| State | NSW | City | Sydney | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| hello, I'm here to share my personal secrets :3 well it doesn't really matter for me because no one knows who I am. So here are my secrets. - I'm a cutter. - Eating disorder. - Almost died when I hit my vein. - Got bullied because my legs were too skinny | 10282011 | ||||||
| State | City | Buenos Aires | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I'm obsessed about this guy who i met through the internet. First of all he lives too far from me (Sweden) and it's much likely that i'd never met him in real life. But idk, he makes me feel special and says i'm beautiful (thing i highly doubt) and also he shares my point of view in a lot of things. I'm planning to go to live in Sweden, though, but what if when i arrive over there he doesn't like me anymore? What if i miss my family too much? I don't know, maybe i'm too stupid and i fall in love with every guy who pays atenttion to me :( it's hard for me you know? Sometimes i feel like dying when i find out he talks or likes other girl! That's my "secret" which i don't tell to anybody cause they'd only call me crazy and/or stupid. | 352010 | ||||||
| State | City | Israel | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I am a girl and I did it, more than once with the same person (who was at my age ). When I was...10. | 1292011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Bellingen | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I'm scared to kiss my boyfriend, I know it sounds silly but for some reason i feel that if i kiss him bad things will happen.We have kissed before but no that much and he keeps wanting me to but i cant. I have seen realtionships where there is no physical contact, fail and ones with lots of contact fail.I guess im trying to find the middle ground but its hard. I love him but i cant kiss him | 3282011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Coffs Harbour | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Recently, many people have told me that they are concerned that I may be suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, all the signs are there *Unnecessary fear of abandonment *Suicidal thoughts (though I dont share this with anyone) *Low self worth *Unnatural and unhealthy relationships *Violent mood swings *Self-harm I refuse to face this fact mainly because I'm too scared to tell anyone that I actually agree with them. I seriously need help and don't how to get it | 2152011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Mittagong | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I have a female body, yet I feel I am a man. I want to get a sex change, but I know my single parent mother won't accept it if I tell her. I've been depressed for the past 4 years and it's getting harder to deal with. I sometimes feel so depressed that I want to end my life. I don't know what to do! | 572011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Mittagong | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I have a female body, yet I feel I am a man. I want to get a sex change, but I know my single parent mother won't accept it if I tell her. I've been depressed for the past 4 years and it's getting harder to deal with. I sometimes feel so depressed that I want to end my life. I don't know what to do! | 572011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Sydney | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I am 20 and my partner is 25 years older than me. I am so in love and he tells me I am everything to him. I have never felt so wanted since being with him. He doesn't realize how much he hurts me when he says he hasn't got long to live because he has been smoking heavily since he was young. I don't want to lose him. I wish that we could grow old together. I'm scared that when he does go that I will follow him. I can't imagine my life without this man. | 652010 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Sydney | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I am extremely ashamed of the dreams I've been having lately. I dream of having an affair with my legal studies teacher, who is married with a kid. I dream of him being interested in me, I never dream of anything sexual, but it is just so wrong. I am engaged to my boyfriend of 5 years which I love and adore. He is my soulmate, we have a wonderful relationship which I find fulfilling, I love being with him. But at the same time, here I am remembering of dreaming about this other guy. I don't feel attracted to him in class, I would never act on it...but I guess my mind thinks differently. I feel like such a bad person, my boyfriend deserves someone better than me. | 5192011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Sydney | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I still think about my first girlfriend, which happened over three years ago now. I wonder what she is doing, whether she is leading a fulfilling life, whether she loves her boyfriend in a way that I simply couldn't. I think about her in a way which is debilitating and incredibly hurtful. We were together for only one year, but in that space of time she cheated on me, nearly fell pregnant and resulted in me having a nervous background due to the level of emotional abuse. Yet, she was my first everything. Currently, I lead a lot healthier and fulfilling life, I have completed my first degree, worked full time and will be pursuing a law degree and I have the most wonderful caring, loving partner. Yet, I still think of her. I kept her emails to remind me of what it was like when we were together and how horrid it was. I still can't comprehend why. | 6222011 | ||||||
| State | NSW | City | Sydney | Gender | Male | Age | 30 |
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| When I was 11 I fooled around with my cousin (fake cousin). This lead to oral, finger exploration and masturbation. Later this lead to regular masturbation and watching porn, which continues today. I masturbate and watch porn daily. I think about sex all the time. I like the idea of being sexually active with many people, men and women alike. I have considered working as a male prostitute but am too chicken. Ideally I would love to share my perverted mind with someone who thinks the same, because I feel isolated having dirty thoughts. Would prefer a bisexual woman. | 192012 | ||||||
| State | NT | City | Darwin | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| My partner isn't sexually attracted to me so I don't even bother shaving anymore :( | 322010 | ||||||
| State | New South Wales | City | Sydney | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| I have held this secret for years.....And im to afraid to tell my family and friends, cause I know that I will be looked down on! The only ones that understand how I feel are the ones like me. Sometimes I wonder why Im like this. Why cant I just be normal. I have been living a lie and its killing me! I have someone very close to me and only he knows that I AM GAY! | 10142009 | ||||||
| State | QLD | City | Gold Coast | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| You were the only one that has kept me alive. I can feel you leaving and I am so scared that I will have no one left to help me stay. | 12172011 | ||||||
| State | QLD | City | Newcastle | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Nobody knows how much I actually live for cutting myself. I don't want to stop but I can't tell anyone. I think scars are beautiful! | 562011 | ||||||
| State | QLD | City | Newcastle | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Nobody knows how much I actually live for cutting myself. I don't want to stop but I can't tell anyone. I think scars are beautiful! | 562011 | ||||||
| State | South Australia | City | Adelaide | Gender | Male | Age | 45 |
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| I am married to the greatest woman ever. she is everything to me and I want to grow old with her... However I also love another woman, I have not acted in any way wrong with her but my heart breaks when I see her. | 1292010 | ||||||
| State | Victoria | City | Melbounre | Gender | Male | Age | 13 |
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| Yesterday one of my best friends was killed in a tragic train accident. Today I was bawling my eyes out and I spent all day at his shrine at school. I dont know how to relieve my pain. please help me. REST IN PEACE MICKEY! | 11172010 | ||||||
| State | Victoria | City | Melbourne | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| My best friend's brother revealed that he loves me. I can't love him back because I was in love with his sister. And she loved me back. | 10282009 | ||||||
| State | Victoria | City | Melbourne | Gender | Female | Age | 30 |
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| I have not had sex for 10 years. | 5152010 | ||||||
| State | Victoria | City | Melbourne | Gender | Male | Age | 13 |
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| I really like a girl in homegroup. Her name is chloe cordeda and I love her, <3 She is hot,smart,beatiful and a great friend. I am pretty popular as I am sporty and I think she likes me. But somehow I just cant pull myself together to ask her out:/ I feel her and me are meant to be! But sadly arent together:( please!!!! Give me somd advice!!!!!! | 1122011 | ||||||
| State | WA | City | Perth | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I'm in love with a guy I work with. We're best friends, and have an intimate relationship. He has an adorable 18 month old child, but he's still technically with the mother. So what would be a wonderful relationship consists of sneaking around, hiding the facts from my parents, and wondering when I'll next see him. It's like a giant hole in my chest because I miss him all the time, as we can't even text each other if he's at home with her. Of all the times she's been jealous there's never been any reason for her to be. Until now. I don't know what to do. I love him. And I should feel bad. But I'd rather have what we have than nothing at all | 1012010 | ||||||
| State | Wa | City | Perth | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I have a bf who is excellent... And I love him to bits... But there's someone else I have feelings for. He used to want me and then he gave up. I dream about him and want him to want me but I love my bf. I'm scared iv taken the safe option with my bf and not truely following my heart?? | 11212010 | ||||||
| State | south australia | City | adelaide | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| if i died tomorrow, i wouldn't have ever lived and i don't think anyone would even notice (except my parents, but my brother still wouldn't) | 6202010 | ||||||
| State | São Paulo | City | Rio Claro | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| I'm 16 and I never been in love until now, and I'm absolutely sure this is love because I feel something so passionate and beautiful like I never felt before... The only problem is that I'm in love with my best friend, and we're both boys. I'm so confused and it's so good to finally share this with someone because this has been killing me. Thank you. | 962009 | ||||||
| State | ONTARIO | City | OTTAWA | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| I am secretly gay, i am scared to come out. I have a good fried who is 18 telling her friends and my mom and dad and facebook status that we are dating but i am actually gay and do not know how to tell my family | 5282011 | ||||||
| State | City | Edmonton | Gender | Male | Age |
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| For as long as I remeber myself I've been attracted to both girls and boys. But too afraid to confess it even to myself.. Now I fell in love with a boy whom I've seen only once. I check his facebook profile and hope he will add me to his friends and invite for a walk. Am I being stupid? Every evening I go to bed dreaming that he is near, holding my hand. I feel lonely. | 10122011 | ||||||
| State | City | Millbank | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| i have no one to go trick or treating with because i am the loser at my school :( i am not popular and everyone else is going trick or treating with people. i wish i could just step in and ask if i could go trick or treating with my ex friend and her friends,...but they probably wouldn't like that...what should i do? PLEASE HELP THIS YOUNG, BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING. | 10202009 | ||||||
| State | AB | City | Edmonton | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| My fiance wants to get married in July but, I am having feelings for a guy I work with. We became friends two months ago and I drive him to and from work when we have the same shifts. We text until 3 am some nights and sometimes right after my fiance and I are intimate. He has a crush on my friend but sometimes I think he likes me. I'd never do anything but sometimes I wonder... | 2282011 | ||||||
| State | AB | City | Sherwood Park | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I have been clean from ocycottin for almost 3 months, i relapesd today, i know its bad but i love it and i really cant picture my life without it, i hate my life, i want it to end but i am to scared to take it myself i wish someone would do it for me, sounds pathetic i no, im only 17 | 692010 | ||||||
| State | Alberta | City | Calgary | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| My life is just liket he show "Friends" (my bf = Ross and I = Rachel). My current boyfriend was married once, and she turned out to be a lesbian. Him and I were together for about a year and a half when we went on a "break" because our relationship was straining. He got a blowjob from some whore in MY SEAT of his truck. He didnt let her finish it because he felt awful...and I believe him. The only thing...I told him I wouldnt tell anyone so that he could save face in front of my family (only because we decided to stay together). The worst part is he got chlamydia from her. I didnt get it thank god, but I told his coworkers wife today...and I am scared that he will find out. She promised she wouldnt say anything but still. I feel so guilty. It has been four months since he told me, and I really want this to work, but I dont know if I should tell him or not. We agreed to be honest with eachother about EVERYTHING...should I start lying? | 4212010 | ||||||
| State | Alberta | City | Calgary | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I have quit every job (except for two) I have ever had...but I lie to everyone as to why I am not working. I hate working...I want to be in the entertainment industry...but I can't afford to go to school, but going to a job at macs, or eddie bauer or shoppers is like a knife in my heart...I hate it. Why cant I just work at a job like a normal person? | 4212010 | ||||||
| State | Alberta | City | Calgary | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I want to have sex with a girl...so bad. Im not gay, but I am attracted to the idea of being with a female. They are so beautiful. I would never marry one or have a relationship with one, but I want to sleep with one. I want my boyfriend to be there to. I want a threesome and a foursome. Two guys and Two girls...I cant stop thinking about it. My boyfriend has entertained the idea of the third girl, but no guys...I think I am a nympho...I think about sex with other people ALL THE TIME. I cant get enough :( I love my BF, so how do I deal with this? I feel like I am on a slow road to spiraling out of control and having a very regretable weekend with strange girls and guys...help me deal with this. I dont want these thoughts anymore. | 4212010 | ||||||
| State | Alberta | City | Edmonton | Gender | Female | Age | 52 |
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| I'm a university graduate but I can't find a job in my profession (Computing Science). I don't want to work as a secretary after graduating from university but I'm thinking that I won't remember how to program computers. | 1252011 | ||||||
| State | Alberta | City | Edmonton | Gender | Male | Age | 53 |
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| I have been married for 25 years and have two sexual affairs that my wife doesn't know about. | 232012 | ||||||
| State | Antario | City | Toronto | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| My boyfriend and I have been dating for a year now. I love him to death, but he is a slacker and is widely unsuccessful in many of his endeavours. I am trying to encourage him to start his own company, but with no success. Him, I and his best friend whom I shall call Luke are lined up for a threesome in a month. Luke and I are both way too excited. Luke has his own business already and is very successful. I am just realizing now that I love my current boyfriend to death, and would marry him, but can't see myself in a successful future anymore. The magic is gone in bed too. I don't know what to do. | 11252010 | ||||||
| State | BC | City | Kelowna | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I am so happy that after years of strife and unhappiness I am free and happy and with this I have redeveloped my eating disorder. It feels like I grieved her and am now giving her new life; I have honest-to-myself never felt better. | 8302010 | ||||||
| State | British Columbia | City | Vancouver | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| Three weeks ago a man died, this man is remembered fondly by many. He gave to the poor, had a fancy house and a handsome smile. Thee weeks ago I stopped being raped. At 22 years old, these were my nights in his fancy house. I'm so alone and the words cant escape my lips.I'm in my second year medical school, I learn how to tell people to move beyond their circumstances - to make more of themselves. I can't even face my own reality, I can't sleep, I can't breathe and I'm fighting to keep the smile plastered on my face and my chin in the air. Nothing makes sense, something inside of me is bagging me to jump off the bridge near my downtown apartment. | 10242011 | ||||||
| State | MB | City | WPG | Gender | Male | Age | 15 |
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| I believe I have OCD. I am afraid to tell anyone because I think they will make fun of me for trying to get them to feel sorry about me. People have taunted me for that reason ever since I over reacted to my sprained toe. | 7142010 | ||||||
| State | Manitoba | City | Winnipeg | Gender | Male | Age | 15 |
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| I still have feelings for my very suicidal ex-girlfriend. She is the only person I have ever loved, and probably will ever love. I am sorry I took you for granted and told him that secret. I resent that day. I still love you and I am just happy that you haven't ended it. I love you and thank you for keeping my promise. | 7142010 | ||||||
| State | Manitoba | City | Winnipeg | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I have always loved you, and always will love you, even though I did not exactly show it to you. You are the most amazing person in the universe. I rue the day that I told your secret to A. I can't believe I did that. I still remember the day I fell in love with you, the day I was talking on the phone to you at this hotel. And I will always remember the day we stayed up on the phone almost all night when you were about to end it all. I truly meant those words I said. I miss you. You're special, because even after we broke up, you kept your promise. Don't ever brake that promise, either. Thank-you for making my life worth living. | 7142010 | ||||||
| State | NS | City | Halifax | Gender | Female | Age | 27 |
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| sometimes I hate my life...I could have been so much more! Sometimes I dread getting up in the morning. occasionally I hate being married, I hate living here, but I really just hate my life | 1252010 | ||||||
| State | New Brunswick | City | Saint John | Gender | Female | Age | 29 |
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| I lie. I'm not really sure why I do. I seem to have no problem doing it. I lie to strangers in particular - about my job, my hobbies, who I actually am. I've done this since I was in Junior High. Weird. | 3292010 | ||||||
