another movie I think. Then monday comes and I chatted him online " whats the next level?" and he acts like he doest know what Im talking about. So again, I roll with it. Now hes being meaner than ever. We are hanging out more, be he just constantly picks on me. He says he would never say anything that he knows what upset me, but it seems like he never lets up. Then today.... We were supposed to go eat, we get an argument because I was acting like I was going through his phone. I left, drove around. I felt bad so went back to his place. Hes on the phone and doesnt get off for like 20 more mins. Then I ask if he still wants to eat and he doesnt really give me a straight answer. So I ask if I should just leave, and he says he doesnt really know what he wants to eat so if I want to eat, then yeah I should probably just leave. And for some reason I have so upset since the conversation. I have no idea what is going on or where this friendship is headed. I care about him a lot and we have been such good friends this past year that I dont want to lose him or his friendship. Did he realize when my ex was in town that he has feelings or me? Or is that just all in my head? By me getting so upset about this mean I have feeling for him? What do I do now? He would be the one I would go to with these questions, but now that they are about him I don't know where to turn. My friends say that he does have feelings for me, but I think that if he did he would have told me by now, right? Advice is greatly appreciated. Date of Submission 6302010

USA
Staten/a Cityn/a GenderFemaleFriend GenderMaleAge14Friend Age13How Long Known Each Other2 yrs
I am in love with a guy who doesn't know I like him. We are dating but he won't ever talk to me. I want him to understand that he is the one person I live for. He is the best person in my life but I can't tell him. What should I do? Date of Submission 1162011

USA
Statetexas Cityspring GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge21Friend Age21How Long Known Each Other4years
I have sex with my ex best friends husband... I love him .... He started it... I dont think ill ever find anyyone as good as him... because my religion is really obscure... ive only met 5 people so far that believe like i do in texas.... and plus hes really highly respected in the community of this religon ... and i dont think i could find anyone better than him. Date of Submission 1302012

australia
Statesa Citysa GenderFemaleFriend GenderFemaleAge25Friend Age25How Long Known Each Other10 yrs
my friend is a terrible mother- we all think it- but would never say it. those poor children Date of Submission 9282010