| State | Nova Scotia | City | Halifax | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I have been madly in love and lust with a girl for three and a half years. I am also engaged to be married, to a different girl, who I have known for over 6 years. I now realize I will never be able to let go of the woman I am actually in love with, but she is friends with the woman I am engaged to and has made it clear that she has no interest in a romantic relationship with me at all. This apparently makes no difference to my brain or my dick, because I saw her tonight for the first time in months and I am right back to crazy uncontrollable desire. The reason I am marrying the woman that I am, is because she has made it clear that if we broke up, she couldn't be friends with me. I can't bear to lose my best friend, so I'm marrying her, even though I'm not physically attracted to her anymore and I wish I could be with other women. Meanwhile, if I want to have a nice night at a bar, and I see the other woman there, I have to leave, my mind stormy, my dick hard, my night ruined. | 12142011 | ||||||
| State | ON | City | King City | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| i have a boyfriend and i have been secretly checking his email. we have been bf gf for a long time and he is a great guy but i found out he is cheating on me and secretly calling me stuff like ugly, a loser and other stuff. i dont want to dump him cause he is such an awesome guy but he is cheating on me and il never find a man like him. | 8222009 | ||||||
| State | ON | City | Walkerton | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I had sex with my best guy friend, who of which my parents dont like him. That was the best sex of my life and his as well. We promised to be friends for 10 years, and I want to have a releationship with him right now. I have to wait for another 4 years, and I hope it goes by fast. | 9252010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I've cut myself for about a year now, mainly on my thighs, because it helps me cope with pain.. no one knows. A couple months ago I cut my arms severley after a fight with my parents. I've been hiding the scars all along, but my friend's are wondering why I'm wearing long sleeved shirts in the summer and I have to wear a dress for prom in 2 weeks. I hate myself for what I have done to my body, I look like a mess and now I will be marked up for life. I've been so stressed out with this that I've been making myself purge after eating, I am disgusted with how I look. I'm also pretty sure I'm bi-sexual, even leaning towards girls but I know that no one would accept me if I said anything. I always get pissed off when I hear about people cheating, but I cheated on my first boyfriend twice but have never told him. fccccck. :'( | 582009 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Barrie | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I am in love with a man who I met when I was 19. At the time I didn't think him and I would ever be fit for eachother so I married another man. I could not get over my love for him and it led to a divorce. After the divorce he came back into my life for 3 days. I flew to meet him in his hometown. After our weekend together he saw me off at a train station so I could go visit my sister. He embraced me and said he would see me again soon. Than he disapeared from my life. It has been 2 years and I have not been able to make contact with him. Time has not healed my wound, I continue to ache for him everyday. He haunts my sleep and clouds my thoughts. If only I had beleived in us when the time was right. Our entire story is one that would sell any novel, but I can't find the sanity to write it without him. How long until my heart heals? God help me. Te amo mi amore. | 11302009 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Bracebridge | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I have cried myself to sleep almost every night, for years. | 752009 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Kenora | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I am addicted to pretending to be someone I'm not. I go onto chat websites, with a fake profile, name, and personality. I have been doing this for 3 years. I am scared that this addiction is spiraling out of control, and I have extreme anxiety when I am not online. I am scared for that day when all those people find out I have been messing with them. | 7142010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| my stepfather abuses me. physicall and emotionally. the physical part isnt that extreme, but the emotional part is.he constantly makes me feel fat and ugly. im not allowed to eat, i have to do ALL the housework, and whenevr i try to stand up for myself, he brings up my father who abandoned me as a kid, and wants nothing to do with me. i cant deal with that. im already on anti depressants, and im going insane. he's the only person in the world i can say i hate you too, without feeling guilt. and i cant call the cops or anything because we cant afford it. if he goes, were officially on the streets. if i get seriously injured tho, i dont care. ive already had a fat eye, i dont want a broken arm. my grades are low, and my friends say i havnt been myself lately.. help me? | 472011 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | North Bay | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I suffer from depression, anxiety, and OCPD. I've done everything I can to help myself out of it - counselling, perscription drugs, working out, etc. The only thing that I've found that makes me feel happy - Twilight. I have a wonderful husband, great career and privilages that others don't, and the only thing that makes me happy is Twilight. Good grief. | 262011 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Richmond Hill | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I don't want my best friend to have other friends. We live far away from each other. I'm afraid they'd make her happier than I make her. I know this is wrong, I feel terrible. | 10272010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Richmond hill | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I'm currently in love with my best guy friend. But I'm dating another guy. I like the guy I'm dating, I really do. But I've been in love with my best guy friend for years! And I'm too scared to tell him because I can't afford to lose his friendship. He means the world to me. We hooked up last summer and it just made me want him more. I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back though. I don't know what to do. Do I break up with the guy I'm seeing? Or just try to forget the love of my life? | 1202011 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Thunder Bay | Gender | Male | Age | 46 |
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| I have been killing animals since I was 7 years old. I need something else it is not helping me anymore I need something much more human. | 672010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Tonronto | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| i have a step sister and when im home alone my favorite thing to do is go into her closet and put on her clothes. I dress as a girl even have msn for Ashley(my girl name). I have gone out and met people at the clubs and passed as a girl and loved it sex with a guy is the best. Also while wearing my sisters clothes i had two guys that i met online over and we had a 3 way. i love crossdressing and i love gay sex but i would never dare come out to my family. | 7132009 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Toronto | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I am 20 years old, I keep hearing everyone talk about getting the "feeling" when they meet the "one". I got that feeling, too bad I got it when I met a guy who doesn't care for me like I care for him. I will ALWAYS have a place in my heart for him, no matter who I end up marrying. | 112010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Toronto | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I slept with one of my oldest friend's boyfriend, twice when they were together and once after they broke up. She confronted me about it, I lied. sorry | 142010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Toronto | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I'm scared one say you'll leave like always but only this time you won't return. I'm scared you won't return because you will stop loving me. I'm scared you don't love me. That's why I cut. | 6242010 | ||||||
| State | Ontario | City | Toronto | Gender | Male | Age | 14 |
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| I masturbate to my parents having sex and I do it without my parents knowing | 10102011 | ||||||
| State | Quebec | City | Montreal | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I was at a park a few hours ago with 13 friends after a girl's 17 birthday party. There was a girl there who I've always found really pretty -she's bi-sexual and I'm bi-curious though only my boyfriend knows it. I was sitting on top of a bench when she leaned in towards me, centimetres from me face; i thought she was going to kiss me -she did to and I wanted her to. She told me she almost did right afterwards and I laughed, saying I didn't think that would have happened. I wanted it to though and there is nobody I can tell. She and my boyfriend were friends with benefits a few years ago and he is already uncomfortable with us being friends. I just needed to share that really, really badly. | 11132010 | ||||||
| State | SK | City | Regina | Gender | Male | Age | 38 |
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| I love going to the local college gym to work out. I'm a bodybuilder and I'm very well hung so I get a lot of attention. I always go there freeballing and I run for an hour so I start stinking of ballsweat and I smell like my cock and ass. Then I go around the gym, offer guys doing bench press a spot which they rarely refuse. When I do spot them, I wait till they struggle on the last rep. they cannot really move then I move my balls really close to their faces pretending to help lift the weights, and they cannot move but have to inhale the strong odour of my mandhood and I smear the ball sweat all over their foreheads. Then I go to the men's bathroom, then jack off really instense and loud. cum all over the toilet, the floor, sometimes I do it outside in the bathroom, in front of the sink. I also swipe underwears in the lockerroom, jerk off in them and then put them back on the bench and sometimes, they put the underwear on without noticing anything while i'm watching only to find out their cocks were covered with my cum | 1132009 | ||||||
| State | Saskatchewan | City | Moose Jaw | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| My dad died by suicide last spring, I was the last one to see him alive; he snuck out of the house while I was in the shower. To this day, I still feel like I could have stopped him. I'm sorry dad. | 11272011 | ||||||
| State | Toronto | City | Brampton | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| i masturbate in office bathroom....... | 12152010 | ||||||
| State | bc | City | parksville | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| My ex's girlfriend asked if I would have a 3-some with them...I'd never do it...But I secretly loved to rub it in his face that even she wanted me.... Now we are together and hes fucking her behind my back....hmmm wat to do... | 5112011 | ||||||
| State | ontario | City | Brantford | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I have the desperate need to fuck my girlfriend's sister. It's awful, and I'm ashamed, but I've felt this way for two years. I often fantasize about her, or about having a threesome with myself, her, and my girlfriend. The desire is killing me, but I love my girlfriend too much to do anything. | 7262009 | ||||||
| State | Guangdong | City | Guangzhou | Gender | Male | Age | 24 |
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| Home, sweet home? I can hardly feel it. | 12102011 | ||||||
| State | Antioquia | City | Medellin | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| Most of the time I want to kill myself, I have done so much things that make me feel sad and without chances in life, sometimes I feel that I don't deserve more opportunities. I have a wonderful mom and family that love me, but I feel that they are too good for me. I don't have strength for do what my family want for me. Also, I am not sure about what I want for my future. they give me the opportunities for reach my goals but I don't have any.I like somethings but I can work on them. Please, Help Me! | 1012009 | ||||||
| State | Quito | City | Machala | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| both sexual active. Both of us never get tired of each other body. But one thing piss me of is, during sex, he kiss when i ask him, when i give my blow job, he let me less than 5 min. and he refused to lick my pussy and once ejaculate and that the wrap. end up i get bored due to know satisfaction. what his problem? | 3292011 | ||||||
| State | City | Gender | Female | Age | 19(14) |
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| Hm, well my mates my went out we invited 2 boyss over, i gave 1 head, and we got off on the bathrooom floor. hm another thing i got off with a girl. a few, actualy | 7232009 | ||||||
| State | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 27 |
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| I am deeply in love with a man who loves me back but I can't stop worrying that I'm going to mess it up somehow. Nothing seems to be enough. First I was obsessed with having him move in. Now he's living with me and I'm obsessed with us getting married even though it's never been something that was important to me before. We talk about it and he says it's all okay but I'm checking his computer when he sleeps to see if he's bought a ring and I feel like I'm betraying him in the worst possible way. I love him so much that it feels like an obsession, the longer we are together the more I want to be his, completely. I'm worried that something this strong can't possibly last and that if it ever ended, I'd never recover. | 11142011 | ||||||
| State | City | Manchester | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I'm jealous of my dad's two children because they have a fantastic relationship with him and I never have. | 992010 | ||||||
| State | City | Nottingham | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| When sitting in the back of a car with two gay friends, I was disgusted at how their 'high pitched voices' suddenly turned into deep bases as they laughed. They had lost control of restraint on their faux feminine ways and I found a sick pleasure in it. They are not and will never be female. I sometimes wonder if I am homophobic. | 12252009 | ||||||
| State | City | Swansea | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I am so unbelievably in love with him, i have been for months and he still doesnt know. Every part of me is telling me to let it go but i just cant. I've never felt this way before. I think about him everyday.... if only he knew. | 1262010 | ||||||
| State | City | West Midlands | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I've fallen in love with a boy I met on the internet. We speak as often as we can, sometimes for up to six hours. I stay up all night talking to him leaving me incredibly moody from lack of sleep, but it makes me even more depressed when I don't get to speak to him. He's the only person in the world I feel completely comfortable talking about anything with. He makes me feel beautiful, he listens to me, I spend all my time thinking about him when we're not talking. I think he feels the same about me, he tells me he loves me. I hate that we can't be together, I hate that I don't live in South Dakota. | 142010 | ||||||
| State | City | Worcestershire | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| i have a boyfriends, and im very much in love and happy with him. BUT ive also been in love with another boy for 5-6 years, he knows it but he doesnt want to get involved with me. He used to be my best friend, proper tell-them-everything-do-everything-together best friend, now he doesnt speak to me... Just as i was starting to get over him a few months ago he kissed me, he said he regretted it, but then last week just as we'd gotten over the whole awkwardness he kissed me again, and tried to take it further but i didnt, and now we're back to not speaking, my boyfriend knows that it happened, and he forgave me, i dont deserve a boy like him. But i dont know how to get over the other boy. | 9222009 | ||||||
| State | - | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I'm so angry at my girlfriend. Every time I hang out with my other friends, she gets angry and bitchy and jealous. And she claims she likes my friends but she NEVER wants us (my best friend, me and her) to hang out or bitches about how I should go fuck her or live with her when I invite her to one of girls' nights out with her friends. When she's in one of her moods, she says things that really hurt me and always accuses me of treating her badly. I always end up apologising simply because I'm tired of fighting and don't want to lose our relationship because when we're not fighting, she is an amazing person to be with. We've been together for seven years and I'm not going to lose what we have now but at the same time, I'm really, truly tired of the bitchy shit. Fuck, what do I do? Breaking up is not an option but I'm so frustrated I could cut myself right now! | 10162011 | ||||||
| State | Blyth | City | New castle | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I have a secret, i recently found out i have an older brother. We met for the first time and ended up having sex, i am so ashamed and i no i shouldnt have done it. It could ruin everything and im scared my family will hate me for it, the thing is i dont actually regret what we did, just the fact he is my brother. now i come from a relativly normal family and never done anything like this b4. It happened more than once and in the same house as our family, now he is acting strange but he says he doesnt regret what happened one bit. I dont want to lose him as my brother but we carnt carry on, its fucking up my head. Im so scared people will find out and losing my family. Im so confused! I know what we did was wrong but we carnt stop. What should i do? Please help me!!! Im not a bad person, its like we are not related, we were not bought up together im not using this as an excuse, just trying to explain things to myself. | 8282009 | ||||||
| State | County Durham | City | Durham | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| My boyfriend thinks I was a virgin when we slept together, and that I have only slept with him. That's not true. I wish it was. | 1242012 | ||||||
| State | England | City | England | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| My friends always leave me out and im sick of it but i have no other friends to go too. They call me names, leave my by myself, make internet passwords about me and other more personal things. I know i should find other friends but i just cant.Please help me | 6202011 | ||||||
| State | England | City | Nottigham | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| The only reason I haven't been cutting lately is because about a month ago I ran out of places. My mum would be distraught if she knew how I feel; useless, ugly and disgusting. I have no true friends, only a best- friend-turned-girlfriend who only speaks to me in order to rant about her problems. Nobody knows how much I hate myself and wish I was dead. I don't feel attractive or confident in any way, and have no self esteem. All I want is to escape from the pain. I turned sixteen recently, yet I have never felt less like a woman; I'm just a 'thing' that wishes to end all this. | 5302011 | ||||||
| State | Greater London | City | London | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I'm pretty sure I love you. But we've been best friends so long. I don't want to possibly ruin this, but I don't want to just be friends anymore. Your the only person I trust completely, and feel comfortable talking to. I just don't want to scare you off. | 252010 | ||||||
| State | Gt London | City | London | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| I still love the girl I broke up with and sometimes I want to kill myself. | 3292010 | ||||||
| State | Kent | City | Canterbury | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I hate the thought of acting controlling, but it makes me feel angry, jealous and threatened that you even speak to her. Because I know she'd jump at the chance to get with you. And for that, I - a hugely passive person - hate her. | 1142011 | ||||||
| State | London | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 30 |
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| When I was 15 I didn't go to my Nan's funeral because I wanted to make out with a boy who was coming over that day. Since then I can not go to any funerals because of the guilt I carry around with me, I think that my nan would never forgive me if i went to someone else's funeral and not hers so i have missed 3 close family members funerals since. I'm so sorry Nan, it wasn't worth it | 12132009 | ||||||
| State | London | City | London | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| i've had the worst kind of sexual thoughts: about men,and my family members. Sometimes the thoughts were accompanied by a slight feeling. My psychologist doesn't think i'm a full fledged homosexual and i don't either. But i feel awful about the thoughts and feelings, I wish they would stop and I'm afraid to tell any of my family or friends because it'll ruin my reputation. I feel terribly lonely and quite depressed. I believe that if I had unconditional love and encouragement the thoughts and slight feelings would dissappear. If anyone has expereinced this before please let me know | 10172011 | ||||||
| State | London | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I'm in love with my ex-lecturer. Despite age difference (I'm 22 and he's 46), I've always found him sexually attractive. And after getting to know him a bit better, I fell in love. I think, I could easily send him a message saying that I would love to get physical with him, no strings attached (don't believe in future together). But... I don't know if I should. I keep thinking if he would see me as a silly kid or, completely opposite, be happy to spend some time with a young miss. I'm also slightly scared that rejection might destroy the only bright thing going on in my life for now. It's been half a year since I last saw him but I still think about him every night till I fall asleep and every morning when I wake up. It makes me happy. And it could be more. My friends tend not to understand me ("Eww, he's old!"), I doubt my parents will (they're age 44 and 47), so I keep it to myself when I actually want to shout it out loud; this happy I am but this desperate. Should I talk to him? | 10242011 | ||||||
| State | Midlands | City | ... | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I have been going to secondary school for 5 years and haven't made a single friend. Nobody at my school shares my interests, and because I have an autistic-spectrum disorder I am extremely shy and can't start conversations anyway. It's high functioning autism, meaning I have a complete understanding of what I'm missing. Like being in a cage I can't ever escape from. I don't know what I'm going to do in the future, but I'm almost certain I'll be doing it alone. I feel truly ugly, worthless and unfeminine. The only thing keeping me alive is that I'm scared of death, and my parents would be crushed if I died. They are my only true friends, but I can't tell them how I feel because they don't know what to do to help me either. | 5302011 | ||||||
| State | N/A | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I've never told anyone about the abuse from my dad. I hate him for what he did to me and he was alcoholic too, asking me if he could kill himself so he wouldnt feel guilty...i had to watch him self harm when i was 10 and now i drink all the time to forget it and im not able to be in a relationship because of him.. and even though he's dead now, i dont cry because he died.. its because of what he did to me when i was 13. my life is so shit.. i cant take it anymore. | 9152009 | ||||||
| State | Norfolk | City | Somewhere | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I self harmed for years and now i think about it every day, i don't feel i have anyone to turn to but my boyfriend but he just gets annoyed at moans to other people about how annoying i am and how im not making him happy, i know this cause i hack his facebook, its not that i dont trust him i just need to know how he really feels but every time i look at it, it kills me a little inside. i know a simple solution would be not to look but im so paranoid that no matter how hard i try something compels me to. The fact that i dont make him happy makes me so angry at myself and makes me want to better myself by losing more weight and cutting, maybe if i can be all the things he wants and can make myself better maybe he'd love me like he used to. | 9232010 | ||||||
| State | Nottingham | City | Nottingham | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| met this guy when i went home for christmas like a year ago, he is my sisters friend, when we met i really liked him cos he had a nice personality. when i came back to uni we started chatting and calling each other regularly and i feel in love with him after a couple of months. but he later told me he had sex with my sister once and that it was a mistake, i was hurt for a while but my friend told me it wasnt his fault so i stupidly let it pass and went on with the relationship. cos of wat he told me i found it hard to tell my sister that i had feeling for him. wen we met we also made love and i felt strange afterwards. i went home for hols later and my sister picked up the phone and he was the one on the phone saying how we should meet up. my sister was soo mad at me, she told me that i could bring someone in to break up the family and i feel so horrible now. to make matters worse someone told her dat i had sex with d guy. i feel so horrible now and so ashamed of myself, dont know if my sister would ever forgive me and it hurts really bad to think that it happened all becos of a guy. wish i never had anything to do with him. | 242010 | ||||||
| State | SE | City | Gender | Female | Age | 31 |
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| I want him to ask me to marry him now. I'm finding it hard to keep my control. We've talked about it and both want it so I don't know what's taking him any time at all. I love him so much and I want to start our forever today. | 11132011 | ||||||
| State | Wales | City | Swansea | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Last night i cried more that i ever have, i know you heard me and it hurts that you weren't there for me when i needed you the most. | 9252010 | ||||||
| State | n/a | City | Aberdeen | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| I'm in love with my best friend. He's hurt me 3 times before. He's loved me in the past but I know he no longer cares for me in that way. He's made me afraid to love, or be loved because I know that if I do I'll get hurt. I want him so much.. and he's so beautiful. He tells me he wouldn't change a thing about me.. and we've been talking about things only people in a relationship would talk about. People think he's only using me, but he's my best friend. We've come to depend on eachother so much that I don't feel my life would have a purpose without him. He's the one constant I've ever had, and by telling him my feelings; which I have done twice before, will make me loose him, and I can't risk that. I don't know what to do. I love him, but I know he does not care for me in the slightest. He chooses girls over me all the time, when he knows how I feel.. and I can't stop this, Can anybody help me? | 8292011 | ||||||
| State | sussex | City | Brighton | Gender | Female | Age | 25 |
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| I have been in love with the same boy for 4 years but we only just got together, in the past I was so depressed about not being with him I filled my life with drinking and partying. I slept with over 10 people all the time being in love with him, he broke my heart twice and I never told him how much he hurts me. We are together now but im to scared to tell him about the guys and the partying because I was his first. im just happy to rest by his side. He is trying so hard to be a good boyfriend he is caring and kind but i worry something is missing i hope we can stick it out. I really do love him, He is coming to my town soon (we are long distance) and im so worried someone will say something about my past. | 482010 | ||||||
| State | City | Paris | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I think about him everyday and I hate it ! He's my sister's ex-boyfriend and I'm too shy, not confident and scared to say that I like him... It's so hard to have feelings for somebody.. | 9152009 | ||||||
| State | Paris | City | Paris | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Well, something inside me has changed that night. I still feel guilty because I've never lied to the people close to me before. I've always fancied each-other with that guy. We went to the same highschool (he's 3 years older than me)and we had a nice and harmonic time together. After he graduated we barely spoken. Then one evening he asked me to hang out...it was obvious what he wanted. I told my family I was going to the cinema with some guy and after he came to me we went up to his falt. Watched some movies stared to kiss then one thing led to another. (In face that was my first time...) For the end of that night I felt so awfull for what kind of person I've become. I was so naive, I thought he wanted something more but he he never called me again. And I'm still lying about what happened that night. | 562010 | ||||||
| State | europe | City | Paris | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| i made a fake facebook account so i could add man I had a crush. He accpted the invite and started messaging me. It has now come to the point where he said he knows who i am. I am really freeked out because i don't want him to know. How would i convince him that I am not the person he thinks i am (even if i am tht person.) ;/ | 12162010 | ||||||
| State | City | Athens | Gender | Female | Age | 31 |
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| My most embarrasing secret is that I didn't find out about the Rwanda massacre untill I watched the film "Hotel Rwanda" in 2006. I was 15 at the time. Not a grown up but not a child either and somehow I missed it. In this day and age how self obsorved must you be not to realise that thousand and thousands of people met horrible death? Could I have done something? Probably not but at least I would have known. I feel so small and petty. After some searching I realised that this problem like all of Africa's problems was created by Europeans. One more thing to be embarrased. I feel I should apologise and try to make things right but to whom do I talk to? How do I fix this? | 1112011 | ||||||
| State | Hong Kong | City | Hong Kong | Gender | Male | Age | 29 |
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| I am engaged with Michelle.She is the sweetest creature god bless me, she loves me than anyone else and I love her back over anything,used to.But I cheated on her with Lucy,another girl I met when I was relocated overseas 6 months ago and we moved in together in that country. Now I am back Hong Kong, I still love Michelle a lot, but I cannt perform sex with her cause it's all Lucy in my eyes. Both Lucy and I know we dont have feature and she is drifting me away from me. But I cannt get over Lucy and I feel awful on myself cheating Michelle. Can anyone just pray for me? I am so helpless and I cant pray for HIS forgiveness. | 862010 | ||||||
| State | City | Bangalore | Gender | Female | Age | 28 |
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| I am a 28 years old married(5yrs) female.I have not had sex wid my husband for 2 years.I had to go through an abortion and i kept him awy for 3 months nhe never liked me after that and we didnt have a sexual relationship from then on even after my futile tries.Recently i met a 30yr old guy and I fell in love wid him deeply and we made love.The relationship still goes on.We love each other madly and i dont know whether to continue being a wife to my husband or live a single life.The guy who i am seeing is not married and soon to get married.So there is no way that we both can get married.I am so confused and nt know what to do.Please help | 7162010 | ||||||
| State | Andha pradesh | City | Hyderabad | Gender | Male | Age | 27 |
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| This is the secret, I never imagined or thought in my life. Recently I have visited a dermatologist for skin check up and I came to know that I am having a kind skin cancer and may not live for more that a year. So far this secret is closed with me and doctor. I dont know, whom should I share this secret and My family loves me a lot, they cannot believe it or take the truth. They will be in deep grief including my friends. Every body around me loves me and wants to spend time with me. I am not sure that I should share this to any of my close pals. I googled to find some one to share my feeling...finally its you got my secret and Your kind words or suggestion are always appreciated. You can reach me at secret_holdder@in.com | 3222009 | ||||||
| State | Assam | City | Tezpur | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| i'm a 15 year old gal who is addicted to porn sites!! Can anyone help me? | 4122010 | ||||||
| State | Delhi | City | Dehli | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I am a south indian. In south india marriages can happen with ur cousins. I love my cousin a lot, but he doesnt even speak to me. | 9232011 | ||||||
| State | Delhi | City | Delhi | Gender | Male | Age |
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| i am 14 years old boy and i stole nearly 20000 rupees for my food cigret and for my redbull inspite of having so great parents i eat junk food inspite my mother cook food daily my full class beat me but i lie at home that i am boss of class and no one in class give me respect i am in love and my frd cheat on me the girl i love dint even see me because i am fat not a good persnality and no good looks i just wanna die i lied at home that i am a religious man but i am not i just wanna die i a am good for nothing and i love you a*i*a | 1012011 | ||||||
| State | Delhi | City | Moon | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| I grew up in India.When I was a teen,I ran way with an older married man.I got pregnant.He left his wife and kids. Few months after he didn't want to stay together.I left to US and my young child was raised by family members so i can pursue higher education and pave a better life for my self & my child.He is remarried and have few kids with new wife. I got married and brought my child to US to live with us.I'm raising my child with my husband.My husband is great.I feel so shame of my past and feel terrible for people that I have hurt(specially his ex wife and kids).I called apologize to his ex wife and she pretends not to know me.I felt relief that i actually called and apologized to her.When i'm with people of my ethnicity,I feel they are judging me or they're going to find out about my past.So i don't open to them.I never told my co workers that I have a biological child, when I brought my child to US I told them we adopted.I feel shame to share my past and that they're going to think less of me. | 10212011 | ||||||
| State | Gujarat | City | Rajkot | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| I had an Incest relationship with my aunt even after having promised my girlfriend not to do it. Should I continue having incest? Should I have my a relationship with my girlfriend? Or should I have both at the same time? | 8152010 | ||||||
| State | Madhya pradesh | City | Bhopal | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| Hi i am Luckky, my biggest secret of life is that i like to wear ladies panties and i have cllection of abuot 25 panties | 162011 | ||||||
| State | Maharashtra | City | Ambernath | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| there is blackmailing is done by the college for donation.my education loan has been transferred to the donation. plz help me, that is 3rd year of mech engg. | 10142008 | ||||||
| State | Maharashtra | City | Mumbai | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| hi,i have this secret and i dnt know with whom to share it..i've been having sex with my uncles for almost 4 years now,i m now engaged n gng to get married,n even though now i've decided to stop this,i just cant control myself,its like i enjoy having sex with them,and i've also slept with my fiance's dad..and i just cant seem to control it..all i thnk abt is sex whole day,i just end up sleeping with everyone..help me.. | 1262010 | ||||||
| State | Ph | City | Ugaf | Gender | Male | Age | 26 |
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| I had a girlfriend.i still love her.accidentally she got pregnant.my family is never going to allow us. neither i have guts to do anything.she had tried suicide number of times.i don't know where she is. i love her a lot,but unable to take decision.she hates me to limits.i an afraid she or her family may lodge FIR in police.i have no guts to suicide.i an living blind,aimless.what to do. Pls help. | 852011 | ||||||
| State | Rajasthan | City | Jaipur | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| I love a girl, more than anything in my life, more than myself, she's my angel, my flower, my archangle, we were once bestest friends, but we broke up, and i never ever got to tell her how much i loved her, now that we're apart, she thinks i don't know that she still cares for me, prays for me in the temples when i'm hurt, cry for me, i tell everyone that i hate her, have abused her on her face when she's as pure as the heaven, but the truth is i love her more than my self, still...it's just she hurt me so many times, when we were there, one of her friends said stuff for me, and she didn't defend me, she sometimes avoided me for him, he's her boyfriend now, i cry alot daily for the, sometimes my mind hopes that they break apart, but my heart still prays that please if you both are together and happy, that's what i want, your happiness is more valuable than mine, becoz Angel, fleur, you are my world, my happiness lies in yours, and i will always be there for you without you knoing... | 1132010 | ||||||
| State | West Bengal | City | Kolkata | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| from very begining i didn't have trust on god.I do all bad things including homosex,alcohol,group sex,drugs,making porn mms and even tried to rape many under age girl.I belong to muslim family, and they r very religious.I never got a single dream of my life to become true,and found my self always in a great trouble. Every 1 says i shd start praying, but its not possible 4 me.Don't knw how 2 believe. Each day i found my self on the same track.I want 2 live a good life, but don't knw what 2 do... | 1272011 | ||||||
| State | deihi | City | delhi | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| i had a relation with my bf who is younger to me..i cudnt stop him..i just wantd to kiss him but he touched me intimately ...i do acept that it was my fault ...but i dint wanted it like that..i know girls do such kind of things with their bf.. i never had a bf n i realy wanted one to understand me but he was a kind of dominating so i cudnt even stop him in the fear of loosing him...he dint forced me ..but it was fukin me who cudnt stop him..being a girl i wanted it first n d last but i was an idiot now i feel like including my self in the category of those dumb girls only ..the fucking thing is i cannot hide any fukin thing from my brother but feel like hell when i remember the moment i did it...though it was not that intimate but for one like me it hurts a lot...he will foget it being a boy... but i m a girl damn it n dat soo huh...i feel like cursing my self sumtime. but the good is i dint do anything realy intimate n m still a virgin.. but still it hurts | 422011 | ||||||
| State | karnataka | City | Bangalore | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| i am a virgin. | 1082011 | ||||||
| State | mahrastra | City | mumbai | Gender | Male | Age | 14 |
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| I have many secrets I dont know where to start I stole money from my father pocket it must be 40 thousand till now for my cigarettes and redbull and I smoke 9 times in a day I love my parent and I tell lie to them that I pray 5 times in a day every one hates me in the school and I love a girl I don't know whether she loves me or not but my jealous friend propose to her and she accepted it may Allah forgive my sins | 9102011 | ||||||
| State | u.p | City | Allahabad | Gender | Male | Age | 28 |
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| I wanted to share my secret and fears with all of you and seeking a solution as well. Please do respond. I have be sexually abused when i was 4-5 years old then at the age of 8-9. Actually few of my relatives took me to a room and asked me to play with their penis. Another time my real brother taught me how to masturbate when i was 9-10. I have seen my uncle trying to seduce my mom when i was child as well. All this had a very deep impact on me. I have been doing masturbation after learning it at the age of 9-10, at that time even at the time of orgasm not sperm was coming out of my penis. in the later age, around 16-18 i started suffering with night discharge (ejaculation while sleeping), weakness etc. Now i am 28 years old and find my self weak, with small penis, premature ejaculation, body like an 40 yrs old male and i am in depression as well. I really want a life partner with whom i can share everything. But i don't know whether to marry a girl or not, i think will i destroy her life too? what if i am not able to satisfy her sexually...will she have sex with others blah blah..... Please give me your honest advice what shall i do...shall i get married? Here i am talking about arrange marriage since i don't have any girlfriend. | 332010 | ||||||
| State | Jawa Barat | City | Bandung | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| i still love him.i hate his imaginary girlfriend.why he choose that girl?i'm so real,he can meet me anytime he wants,he doesnt have to go to india.i really hate that indian girl.to know that he's in love with an imaginary girl,it makes me feel so awful | 9162009 | ||||||
| State | jakarta | City | jakarta | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I still singel at my 26 birthday. I never have a boyfriend in my life. Ilie to my Fren,I tell them that i have. sorry for that | 11142010 | ||||||
| State | City | Galway | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I want to kill myself but I know I won't because I don't want to leave my mother wondering about why I never told her how I really felt. | 10212010 | ||||||
| State | Antrim | City | Belfast | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Everyday I feel like dying. No one has bothered to ask if I was ok, no one cares enough. | 452010 | ||||||
| State | Tel Aviv | City | Tel Aviv | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| Well. I think im going mad. im loosing myself, i hate myself, i cut myself, i look in the mirror and i laugh. and after i laugh i cry and scream. i was sitting with 3 boxes of pills no more then once, and thought of ending my life. the only thing to keep me here is my little brother. i really wanna die. i really dont want to live. that is my decision... but i cant leave my brother alone with my fucked up family... | 4282010 | ||||||
| State | central | City | nyeri | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| I am attracted to my cousins (two of them) sexually but i feel that will be incest. i dont have a girlfriend so i guess that is the reason. i seem not to have found the right girl to call gf. | 892010 | ||||||
| State | / | City | Skopje | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I am almost 20 years old. I have never been kissed nor had a boyfriend, no one has ever told me I love you and held my hand. I am alone and lonely. I am scared. Of being alone forever, of never experiencing love. I am so scared. | 232012 | ||||||
| State | KL | City | KL | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| Today is the worst day of my life. I've just learnt that the girl that I've loved for 3 years got raped a couple of days ago. I'm unsuccessful and penniless, therefore I can't actually reach her because she's in another country. I feel really helpless and useless. I want to be there for her and yet I can't do anything. She means alot to me and why would such thing happened to her. I would rather the sufferings would happen to me itself. I don't care if I have to be hospitalized or ICU or whatever. She is my life. Why am i so useless. Someone please take my life away. I don't want to live anymore. Someone as useless as me doesn't deserve a spot in this world. If i could make her lead a happier life, I wouldn't mind sacrificing myself for her happiness. | 6252010 | ||||||
| State | Kuala Lumpur | City | KUALA LUMPUR | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I'm try to be normal | 1252011 | ||||||
| State | Selangor | City | Kuala Lumpur | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Sometimes I feel like I don't love my boyfriend. I know he loves me with all his heart but I just don't feel the same way. I think I still love my ex. It's just so sad to know that my ex is happy with his new girlfriend. I regret ever leaving him. | 12222009 | ||||||
| State | Selangor | City | Rawang | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i were atrracted wit a boy who were my brother's friend and im calling him brother.i really did not wish to call him brother but the situation make me as this.the boy im atrracted were already have girlfriend.i dont know what to do,but i know one thing im deeply love with him.please tell me wheather im do wrong or rite | 1242010 | ||||||
| State | Shah alam | City | Kuala lumpur | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| Who do i love?i'm confused): i need to love someone to make me feel stable.i know its kinda weird. | 6222010 | ||||||
| State | City | Cabo San Lucas | Gender | Male | Age | 65 |
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| i just want someone I can talk with, about what seems a hopeless situation....my life. | 5222011 | ||||||
| State | D.F. | City | Mexico | Gender | Female | Age | 29 |
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| I feel terrible today. It´s been almost 8 years since my dad passed, and two and a half since my mom did. I´m an only child, and broke up with my boyfriend a couple months ago. Even though it was an abusive, violent relationship, I felt like he was all I had. I´m an only child, and the rest of my family doesn´t live in my city. Today I´m tired of pretending everything is fine. Cause it´s not. Everybody thinks I´m so strong, but the truth is, I feel sad and terribly lonely. | 12212011 | ||||||
| State | Danilovgrad | City | Spuž | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| When I was living in Canada, from kindergarten to grade 3 I was known as the "Kissy Boy" and I got along with girls easily. Now I can't even talk to a girl | 7142010 | ||||||
| State | Podgorica | City | Podgorica | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| The only reason I'm not dead is because I am scared of death. I want to be dead though. I've tried cutting myself, but I faint when I see blood. I'm the emo gone wrong. | 7142010 | ||||||
| State | Noord Holland | City | Amsterdam | Gender | Female | Age | 27 |
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| In 2 months I'll turn 28 and have achieved nothing in life. I don't have a job, no house of my own, no relationship. I've been in therapy for (social) anxiety for 3 years. Right now I'm in a group for 'fear of failing'. It was all going reasonably well, until the previous weekend. I decided to go to a party for once, got incredibly drunk and had sex with 2 guys. Looking back, I was too drunk to resist, I only remember flashes. This however caused all my other problems to surface 100x harder again. So I feel anxiety all day, don't know how to get through the day cause it's so empty; no job, all friends are at work. My parents are worried to death about me and that kills me. I feel like I'm only a burden to everyone. I have no idea how to get out of this, or if I ever will. If it was just me, I would end it. I don't, for my family. But I'm afraid that living for others does not cover it for long anymore... I'm desperate and afraid. | 6142010 | ||||||
| State | Utrecht | City | Amersfoort | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I can't help but to feel worthless. I am not good enough to stand out in anything. Academics, sports, arts. Nothing sticks with me. I'm even too weak to let go of my eating disorder which isn't even a real one since I'm not really able to keep it up every day either. I don't have anything I can call mine and that hurts. I want to be good at something or at least be able to stick with it. I'm too weak to do anything. | 6122010 | ||||||
| State | City | Otago | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I fell in love with a guys older than me and lost my virginity to him at the age of 15. He was a sweet talker and i tought he was caring, only to find out a year later that he lied to me and was with another girl for 2 years. The thing is it's been 6 months since we last saw each other and im still not over him, I even made a fake facebook account just so that i can stalk both him and his gf. Im starting to feeling addicted to it, i go on every day just to see their pictures, what they do and where they go. I still love him and im scared to run into them somewhere but at the same time i want to. I want to be his girl on a side whenever he feels lonely to come to me. IM ADDICTED TO HIM and im scared to do something stupid ill regret. Can someone please help! Im only 16 and nobody knows anything about him and im scared to tell my mum because she'll be angry at me. PLEASE HELP! | 1032009 | ||||||
| State | Auckland | City | Auckland | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| Last night I had sex with my ex, who's currently in a relationship with a girl who hates my guts, but who is living on the other side of the world for the next few months. It was the most amazing sex of my life but we didn't use any form of protection and I had to go get the morning after pill today. None of my friends know that I've been seeing him and if they did, they'd probably disown me. And I think I'm in love with him. | 3222009 | ||||||
| State | Auckland | City | Auckland | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| i love shardae laita | 2152010 | ||||||
| State | Auckland | City | Auckland | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| We were a secret couple because I wouldn't let you make it official. I kicked you out of my bed at 3am one morning before Christmas. I started seeing someone else and it took me a month to realise that I loved you. I dumped the new guy and a week later you got a new girlfriend. Now I have to go to uni with you every day, we chat and are good friends - but it's still killing me. | 4182010 | ||||||
| State | Auckland | City | Auckland | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| i need help, i have to drink each day. otherwise i get suicidal thoughts and my stomach hurts like there is emptiness inside it that can never be filled. sometimes i get an idea that sex will help, so i go out and get one night stands. I HATE MYSELF FOR THE LIFE I HAVE. | 12272010 | ||||||
| State | Auckland | City | North Shore | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I'm afraid of rejection. I don't want to leave the house in fear that I will be judged and tossed aside. I want to have the courage to ask a guy out but I'm too scared to. Everyone thinks I'm normal. I know there's something wrong with me. I just don't know where to turn to. | 7152010 | ||||||
| State | Cantebury | City | Christchurch | Gender | Female | Age | 40s |
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| I had some affairs in the 90s because I was angry at my husband. Now, when he is nasty to me I often feel like I deserve it. I have told a couple of close friends. They, like me, think that if he knew the truth he would lose control and possibly kill me. | 12272009 | ||||||
| State | Manawatu | City | Palmerston North | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| Every time you reject me,I feel another piece of my heart break and no matter how much I know your always going to hurt me I never want to let you go. | 9252011 | ||||||
| State | NI | City | Auckland | Gender | Male | Age | 33 |
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| I am in love with Emine Saner and really have to try hard to not stalk her. Unfortunately I am married and love my wife. | 552010 | ||||||
| State | Taranaki | City | New Plymouth | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I'm still in love with Anna. She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and I just want to be with her forever. But she can't ever ever know. | 4262009 | ||||||
| State | Waiouru | City | Waiouru | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| He got had me addicted to gambling and drugs..he mentally and physically abused me..he tried to kill me and ended up putting me on crutches for 3 months, But I still love him 2 years later. | 1122010 | ||||||
| State | Oslo | City | Oslo | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I can't help but feel all alone in this world. I have no idea what loving or trusting anyone else feels like, I can't remember, but I imagine it's warm and golden. I hate me. I hate how I pretend that I love people. That I pretend to be good. That I pretend to be happy. I just want this coldness to end. I just want to feel loved and love someone. I want to believe in humans again | 9192010 | ||||||
| State | Punjab | City | Lahore | Gender | Male | Age | 28 |
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| When I went to the college, I set my eyes on a girl whom I thought would be beyond my guts, I just wished what it would feel like to have her, next week she called me and we got together, and to my surprise she had the same thoughts about me and thought I would never go for her, useless to tell that I did. She has the most perfect, clean & flawless body. When I kissed her I felt like I was drugged, it was so good. I would lick everything on her body for hours and it just got better. Although we broke up but I can never forget her | 692009 | ||||||
| State | City | Cebu | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| hey j.. i think we could have been great together..i love you. but i love him too. -a | 122010 | ||||||
| State | City | Manila | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Last night, I got drunk with some very good friends of mine and ended up making out with one of them. Things were getting really hot and heavy - we'd even started touching each other down there. If another one of our friends hadn't pulled us apart and said to stop before we did something we'd both regret, I'm sure that eventually we'd have ended up having sex. The following morning, I told everyone I couldn't remember a thing that happened in order to avoid awkwardness. My secret? Not only do I remember everything, but I can't stop thinking about what sex with that friend of mine would have been like. I even masturbate while thinking about it. | 3272011 | ||||||
| State | NCR | City | NCR | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I've been thinking of killing my mom. She has been dragging EVERYBODY SHE MEETS to hell. Everybody has had enough of her. Someone must pull the weeds from the garden. She is the reasong why I almost killed myself (I actually did but the pills didn't work) She is so stupid. All stupid and mean pepole should be dispatched. | 7192009 | ||||||
| State | Non | City | Cebu | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I love you so much fidel !!!! I wish we could be together forever.. But there's also this other guy his name is gian and I love him too but he can never see me the way I see him because he loves this other girl but at least I know I'm special to him like a sister he likes to tease but I'm not sure if I could see you both again because we just graduated high school and I haven't got the chance to tell you all these. It will be hard but I'll try my best to move on without you two in my life. | 4292011 | ||||||
| State | Lisbon | City | Wass | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| It kills me to know that you are in the hospital and i don't know what's wrong. We've been together for more than 2 years, and still you don't ask me to join you and help you in this difficult period. I´m heart broken. | 882011 | ||||||
| State | Port | City | Port | Gender | Male | Age | 30 |
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| For years, I'm in a kind of platonic relationship with 3 persons. I have been in love for my best 2 friends: they are 2 girls and they are a couple. We are the best of friends and companions, we do almost everything together and share almost anything, except for sex. :( ! I have been been compensating for these with other girls, whom I really like but that I canot love because I'm already in love, and to whom I have to lie like if I had a secret relationship. When it starts getting serious, I just run off. These threesome is in deed a secret, in wich I pass almost all of my time, and the reason of my greatest joys and frustrations. But I know that even them, as a couple, are not in sync, emotionally and sexually. I believe that we should broke all barriers and share ourselves totally, but they block it, I d'ont know if they are rigth or just stuck on moral, psyche or fear. But I'm gettting to the point of giving up: it will be the better thing... or the worst... in my life!!! | 2252010 | ||||||
| State | Portugal | City | Lisbon | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I'm bissexual. | 3162010 | ||||||
| State | Bucuresti | City | Bucuresti | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I want to be a sex object. I want to be paid for sex and live off of how many men I have inside me. But I keep being faithful in my long relationships and study and work, because I am too afraid to be frowned upon by men and my family for being a whore. I have cheated only twice in my life: a one night stand out of hate, and once it was just a drunken kiss and run. | 232012 | ||||||
| State | England | City | edinburgh | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I like this boy in school. He may not be the nicest looking boy but he has such a good personality and im scared to admit i like him, because my friends will just make fun of me. | 3112010 | ||||||
| State | Singapore | City | Singapore | Gender | Male | Age | 28 |
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| I am in love with my friend who is also my roommate, its very agonizing and unbelievably frustrating that he is so close yet so far away. I plan every second of my life around him and if hes not around or leaves the apartment without informing me I feel really lost and helpless.Right now I'm going through a very rough patch on the career front and the only thing that gives me solace is that he is with me. I know this is very unhealthy and have to get as far as possible from him, but just cannot do it. This unrequited love is slowly killing me from the inside but not able to forget him or get on with life. I know that any relation with him is impossible because he is straight, but no amount of reasoning is able to change my heart. I just keep hoping that one of us moves away or get transfered and the distance will make me forget this pain! | 452011 | ||||||
| State | Quaten | City | Johannesburg | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I slept with my brothers best friend. who's fiance is my friend, we had an affair for just short of a year, we didn't intentionally set out to do it. never had any feeling before one drunken night, afterwards it was like we couldn't get enough of each other. i was single at the time, we would have sex at his house which they shared, we even managed to arrange a few days away together, after that we couldn't meet up again. now three years later we met up by accident in a club. i now have a boyfriend. that night there was touching under the tables. a week later i made up and excuse to get out alone and drove 3 towns away to have an incredible night of love making. why do i feel so attracked to him, he always complements me. i know he is unhappy with his fiance but wont leave her. when we get together with our friends. no one has a clue, but there is always a stolen kiss, stare or touch. i dono if i'd wanna be with him, but i want to make sense of what we did. and why we always happy together but with other ppl. sometimes i wish i could have the cake and eat it too. | 472010 | ||||||
| State | kwazulu-natal | City | durban | Gender | Male | Age | 15 |
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| my bff and his gf have been fighting for sometime now.apart from him being bff,i am very close to her as well,when they fight i always reconcile them.recently she told me that she has a crush on me,butam we decided that nothing can happen between us.but for some reason we got chatting in the following days and thing s got hot but we havent done anything like kissing etc...i want to tell her what we are doing is wrong.any advice on what i should say to her? | 8222011 | ||||||
| State | Skåne | City | Malmö | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| When I was 14 I tried to have sex with a cat, several times, or at least be naked with it. I have never told anyone about it. It always ended with alot of scratches and an angry cat. But I forgive myself after all. | 5262010 | ||||||
| State | helsingborg | City | helsingborg | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| iam 20 years old have had sex with 32 men the oldest is 54.i feel dirty. at 18 i started to sell sex to 3 men i met online.iam still doing it with the same men causes i love money so i cant stop doing it. now im in love with an 45 year old man, he loves me too but he has no idea i sell sex or have had so many partners. i feel more ashamed of myself | 1122011 | ||||||
| State | västernorrland | City | Sollefteå | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| Have you heard,Have you tried to understand?How are you? Are you ever coming back?I have changed And I've realized I was wrong. Now I'll never see your face anymore.I'd give anything for one more day with you I wish you felt the way I do I have changed.. | 732009 | ||||||
| State | City | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| Sometimes I think about what it would feel like to just rip my veins out and die alone but then I remember that even through all that's happened to me, I think I have something to live for....But is it all in vain? | 6152010 | ||||||
| State | UAE | City | Dubai | Gender | Female | Age | 34 |
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| I am due to go away on holiday leaving my kids and husband at home, I'm worried I won't come back. I hate my life here, I don't like being a Mom which I feel very guilty about, I'm sure I married the wrong guy, I hate everything about myself and my life and everything I have to do just seems like too much effort, its all too much hard work and I just want to hide away from it all. | 4272011 | ||||||
| State | UK | City | High Wycombe | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| hi. my secret is, im obsessed with babies. not in a crepy paedophile way but i want one. im 13 and will get kicked out. i want a baby to make up for my childhood. my parents hit me and yell at me. i just wanna love and be loved. | 592010 | ||||||
| State | City | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I lost my virginity when I was 9! and I wanted it, I wasn't made into doing it | 6182010 | ||||||
| State | City | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| My bf of 6 mths didn't tell me he was married & divorced 10 years earlier,it was only for a few months but I feel betrayed that he didn't tell me. He said it was just a "travelling thing" cos he wanted to go to Sweden with his gf of 2 years & live there but he stayed here instead because he was messed up on drugs at the time so she sent him divorce papers. He says it's his business but I think that, that is a huge thing to keep from me. He also says he feels really bad about what happened with her and if it wasn't for the drugs, him being screwed up he would still be with her living in Sweden now which hurt. When I asked him if he still has feelings for her, he said no & laughed saying come on it was 10 years ago. I don't think I can go on looking at him in the same way. My parents were divorced and so I think of marriage as sacred I don't want to waste my time with someone who thinks of marriage like that, and it makes me doubt what he feels for me &I hate not knowing things about him | 6252010 | ||||||
| State | Utah | City | Provo | Gender | Male | Age |
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| Its been eight years and I still haven't told him that I was in love with him, that I still am in love with him. I have not seen him for years, yet I see him every night while I dream. When I wake up, nothing has changed. My secret is that although he is everything that is wrong for me, I want him more than anything else in this world. | 8292011 | ||||||
| State | AR | City | Fayetteville | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I'm in love with my best friend's boyfriend. | 1292010 | ||||||
| State | AZ | City | Sierra Vista | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i miss my ex i miss him so much i cry every night we still have sex but i feel no love or care | 5132009 | ||||||
| State | AZ | City | scottsdale | Gender | Male | Age | 51 |
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| I want to give a man a blowjob to see what it is like. | 3122009 | ||||||
| State | Alabama | City | Alomara | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I'm lying about a lot of things and to a lot of people. Rather than come clean, I'm trying to make the lies the truth. | 5232010 | ||||||
| State | Alaska | City | Anchorage | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I'm married and inlove with a woman and want to be with her and spend my life with her the truth is I have never felt this way about anyone but I don't know how to tell my husband I'm gay and my hearts somewhere else. | 272012 | ||||||
| State | Alaska | City | Wrangell | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| 'I think I''m in love with you. My brother told me that it was a bad idea because you weren''t the type to want to settle down. And even if you were it would not be with someone like me. I think he''s right but I so badly want to be happy and when we''re together I can''t help but think that we''re right for eachother. Why can''t you see that I could make you so happy? | 11262011 | ||||||
| State | Arizona | City | Casa Grande | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| My fiance left me for the girl he used to always make fun of at work. I like to think that I am somewhat more attractive, she admitted to being mentally disabled and Like I said he used to make fun of her constantly for her "stupidity and laziness". I have never had the prompting to commit suicide until this. He would rather be with this girl than someone who literally waded on him hand and foot. We were also trying to have a baby, and I strongly think he succeeded. He acts so hateful to me and I haven't done anything, I feel, to deserve it. I'm contemplating committing suicide tonight. I'm so heart broken. | 5142011 | ||||||
| State | Arizona | City | Mesa | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| After having my heart broken I started playing an online game and formed friendships there. I've gotten addicted to the game - or have developed a disproportionate sense of obligation towards the game. I am the leader of a group ingame and people count on me. I neglect my social life, finances and education - not that I was so sharp before. And I am still comfortable in that gaming world, and I still think it would be a crime to leave these people. I've come to believe in the universe of that game's existance... and I find it easier to feel obligated there, than to answer my real life obligations. More exciting, eventful, free and comfortable... even if it sometimes gives me sleepless nights (oh no, we lost a war). I used to be a popular college girl who worked hard to travel loads... now I have grown stuck to my computer. I haven't worn makeup in weeks. And I don't intend to change it... because I can't give up, because I can't stand losing, and because it's just so comfortable. | 9182010 | ||||||
| State | Arizona | City | Tucson | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I faked it tonight. I didnt come at all... he's too fast. So much for having a goodnight. Damn I Have an exam in 4 hours too! | 1222010 | ||||||
| State | Arizona | City | Yuma | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I was molested many times by someone I truly trust wouldn't hurt me. Years later when I hit my teen years he asked me to be his girlfriend, because I felt ugly and grew attached to him I said yes even though I didn't want to. Ending high school I broke it off tellng him how much he hurt me, he begin to blame me for "his" pain. I've been hurt so much by him, mentally and emotionally. While I was dating him I had gotten online initially as a joke to my cousin. I lied saying I'm a guy seeing if she would ever meet up with someone through the Internet. It was a prank and out of concern for her safety. Thing is I've been lying to this girl I met that I'm a guy. We've been talking for 2 years and she really likes me and I more than like her. I care a lot about her. She makes me happy and have shown me what it's like to be happy again. Problem is she wants to meet...but she doesn't know I'm a girl...I need help..I'm love her so much but I know I will loose her once she finds out..I know I love her | 562010 | ||||||
| State | Arkansas | City | Little Rock | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I accuse my boyfriend of cheating almost always, yet I've cheated numerous times. | 842010 | ||||||
| State | Az | City | Glendale | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I'm dating a married man 22 years older than me. I know that it's wrong...but he makes me happier than I've ever been. I love him. More than anyone in my life... I've lied to all my family and friends for over a year about him, and I'm tired of all the lying. I just want to be with him. | 1162010 | ||||||
| State | Birmingham | City | Alabama | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| I just broke up with my girlfriend and I was masturbating in my room really badly and I forgot to lock the door. My sister's 16 year old friend came in by mistake to ask me where is my sister and my parents. I told her they went out and she asked me whether she could have sex with me i accepted. | 3202009 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Gender | Female | Age | 29 |
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| My friends and family don't know that I didn't get my college degree. I failed 2 classes that I needed to graduate. | 432009 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Davis | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I have been struggling with my sexual orientation since last year. I have realized that I am gay, but I care about my families and don't want to hurt them. My college counselor asked me to consider telling my family who I am,but I know my families, telling my sexual orientation will break their hearts. I feel depressed from thinking about my life without a romantic relationship with those I feel attractive to. My friends will also look me differently if they know that I am gay. I can't enjoy my life like I used to. I don't enjoy making friends, I can't focus on studying. Growing up is such a paint, life is a tragedy. | 2132011 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | ESCONDIDO | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i absolutely hate everything about myself. theres not one thing that i wouldnt hope to change. i hate living this life, ive grown so tired of living. i feel worthless all the time. i wasnt blessed with a skill or talent nor was i blessed with looks or intelligence. i'm just this...i know if i died, no one would care, but i'm far too much of coward to take my own life. So everyday i secretly hope that someone else would take it. i'm not sure how to go about my days anymore. i've felt like this for the past 5 years, and as each day passes, i feel like im being punished with life. and theres no one to tell this too, because i'm too embarrassed to tell this to anyone, or to even ask for help. i wish this train wreck i call my life would just end already. | 5102011 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | ESCONDIDO | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i absolutely hate everything about myself. theres not one thing that i wouldnt hope to change. i hate living this life, ive grown so tired of living. i feel worthless all the time. i wasnt blessed with a skill or talent nor was i blessed with looks or intelligence. i'm just this...i know if i died, no one would care, but i'm far too much of coward to take my own life. So everyday i secretly hope that someone else would take it. i'm not sure how to go about my days anymore. i've felt like this for the past 5 years, and as each day passes, i feel like im being punished with life. and theres no one to tell this too, because i'm too embarrassed to tell this to anyone, or to even ask for help. i wish this train wreck i call my life would just end already. | 5102011 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Fresno | Gender | Female | Age | 25 |
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| I did a video chat with some random man who was 40 years old. He asked to see my bum and so I pulled up my shorts. & he asked to see my tits and I showed him them too. the thing is, I didn't care. I wasn't nervous or embarrassed about doing that. I kept pulling on my shorts like I was going to take them off- but I didn't. The whole time he was jerking off. I was amazed that I was able to give him a boner just by pulling my shorts down and wiggling around a little. It made me feel like I mattered. that my body could cause a reaction like that. I only did it to see if I would do it, and I surprised myself by not being the least bit scared to show off my body in a sexual way to a stranger. | 7282010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Goleta | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I no longer love my boyfriend of almost 2 years. I have no feelings towards him anymore, everything he does makes me uncomfortable. I want to leave him, but I'm too afraid to be alone. There is a guy I have feelings for, but I doubt he likes me. I'm trapped in a cycle of loneliness. | 3162011 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | LA | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i let a 23 year old kiss me. | 6142008 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Los Angeles | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I'm still in love with my ex who I haven't spoken to in over a year. I've tried dating other prople but I always end up comparing them to him. I'm scared that I will never get over him. | 1212012 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Redondo Beach | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I wish I was pretty. Some people tell me I am but I can't believe them because I have trust issues. It kills me to look at myself in the mirror because I know I'll never be beautiful enough to get a decent guy. I hang out with a bad crowd and it just kills any self esteem I have left. I have no dignity, no passion, and I feel like I'm not good enough. I feel like I bore everyone, even animals. I feel bad for any guy who knows me b/c I'm so boring to talk to. I wanna just cut my face so that I don't ever have to look at it again. | 6302010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Riverbank | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I masturbate every night to get my frustrations out. Then i cry, I drain my soul when I remember my best guy friend will never love me the way I love him. | 8152011 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Roseville | Gender | Male | Age | 30 |
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| I am 30 and I feel no physical attraction to my wife. I have a diaper fetish and the only way we have sex is when I have been wearing a diaper. | 412010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | San Diego | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Sometimes I just have this feeling that I'm going to die early, either by suicide or something uncontrollable, and that my death will be some kind of necessary lesson to a lot of people. But I don't want to die early. | 6242010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | San Diego | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Usually I really like my boobs but sometimes I feel really awkward when I'm around people because of them. I don't know how to explain it exactly but I guess I feel exposed just because they're there. I feel really embarrassed suddenly and want to be alone. | 8202010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | San Diego | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| Every week, my step dad and older step brother make me' suck both their dicks and then they cum all over me. I didn't like it, but in starting to actually like fantasize about it, and I'm beginning to like it. But they're family and I know I should stop them. | 1312012 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | San Jose | Gender | Male | Age | 34 |
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| i like boys dressed as girls | 1172009 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | San Pedro | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I am going to be turning 27 in 11 days. And I am starting to think that I will end up alone. I had a boyfriend that stop calling cuz he believed that I was dying. I hate my job and I hate my boss even more. I love my parents but I hate them just as much. I dont believe its far for a 12year old to be forced to grow up and be put through Hell cuz they wanted to act like children. I wasnt given a chance to be a teenager. and now i feed like I would never have an kids of my own. and I would be an old maid. | 7152010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Santa Barbara | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I don't understand why I hate my mom being gay when I'm bi-sexual myself. | 12302008 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Santa Cruz | Gender | Female | Age | 33 |
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| I've met the man of my dreams and he wants to marry me. However, I feel constant guilt in regard to secrets. I've shared a some really personal things like being molested, growing up in an abusive family w/ an alcoholic father, working as a stripper during collage, and past drug abuse. Ive worked through most of those issues through therapy/personal growth, but still carry some remnants of shame, and still have a hard time being 100% transparent. Some things I wish I had the nerve to tell him, but feel too ashamed to are: 1)As a stripper, one time I had sex with a client for money 2)Have 25K in credit debt 3)Had plastic surgery. He is a good man, but I'm afraid all this "baggage" may be too much for anyone. Lately, he's been asking me about things that I don't feel comfortable sharing yet (but plan to when I can).Part of me wants to "protect" myself and just leave, the other wants to confess everything and pray that he'll still want me to be his wife. My heart is so heavy.... | 1112011 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Santa Monica | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I believe I'm a gorgeous girl, I hear it all the time. But not from him. | 592009 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | Santa Rosa | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| while my parents were away, i snuck my boyfriend in& we had sex in the spare bed. they found out & lost all trust in me. all i do is disappoint people | 5272010 | ||||||
| State | CA | City | a place | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I miss you so much it hurts. We didnt really know each other, you probably didnt even know my name. But i miss you and i love you. We met a couple times. ever since you died I have missed you. it was a year ago in march. | 4122010 | ||||||
| State | CO | City | Colorado Springs | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I'm 15 and I feel misunderstood. I have my whole life. I just wanna drift off to heaven...I hate this angry and sadness I feel everyday. I am FAT. . . AND I feel alone...no one likes me at all.....i just need some help...please :'( | 922011 | ||||||
| State | CO | City | Littleton | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I cried the entire way home. I hate you for fucking me and saying immediatly after that we shouldn't have, and that you liked someone else...Only because it'd happened before. Will I always be this broken and naive? Yes. | 592009 | ||||||
| State | CT | City | Cheshire | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| My best friend always steals the guys that I like. I feel like I am always in her shadow when we go somewhere. Some day I want to be strong enough to have my own shadow and to finally get the guy before her. | 2122009 | ||||||
| State | CT | City | Wesport | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I am in love with a guy who doesn't want a long distance relationship. It kills me and I think about him every single moment of every single day. I want to be with him now. I can't wait two years. Please love me. I want to tell you this, but I'm afraid you'll be afraid and feel pressured. But still, please John, please love me. | 11282009 | ||||||
| State | CT | City | Westport | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I had oral sex five times with a guy who is three years older than me. I snuck him into my house when my mom wasn't home. | 11282009 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Concord | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I feel Im surrounded by people whom are either leechs, evil or dont have the capacity to understand. Everytime I want to tell someone how I really feel I realize it will make them uncomfortable so I push it back down. Ive tried to seek psychological help many of times yet again more disappointment and wasted time. Im good at making money yet because of my physical and mental issues Ill never enjoy it. The only reason I have to live is so the lives of the hundreds of people that I have professional and personal relationships with can go on uninterrupted. My family has been a huge disappointment beyond what most could imagine. Im just healthy enough to live in great physical pain everyday but not healthy enough to do anything enjoyable. My life is torture and it is beginning to seem more logical to end my life. Instead of pain, anxiety, emotional distress and repeated disappointment there could be the end and nothing, no pain, no hope just nothing. I guess I finally lost all hope. | 11152009 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Concord | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I have been in love with my ex for over 10 years now but she has been in love with another man for a little under 10 years now and she told me they were going to get married. She was my first and only love (even though we didnt have sex) and I have remained a virgin because I cant see myself with anyone else. I tried dating but it feels like Im cheating even though my ex has encouraged it. I really want to have sex as well just not with anyone other than her. | 11152009 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Los Angeles | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| You act so interested in me. You make me feel like you like me a lot... But your school is so far away, you don't like reading books - but I want to be with someone whom I can talk to about my favorite novels and authors. You're best friends with my ex, and people might look at me differently if we're together. I don't care that you enjoy double meaning green jokes, even though I find people like that idiotic and childish. I don't care that you have a lot of big dogs, even though I despise them. Come to think of it, you possess all the things that turn me off. You always leave me hanging, and you always play mind games... And you're shallow, and noisy, and you don't like Quentin Tarantino. Oddly, you like chick flicks, and I gag at those cheesy lines while you smile and find some sort of joy in hearing them. I kick your ass in basketball - and I totally suck. You're skinny.. and you could really use a good tan. You have dorky, spiky hair, and you run more like a girl than I do. You don't even care to change... but I met someone else who is somewhat my perfect match. He likes everything I like.. and he is clear about his feelings, and he's straight to the point. He makes me feel beautiful and wanted... and he's witty, and athletic, and a smooth talker, unlike you. But it's unfair.. because I'd still choose you over him, in a heartbeat... because once I see you play your guitar, or flash that geeky, childlike smile, or tease me about how short I am, and when you touch my hair, and laugh like a kid at the lamest jokes ever, and when I take a good look at your eyes... nothing else matters. There's a lot of reasons why I should just find someone else... and only one reason why I shouldn't.. And that's because I'm in love with you...And all i need to hear from you is that you love me back. And I'll always be enough. | 222010 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Lucerne Valley | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I just got out of an almost 4 year relationship not even a month ago, and I'm already on the verge of sleeping with someone else. I can't help the way that he makes me feel, and I just feel like I could give it all to him with no regrets. I'm not an easy girl, seeing as how I've only been with ONE person ever. I just feel like what I'm doing isn't what I'd normally do, and I can't tell anyone because the guy that I'm talking to is an ex to one of my friends, and THEY just broke up after a long term relationship. I feel really sneaky about this whole thing, but then again I feel amazing because I haven't been single in a LONG time and it's nice to be able to shamelessly flirt with anyone with no remorse. | 5262011 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Napa | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| I've done horrible things, from rape to theft to flat-out controlling. I've stolen my grandmothers purse, took all the cash out of it, and then threw it down a storm drain. I've laughed at a girl while she was dieing at a hospital from an atv accident. I've fooled around with one of my friends while they were passed out. I got expelled while in high school for making racial slurs to another student over a fake email account. I've made my ex-girlfriend send me naked pictures of herself. I've spit in peoples food before they've began eating. I use my parents as some source of income, and waste all the money they give me on Weed and Ciagrettes. I used to never drink and now I've become an alcoholic. I abandoned all my friends, leaving me with no-one. I want to kill myself, but I can't bring the gun to my head. | 7142011 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Palm Desert | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I'm actually really depressed that I left my Ex-Girlfriend. Even though we fought a lot, through all the blood sweat and tears it was the best and happiest time of my life. Now, it's been 10 months, we used to talk every once in a while, but the past couple weeks she's been "busy". I know it's my fault, and that's what really kills me. :( | 1032010 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Santa monica | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| i stole a mouse from a pet store | 882010 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Victorville | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| So I might be a furry. Mostly for comics written by jay naylor. | 10122010 | ||||||
| State | California | City | Woodland | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| i like this guy that asked me out but i dont know how to tell him | 522010 | ||||||
| State | California | City | la | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I am gong to have sex for money...It seem as though it as my only option. I am certain I will loose people during this process. I am a virgin, and I am over living my life for others...this is about me and what i need and what i need is money and for someone to realese me of this virginity thing. | 11182009 | ||||||
| State | Colorado | City | Centennial | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I saved someone from committing suicide. I met him on Omegle. I never told anyone, because I was afraid they'd judge me for being the "good girl" on such a risqué site. | 562011 | ||||||
| State | Colorado | City | Denver | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I slept with a friend of mine whom I considered a brother three years ago. We are still friends and the other night while we were talking, our time together was brought up. He thought I had regretted it and I thought the same of him. He wants a "redo" because we were both drunk the first time. Now I'm starting to think that maybe I have some different feelings for him. I'm so confused | 4172009 | ||||||
| State | Colorado | City | Denver | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| I told my parents I quit cutting 2 months ago. Actually, I'm worse than ever...and I don't want to stop. The only thing that keeps my secret is the fact that it's cold here and my pillow has a secret pocket. I'll never be the same again...I'll never be whole..I doubt I'll ever be loved. | 1152009 | ||||||
| State | Colorado | City | Denver | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I just want to get this all out. Sometimes I think I love my dog more than my parents. I have been clinically depressed for two years. I am bisexual. My parents told me a week ago that they're getting divorced (I never saw it coming). I have a major crush on my best guy friend, Alex, but when I confessed to him last week, he said he didn't feel the same way. I want to be an actress on Broadway when I grow up. My biggest fear is being unhappy. I am curious to know if cutting would make me feel better. | 12222011 | ||||||
| State | Colorado | City | Denver | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I was sexually molested by a family member from the time i was eight until 14. I've never told anyone. | 1242012 | ||||||
| State | Colorado | City | Vale | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| i have a terrible disease and it's taking over my life. | 10212010 | ||||||
| State | DC | City | Washington | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I'm a virgin but I fantasize about BDSM all the time. | 782010 | ||||||
| State | FL | City | Homosassa | Gender | Male | Age | 49 |
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| Today I spent 30 minutes walking around totally nude in a public park. $ people took photos. One girl said she plans to post them online. | 292011 | ||||||
| State | FL | City | Orlando | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I might be in love with two of my best friends. This is a problem in and of itself, but to add to it, one is a guy and one is a girl. Oh, and they might have a crush on each other. | 10232009 | ||||||
| State | FL | City | Orlando | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| Ive been in a relationship for 5 months throughout those months I lived with him for a month during that month it was a living hell. He would hit me punch me bruise me he kicked me in my mouth 3 times which caused me to bleed. He even slammed me on thr floor and choked me. I havent told anyone. I find myself trapped and am not able to let go. :( | 10302011 | ||||||
| State | FL | City | St. Petersburg | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I feel like dying. I have no one. My fears are hard to combat, because thats all im constantly thinking about because of my loniness. the one person that i loved, told me that i was noone, and that no one would take me seriously, and how he wished he was with his previous lover. My father molested me. And when i think of the person who i call mother, i feel sick. she never was a mother. I fucking hate her. i cant reach out to anyone at this time, because it would only hurt more, because i know nobody really gives a fuck. i hate this lonely existance. Feeling like this really doesnt make life worth living. If twenty twelve doesnt end the world, then im going to end myself> i cant take it anymore> living like this. | 3312011 | ||||||
| State | FL | City | Tampa | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| Everyone I know jokes that I am a closet lesbian. I laugh along, but secretly am extremely torn up about it. I'm not one at all and it makes me feel unnoticeable by the gender I'm trying to attract... | 852010 | ||||||
| State | FL | City | Winter Park | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I have a huge a crush on a boy in one of my classes; I find him incredibly attractive, and am attracted to him, even though I can't quite put my finger on why. Most people probably wouldn't find him to be that good-looking, but I do. I've never felt this way before. He has no idea that I exist, and I doubt he even knows my name. What should I do? I'm too shy to talk with him, and it would be weird since the only thing we have in common is being in the same class. | 10232009 | ||||||
| State | Fl | City | Pembroke Pines | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i have a feeling my boyfriend is cheating on me, but i'm too scared to speak up. hes my first everything, and i havent even looked at another guy in over a year. i know i'm in love with him...but why am i being so naive? i dont know what to do. everything is so complicated. i need someone to talk to so bad. | 3232010 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Bradenton | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| This girl is the shittiest person I've ever known, and I don't hate very often. Please help me out and call her or text her giving her shit. 941.545.9549 | 12272011 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Broward | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| im in a relationship with a guy i like a whole lot. it got complex too fast he told me he loved me and i just said it back. im not sure if i mean it. i think i just like the idea that i have a boyfriend. alot of stuff about him annoys me but he's super cool where it counts. he gives me sooo much freedom and im a crazy flirt. he doesnt mind cuz i come home to him. i used to flirt with my friend's ex alot and we ended up in a webcam sex thing before i got together with my guy. he's got a gf but we did it anyway cuz he likes me more than her but he wouldnt feel right if he broke up with her for no reason. he's been pressuring me to have sex with him but i just dont think it'll be worth it. the farthest i've gone with him is once when i let him kiss me. i didnt enjoy it cuz he was doing all the work. we've stopped the webcam thing and now we barely tlk even though he once was like my bff. everytime i think about him i still get hot but i cant even think about my bf sexually he's like a real church guy. | 4182010 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Ft. Lauderdale | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| In grade school, my teacher would get angry and hit and abuse me whenever my class would misbehave. I would leave his class almost everyday in tears. I finally told my mother one day and we tried taking it up with the school, but they wouldn't believe us. I left that school, but the experience stays with me. I have been thinking about it a lot recently, especially when my guy friend hit me multiple times in a drunken state. No one knows this secret, so I can't talk to anyone about it. But my friends wonder why I'm easily offended when they bring up stuff from my past. It always reminds me of it. It's hard thinking about it when there's nothing I can do anymore since it happened so long ago. | 4172011 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Miami | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I hate my skin. ... I take long showers because I feel like I am washing away the ugly...I cry almost everyday because of it. I have had acne since I was 13, and I'm scared it will never go away. Sometimes, I won't leave my house because I feel ugly and scared. I have lost all confidence and I m scared to meet other people... I hate myself. I have so many flaws, but people notice the ones on the outside. | 892010 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Miami | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| I am very sad because I feel so alone. I am married, but alone. I have a son, who keeps me busy and I love him very much, but my husband and I have been fighting so much about money lately. I have a good job, but my husband wants me to go out and get one that pays more. He says he needs more help with the bills. I understand him, he makes most of the money, but I also take care of the baby almost completely and I work too. I want to get more money for my job, believe me, but if I did that I would not be able to spend as much time with my son and come home earlier and cook dinner and take care of the house as I do now. I still feel as if I try but I'm just not good enough. Also, to make matters worse, we have stopped having sex. I still want to, but my husband barely touches me now. It's so embarrassing to me. Now I worry about how I look too. I work out regularly, but I still don't feel as attractive as I should. I live with someone who seems not to be turned on by me at all. I tried to talk to him about it, he says he's too stressed out and has no desire to have sex. We used to have sex, not all the time, but sometimes. Now, it's nothing. The more I think about it the sadder I get. Why doesn't he at least touch me, or give me a hug? WIthout me having to initiate it? This sucks. I feel that if I at least knew that he still desired me, that he still wanted me, that I would feel better and maybe then have the confidence to go out and get that better job. | 1232011 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Miami | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I have been in love with my ex for as far as I can remember, sure I did say those three letter words too soon but according to my heart I was already wrapped tightly but the passionate emotions inside me. Now its inching in over a year since we've broken up. I don't let myself fall in love flawlessly. We are still close friends but everytime I am near it breaks my heart to know you'll never be my love again. I want a kiss from those lips just one more time. I watch from both far and near, helping out in anyway possible, regardless of the fact that I know I am getting used sometimes. It is killing me little by little everyday and I fear that I will end my life soon or slowly, if no one comes by and saves me from this abyss I have created within myself. | 1072011 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Naples | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I dumped the bf I was with for 5 years for another guy. I got accidentally pregnant with another guy and we only been together for 6 months. I now regret that I broke up with my bf. He still loves me and wants me back as much as I want him back. I don't know what to do now. | 10102010 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Tampa | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| i love this guy and i think he likes me too but i am too shy to tell him any thing,i mean he asked me to dance yesterday in his party and hold my hand i don't know what to do how i am supposed to tell him that i am in love with him!!! plz help me | 10162009 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Tampa | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| Im 12 and the girl I love rejected me. No matter how hard I try i can't get over her. I cut myself once after seeing a play where she had to kiss another boy. What hurts me the most though was her dishonesty. She said we would be good friends but she never talks to me anymore. This isn't a silly infatuation either. I always try to make her happy. It is putting through a deep depression. I dream about her every day but she avoids me when i try and talk to her. Please help me. | 6272010 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | Tampa | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| When walking to school or the gym, sometimes I just want to step in traffic and let a car hit me. And strangely enough, it makes me feel happy and like a release, but also scares me knowing this makes me happy. I also imagine myself jumping off buildings. The thought of falling is a release, as well as the end. I've tried committing suicide before when I was very young, around 11 or 12. I'm actually happy with my life, I have friends that love me and a great family, but I just can't stop being depressed, and it's starting to scare me. | 3292011 | ||||||
| State | Florida | City | hudson | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| I suck | 6122011 | ||||||
| State | GA | City | Atlanta | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| 5 months ago, I left my last boyfriend of almost three years to escape his mental, verbal, and at times physical abuse. I stopped loving him because I had finally started loving myself again and realizing how he was destroying my life. I'm with someone new now and we've been together for 2 months and I already can't stand him. He's so in love with me and his family is crazy about me. I'm always someone's "dream girl", even in hook-ups guys always want more of me. Why am I so unhappy however? Why can't I stick to someone and be commited? Is it because I'm 18? Is it because I might be more attracted to women? My family would never accept me the same way if they knew about my feelings or what I've done. I'm over relationships. Everyone cheats and lies. I doubt I'll ever be married. I don't think soul mates exist. I don't think any one (man or woman) can ever satisfy me and make me truly happy to be with them. Is there any proof of trying to hope? | 7162011 | ||||||
| State | GA | City | lawrencevillr | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| Sunday sex with stepsister about 3 weeks ago i had sex with my stepsister.i know it was wrong of me to do it but it was a mistake and i feel terrible about it. i hope she is not pregnant but that is not why my writing this secret. she has an asthma problem so she is driving to the hospital with my step mo. she text-ed me and said she has to tell my step mom what we did. i was really shocked on why she would do such a thing. i asked why and she told me the doctors are gonna ask her if she is sexually active. i told her not to tell but she wont change her mind and now i know if she does, the relationship between me and my dad will fall apart. the rest of my family will look at me different. they will treat me like an outsider. and i understand that. all that i am hoping for is for her not to get pregnant when she visits the doctor. cause am not ready to be a dad right now. i know i have made a big mistake. i guess all i have to do is hope for the best. my life is officially ruined. i cant wait to move out and be away from everybody.my big family secret. | 1022011 | ||||||
| State | Ga | City | Rome | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I hate myself. I want nothing more than to die. I could never commit suicide because I feel as if that would hurt more people than I realize. People call me a slut, a homewrecker, a tramp, a whore, a hoe, and my nickname has suddenly become "jailbait". I hate the way I look. I've starved myself to be skinny like my sister. I've binged and purged to fit in with my friends. My dad is an alcoholic and he's emotionally abusive. My parents don't believe me when I tell them I'm a virgin. They think I'm an alcoholic who smokes weed daily. I haven't ever smoked anything and I've never done anything sexual. I spend time alone, in my room for the majority of the summer simply because I can't be around my family without being attacked verbally. They don't trust me and they refuse to let me out of the house alone. I have breathing problems but that doesn't seem to give my parents a reason to quit smoking around me. They blame me for finacial problems. As if I can help the fact that I was born. | 5272011 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Albany | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I was super straight but then at a party we had a truth or dare. I stripped and in the middle of the night I had sex with my best friend. I loved it, so I'm now lesbian | 12102011 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Atlanta | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| My boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me with his old friend/crush from high school. I dumped him 2 months ago after finding out. I was a bitch to both of them for hurting me. I recently started catching up with a friend from high school (19 yrs old) that I have always liked. He visited Valentine's Day weekend to see his gf of a year from high school(16 yrs old). I stayed the night w/ him the night before Valentine's Day and we slept together. I am now "the other woman". I love him but I don't think he will leave her. I'm tired of the pattern of lies, broken hearts, and cheating. | 2192010 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Atlanta | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I've struggled with depression for years. Recently, I just stopped caring. I've been starving myself and cutting. I just took a handful of oxycodone and sleeping pills. I don't know what will happen. I don't know if I even care. | 872010 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Atlanta | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I think I may be in love with my cousin. I'm adopted so technically we're not blood related and there's no law stating we can't be together. I know he feels the same way. I haven't told him how I feel because I'm scared. I know my family would disapprove. I know it's weird. But I can't help it. I wish there was someone who would even try to understand. I don't even know if I completely understand. | 8112010 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Atlanta | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| Everyone has this image of me. They think I'm a bubbly, spunky, independent girl who can handle anything and will take on the world. I'm the one who's always there for everybody else. Truth is, I don't know if anyone is there for me. So I never share my feelings. I show no true emotions. It's killing me. I need someone there so I know I'm not alone. | 8112010 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Augusta | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I have been married for 4 years and have one beautiful baby boy. I love my husband. I dont like having sex.I have only had sex with two people: a jerk off bf from high school and my husband. Have I've been doing it wrong all these years? Should I talk to a doctor? Am I weird? | 8122010 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Duluth | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| i slept with a married man. it kills me that i done it and i cant tell anyone about it. i feel so horrible. | 11182009 | ||||||
| State | Georgia | City | Ellenwood | Gender | Male | Age | 15 |
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| I am addicted to porn and masturbation.I always tell myself to stop but I just end up doing it again | 962011 | ||||||
| State | IA | City | Mount Vernon | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| My boyfriend have together sexiled our respective roommates many times over the past two years, but we've still not had sex yet. :) | 4272010 | ||||||
| State | IA | City | Mount Vernon | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| People who are my friends pass around a birthday card to sign for a girl in our sorority. Everyone signs it, and someone volunteers to make a surprise cake. My birthday was just the week prior, and only acquaintances of mine came to eat cake that my boyfriend had got me. I know I'm loved, and I know I'm not disliked by these people, but having such a close contrast of celebration hurts me. It makes me feel like I have no friends, which may seem like a small coincidental error to some, but it's a serious issue I've faced throughout my life. Please pay attention to everyone, and don't assume the silent ones are fine. Loud complainers don't necessarily have it worse off. | 4272010 | ||||||
| State | ID | City | Boise | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| For the first time in a while, tonight I looked in the mirror and thought, "eww." My boyfriend tells me I'm beautiful every day but I can't bring myself to believe that unless I've got my eyeliner on. I used to be so proud of my natural beauty, but now I'm not so sure. | 912011 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Bloomington | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| People always ask me what I do during the weekends when I see them again the following work week. I never tell them I usually write suicide letters. | 12112010 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| Everyone around me thinks I'm beautiful and a great catch. Friends, family, ect.. They always ask me why i'm single and they think it's because i'm picky. that's not the case at all. In fact, I think i'm the most accepting person I know. I'm really single because I'm can't accept myself. I'm extremely insecure and always see my faults. I'm unable to trust another person with my insecurities. That is why I'm single, but when people ask I just shrug. Time's ticking away in my life and I can't accept myself like I accept others. | 4102009 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| My bestfriend had a party last night at her house and when people get drunk there is alot of kissing and grabbing, which everyone is fine with. I was making out with her husband secrelty and when she went to bed we had sex in the living room. Yeah, we went alittle too far.... | 1042009 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| When I go to bars and parties, I don't care about hooking up. I just want somebody to hold my hand on the way home. | 2272010 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Why can't we be together? You have no reason to hide this, I'm afraid that your therapy isn't working. | 10312010 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| There is so much people don't know about me. I don't have very many life problems, yet I cut myself anyways. Why? Isn't that just being over-dramatic? I know I have low self- esteem and confidence but still....Nobody really notices my cuts. Not my friends or family. I hope it stays that way. Also, I cry sometimes just for no reason. What really bothers me is that there's this guy who I really like still; our relationship of 2 years didn't work out in the end. It's pathetic I still like him even though I ended it. I will never like anyone as much as I like him. Life is screwed up. I'm not suicidal by the way, just not enjoying life right now. I hope everything will get better and happier. | 3252011 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Dekalb | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| after $60,000 worth of treatment, i found myself weighing everyday. i didnt eat today. i only had 3 chopped up raviolis. i dont want to admit i am still terrified of getting fat, but i do like myself and the weight i did lose. im just slipping and scared to gain it back.. i used to be belimic and now im restricting. i just had to get it out cause it makes me feel so bad that i wasted all that treatment only to restrict again. i did lose the healthy way.. and my parents keep making jokes about being getting fat again if i dont exercise.. i feel weak and tired all of the time now. once i get into the army i know i will be ok.. which i am active duty and i leave for training in a few months. | 8302011 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Joliet | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I'm always afraid of losing my best friend. I'm not in love with her but I love her. Sometimes I have thoughts about her that I shouldn't because I'm not attracted to girls. I want to just have one night where we let go and do the unthinkable. She's the reason I smoke. | 8132010 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Morton Grove | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I only dated him because I wanted to please him and the rest of our friends. I was never in love with him, but everyone else wanted us to be together. The relationship lasted 6 months; ironically, he told me he wanted to be friends again.I couldn't be happier. | 1172010 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | Rochester | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| Since my senior year, I've liked a girl from church. Now I'm a junior and she's a freshman, at different schools. I fell in love with her this summer but she turned me down, and now it seems like there is no hope because she's at school for her "MRS" degree. If she had a change of heart, I would marry her in a heartbeat, even though I know I'm not ready to support a family. She makes no effort to keep in touch, and I told her I realize there's nothing to pursue anymore, so I only check up on her every so often on Facebook. She seems pretty fascinated with a boy my age from her school. I would do anything to be him right now. | 1142010 | ||||||
| State | IL | City | t-ville | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I'm madly in love with my best friend. Everything about him makes me love him even more. But he doesn't know. I can't tell him because it would never be the same. | 1252010 | ||||||
| State | ILL | City | Rolling Meadows | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| ow that I didn't burn myself with cigarette butts. My ex boyfriend would, but since I was depressed while I was with him and I was cutting myself he would burn me if I did or say something wrong. He knew I wouldn't tell my family because they wouldn't believe me, and they couldn't know I was dating him. | 9272010 | ||||||
| State | IN | City | Indianapolis | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I am a 21 year old male, and I have to shave my nose hairs. | 8212010 | ||||||
| State | IN | City | Liberty | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I have a bizarre secret for somebody my age. Ever since I was thirteen, I've been really into BDSM. I don't know why, and I'm afraid. | 10192010 | ||||||
| State | Il | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I am graduating college with only a 2.5 GPA even though I am intelligent. I just didn't work hard enough. My family and boyfriend think I am graduating with honors and a 3.6 GPA. I am too ashamed to tell the truth. | 5162010 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Bellevegas | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| I gave up being in the army for you. I hate you so much for it because you made me feel worthless everytimei talked to and I left for you to stop saying those things. It's been 2 years and I want more than anything to be with those guys fighting for this country. I would give my life for this country. Now I can't go back because of the injuries I've sustained at work an it is killing me inside. I just want to turn back the clock. | 8222011 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Bethalto | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I'm in love with the most amazing human being. He extremely attractive, athletic, popular-- the all-american athlete. The one thing that sets him apart, though, is that he's literally the funniest, sweetest, most caring person I've ever met. If someone he's never even met is having a problem, he'll help them out. That being said-- his sister is battling leukemia, and he's still so caring and kind towards everyone. After all of that-- he barely even knows I exist. I'm not popular at all... but I want to at least be friends with him, if nothing else. But how do I become friends or even strike up a conversation with someone I don't even really KNOW all that well? | 1152009 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I'm 21, 170 pounds, 5'2 and I'm afraid to walk down the street, go into stores or stand in a room because I've been called FAT (in much more colorful terms) way too much. being in public scares me, and I hate being humiliated, I wish my life would just end, I can't handle anymore and I don't want to be alone anymore... but who wants to be seen with a freak?? | 12142010 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Danville | Gender | Female | Age | 38 |
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| I was abused by my father for 18 yrs. He physically and mentally abused me.I have 3 siblings that were also abused. My two older sisters were sexually abused in addition to the other abuse.I struggle every day with depression and alot of other problems because I can't get over my past. I also have a bed wetting problem that I got abused for too. My life is such a mess because I haven't gotten to deal with my anger and other issues. There is not a day that goes by that I don't wish I was dead. I have 4 kids and they keep me going. Otherwise,I might end up like my 3 uncles who all committed suicide. My family is messed up on both sides. Of course my dad was an alcoholic and that made him even meaner. I just hope that God can get me through this so I can have a better life than what I have now. If not, then what's the point of living? | 6272009 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Glenview | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I just got a blowjob from a transexual. I thought I would enjoy it cus they kinda turn me on but it was the most unsatisfying experience of my life. I wish so much I could go back an hour and not do it. FUCK. I've been sufficiently scared into being straight again. | 6202009 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Joliet | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| I sneak around with my best friends sister. when i sleep at his house, me and her make a plan to fool around late at night. after my best friend falls asleep, i go into her room and lay with her until the early hours of the morning. i love everything about her but im afraid asking her out will ruin my best friend and i's friendship. only me and her know this secret. | 192011 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Lebanon | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I was somewhere between 7 and 10, I don't remember anymore. Every Sunday after church, my family would go to my grandparents' house. One afternoon, my older cousin sexually assaulted me. He was not quite five years older than me, so he was young, too. No rape, but he touched me and made me touch him. Now I watch pornography and I masturbate, and I don't like it, but I don't know if I can stop. I have been in a very serious relationship with my boyfriend for almost three years now, and I have not told him any of this, and I feel like I am betraying him for not telling him. It makes me sick to think about it sometimes. | 152011 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Lockport | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| I have been gay my whole life and I hate myself for it... A few of my friends know, but I feel that I can never get close to anyone because I cannot be open about my life. I hate myself almost everyday and nobody knows. I have trouble maintaining friendships and do not know how to work harder at it. I just want to live a normal life... Sometimes I image that we get more than one life. Just so I could have a chance to be like everyone else. I have never feared a challenge, but fear that my challenges will ultimately ruin me.. =( | 682010 | ||||||
| State | Illinois | City | Meow | Gender | Female | Age | 99 |
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| The only thing I hear from you Is what I can do wrong. | 1192011 | ||||||
| State | Indiana | City | Indianapolis | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| "Hey Nevarez" that's how I always say hey (that's his last name) You know I like you, but why can't you like me back? I have boobs, I'm pretty, skinny, and we laugh all the time. What's wrong with me? Am I not good enough for you? | 5102011 | ||||||
| State | Indiana | City | Indianapolis | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| "Hey Nevarez" that's how I always say hey (that's his last name) You know I like you, but why can't you like me back? I have boobs, I'm pretty, skinny, and we laugh all the time. What's wrong with me? Am I not good enough for you? | 5102011 | ||||||
| State | Indiana | City | Kokomo | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I molested my older sister, younger brother, and younger sister. | 5162010 | ||||||
| State | Indiana | City | Liberty | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| This is really, REEEAAALLY bad, but I lay awake at night dreaming of fucking a cartoon character. Seriously...Damn, dude, I need help. | 10102010 | ||||||
| State | Indiana | City | Terre Haute | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I went through sorority recruitment at my college. Those were three of the happiest, most confident weeks of my life. I've never been confident, nor have I ever felt truly accepted, and I thought I found two groups that liked me. Recruitment is over and now my self-esteem is shattered. | 10112010 | ||||||
| State | Iowa | City | Des Moines | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Sooo, I've told a few people but it doesn't feel like enough to make it real sooo here I go. I turned 19 in july...3 days after my birthday I found out I was pregnant...a month(ish) later I had an abortion. It was not a decision I made lightly seeing as I was against it before I found out I was pregnant. But I made the choice and even though I believe I made the right decision for myself, my boyfriend and the child I still regret it. I don't know if I will ever tell my family....but I know I will NEVER forget my unborn child... | 11192011 | ||||||
| State | Iowa | City | Red Oak | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| I am having a lot of trouble lately trying to accept the fact that I am gay. I am out to very very few people, people that have absolutely no tie to any of my family ever finding out. I am a very private person, and it takes me a while to actually open up, but within the past 6 months I have had a crush on a boy a few years younger than I am. When we originally started talking and it seemed very flirty, but now I hangout with him a lot more and he keeps getting girlfriends(which he never does anything with) and it knocks me down emotionally every time. Not just with this particular boy, but I just don't understand why the people I have feelings for don't seem to feel the same way. Though I really wish all this girlfriend business is just because he is younger and isn't ready to accept who his is either. I just don't know if I should try anything, or should try talking to him, or what.. :( :s | 5252010 | ||||||
| State | Iowa | City | Urbandale | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I love someone who will never love me back. He is super sweet and kind, but he will never love me back. Odds are he will marry my best friend & she will get the perfect life with him, while I am alone & miserable. I want to tell again, but I don't want to like him cause my friend likes him too. I don't know what to do. | 10122010 | ||||||
| State | KS | City | Garden City | Gender | Male | Age | 31 |
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| I remember when you had to go to a strip club to get the same experience you can today from MFC. | 5242011 | ||||||
| State | KS | City | Kansas City | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| I have feelings for my best friend, and she for me, and we both know it. I've known her for 5 years and we've had two opportunities where one asked the other out but we had to say no. Now we're both single, but we're also roommates, and my other best friend happens to be her ex-boyfriend who is still in love with her. How is it that dating someone who makes me feel so fantastic could lead to so many terrible outcomes? | 11102009 | ||||||
| State | Kansas | City | Kansas City | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Sometimes I'm so embarassed about being a virgin at age 19 | 2232011 | ||||||
| State | Ky | City | Lexington | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| my boyfriend cuts himslef and hasnt told me. he thinks im helping him get better. he thinks im there for him, but everynite after he leaves, i do the same thing and he has no idea... it would break his heart | 4202009 | ||||||
| State | LA | City | Baton Rouge | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| My dad died when i was 5 and my mom hated me since i was born. Another woman came along, my "other mom", and she basically adopted me. She got cancer and died a few months ago. I miss her so much. All i want is to be able to hear her voice again. To mom: I love you. I miss you so much. I think you were the strongest person in the world. | 10242010 | ||||||
| State | Louisiana | City | Livingston | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| I have been having thoughts of what it would be like if I killed myself, if anyone would care or if I would be doing them all a favor. It was happening for months until the girl I thought I loved came around. All was well until one drunken night she slept with my best friend, who I thought of as a brother. I forgave him only because he put his life in my hands and I could think of nothing else to do. I stopped talking to her completely. Now the thoughts are back. I can't sleep normally and when I do I can no longer remember my dreams, my dreams used to fuel my writing. Now, my writing only depresses myself and I can't show it to others, I fear that they will judge me. I wish I could talk to someone about what's going on but I've always been the shoulder to cry on not the other way around. Please any advice will help. | 2162011 | ||||||
| State | Louisiana | City | Carencro | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| My exboyfriend is amazing. We still talk and I am still in love with him. But I am afraid I've become a sex object to him, and I am afraid to discuss it with him because I don't want him to leave. I love him. | 1202011 | ||||||
| State | Louisianna | City | New Orleans | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| A few weeks ago I was at a small party with friends. I got drunk and ended up having sex with a guy friend who I hang out with often. The next day he was talking about the party, and he did not remember a thing. I was too embarrassed to tell him. I have liked him for a while, and it really sucks that he doesn't remember. The thing is that I am not anything like any of the girls he dates so I don't know if I should pursue a relationship. I really wish I could stop being so awkward and flirt with him when I am not drunk. How I normally act around him makes him think I am not interested at all when I really am. I hate all this relationship stuff. College is easier. | 3292010 | ||||||
| State | MA | City | Newton | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Ever since I started going to Quinnipiac University I have become mean and selfish. I have lost sense of the person who I used to be who really wanted to help people. I hate everything I stand for these days. The only people who have noticed are my mom, dad and younger brother. They tell me how mean I have become. I wish I could change, but I can't because if you are not mean and selfish here...you will never ever survive. (But this means that your consider everyone to be your enemy. Your family, your friends and many people are good people. Change and be your normal self.) | 1172010 | ||||||
| State | MA | City | Norfolk | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| i have a friend who is a girl and ever since about april i have loved her.it feels weird to me to think this way about a girl friend that i have, but i always want to be with her.and it seems she always wants to be with me,too! she almost like hits on me! i want to kiss her and tell her that i love her but i can't. im too afraid too. | 11172009 | ||||||
| State | MA | City | Norwood | Gender | Female | Age | 29 |
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| I hate myself for letting myself be weak, I hate my husband and son. I hate my husband because I had an abortion he did not want another son with me. So I went along with it. Since then we have two wonderful boys and I have a daughter from another relationship she is a wonderful child. My husband's son from previous marriage makes my life a living hell. I hate my husband for having him with his slut mother I hate feeling like this. | 592009 | ||||||
| State | MD | City | Baltimore | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I went out on a date with him because I thought he seemed fun. I stayed with him because I was bored and it was better than nothing. I panicked when he told me he loves me, but I said it back. I'm only staying with him because I get home in a week and I don't want to give up the sex. It's good sex. I feel awful for leading him on like this, but I also know I won't stop. When did I become this person? | 1212009 | ||||||
| State | MI | City | Caledonia | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| When my parents yell at me over something dumb, which they do often because of their anger issues and OCD problems, I like to get back at them by spending money. I'll go and buy whatever I want. Because they are so thrifty, me spending money is a way to get back at them for being so unreasonable toward me. | 6262009 | ||||||
| State | MI | City | Detroit | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I'm 18 and I hate the world and have never been happy or secure. I sacrifice my happiness for others. I never thought anyone was like me, but that changed. I met this 15 year old from another state and she feels the same way I do and she even felt the same about being alone. I convinced myself that I can be happy if I was around her. Instead I told her to go and find happiness in another person when I really want to be the source of her happiness. The fact is it depresses me and makes me think she does not need me anymore, but it's my fault. I was the person she went to when she was dealing with a hard time. Now I am pretty much just a pity case. Sometimes I just wish I was never born. We plan on having me visit her this Summer, but it's probably just pity. I can't tell her how I feel or she'll be burdened with my problems. I feel if I lose her I think I'll lose the only thing that was ever close to me. I don't know if I'm creepy, stupid, or suicidal. | 3232010 | ||||||
| State | MI | City | Detroit | Gender | Female | Age | 25 |
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| For the last year I've been stealing little things from the big chain store I work at, because I can't afford to get everything we need with my meager earnings, and I don't want to tell my hard-working husband that he isn't making enough for us to get by. Today I was caught stealing for the first time by a young cashier. I began to tremble and saw my life flashing before my eyes. But instead of accusing me or making any sort of scene out of it, she simply smiled at me and rang up the items. As a result, I won't be able to pay my bills this month, but she may have saved me from losing my job or going to jail. I'm so grateful for her tactfulness and kindness, I wish I could tell her how I feel. I hope this experience gives me the strength to give up shoplifting once and for all. | 11222010 | ||||||
| State | MI | City | Kalamazoo | Gender | Male | Age | 43 |
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| I have an ongoing secret, I think it might even be an addiction of some kind. I keep daydreaming about performing fellatio on other guys. I know I'm not gay because I have a very real attraction to women. But I can't seem to get it out of my mind. I daydream and fantasize about it constantly. And when I think about it, I always imagine myself being repeatedly deep throated. The more brutal the deep throating, the more appealing it is for me. I feel embarrassed and stimulated by it. I keep thinking to myself that maybe I am Bi-sexual because I feel like a total cock-whore. | 2252011 | ||||||
| State | MO | City | St. Louis | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| I am a guy that loves to dress as a woman but nobody knows. | 3182011 | ||||||
| State | MS | City | Gulfport | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I love my boyfriend every day more and more. I have never told him that because I am too busy goofing off or pretending to be mad at him. Thank you so much for not letting me leave school when I am so close to finishing. I love you. | 4122009 | ||||||
| State | MS | City | Oxford | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| This seems silly, but I have been lying about my weight for years. I was always heavy, but I just got to my heaviest this year. I weigh 204 lbs. I am only 5'4". My resolution for 2012 is to lose as much as I can, but I kind of feel like I am going to let myself down... again. | 12242011 | ||||||
| State | MS | City | Ridgeland | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I am sexting this guy that isn't even very attractive but I am sexually attracted to him and I just wanna bang him so hard. | 12222010 | ||||||
| State | Maine | City | Fort Kent | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I cut myself over a breakup, and now it still sticks with me to this day and i still love that guy. | 3172009 | ||||||
| State | Maryland | City | Landover | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| i use to watch porn | 2282010 | ||||||
| State | Mass | City | Boston | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I sat in the shower for an hour yesterday contemplating on cutting myself. I shattered a razor, held it on my skin. Eventually I dropped it and just broke into tears. I am a recovered cutter, and haven't done it in about two years. I cut for 12 years and had been in and out of therapy/hospitals my entire life. I used to break apart shaving razors when I was desperate to cut my skin. The feeling just took all the pain away. the blood was my demons washing out of me. I'm scared I'll cut again. I want to do is so very badly but I live with my boyfriend and he would wonder where the cuts came from considering he obviously sees me naked. I can't hide them like I used to. what can I do? I don't consider suicide, thats not why I do it. | 1272010 | ||||||
| State | Massachusetts | City | Arlington | Gender | Female | Age | 12 |
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| I am kicked, punched, and laughed at every day. But what hurts the most is that nobody says anything or stops them from hurting me. They just don't care. | 1282011 | ||||||
| State | Massachusetts | City | Boston | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| If you weren't dating her And if I wasn't dating him And if our ages didn't make it socially unacceptable And if you didn't live in Canada I would tell you how I really felt about you. But you are And I am And it is And you do So I never will. I love you and always will. | 882009 | ||||||
| State | Massachusetts | City | Gloucester | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I always talk about how I want my sister's life, but I realize I am more stable than she is. I really want a boyfriend, however, the wall that I have built will never allow me to fully love and trust a guy. I get only so far, and then I stop talking to them all together. It kills me everyday | 7212010 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Canton | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I've been dating my boyfriend for years but i still think "what if i had been with another guy." & start thinking about all the other guys that i could have had.. | 2152010 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Detroit | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| My secret? I have a few. I don't have a home. I wish I had someone to hold on to. And I imagine horrid things. For the first: I never feel tight, living in my house with my family. It's like I'm an extra in a movie. Their lives are all flowing around me, but I just have to play along and stay out of the way. For the second: I read books about romance, I watch movies about romance, but I've never had one of my own. I wish I had someone who was there for me. And for the third: I imagine myself holding pills. I imagine myself with a knife to my chest with the word "FINALLY" written across it in slits of blood. I imagine myself with a gun to my head. And then I smile. | 5192011 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Dewitt | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I have done LSD, mushrooms, ecstasy, marijuana, alcohol, cocaine, and prescription drugs. I've never felt better than when I'm high. I'm in love with a guy who has a girlfriend but cheats on her with me all the time when we're fucked up. When he's with her, I fuck a lot of other guys to make myself feel better. My life is a wreck. No one knows any of these things. I'm a straight-A kid at a Catholic high school going into an Ivy League school next year. I volunteer and I'm in the student council and I cheerlead and everyone thinks my life is so god damn perfect. | 452011 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Grand Rapids | Gender | Male | Age | 28 |
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| One of my most embarrassing secrets is that I had a secretive love affair last summer...with another guy. We kissed a few times but mostly I just gave him several headjobs over the summer. I had never given another guy a headjob before then and did not know that I enjoyed it sooo much. That guy is now back in my area because he has returned from college. I really hope I can start sucking him off regularly again. It is embarrassing to admit it but I really want him to deep-throat me repeatedly. | 6132009 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Grand Rapids | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| i tend to lie about small things, but i also lie to the people i love. i've been lying to my boyfriend about a medical complication my dad has. i tell my boyfriend its worse than it is, i feel like i can't come clean about it because his mother passed away a few years ago so i don't know if i can be forgiving for lying about something like that. i love him, he's my best friend and he knows everything about me except for this lie. | 1192009 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Holland | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| My deepest darkest most personal secret is that i have wet the bed my whole life and my mom put me in night diapers because of it... I want to tell my best friend but i simply cannot... I want to tell someone but dont know how.. Anyone think this is weird or bizzar? Please let me know... | 982011 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Lansing | Gender | Male | Age |
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| Humans, we are capable of free thought and self awareness, because of this we are constantly looking for a purpose, a reason to live. What if it's truly simple though, nobody lives to just be a doctor or business man. What if our purpose has been right in front of us the whole time but we've been too stubborn to recognize it? Let's assume in this particular situation that there is no God, bear with me, why would we exist without God? We would simply live on this Earth and die, most likely on this Earth and serve no greater purpose. Now add God into the equation, now we can serve him, entertain him. I'm not saying we're puppets, not at all. What I am saying is that if I were a divine being and the only one of my kind, I wouldn't have hesitated to create this universe and mankind. It's simple, without us, God himself has no true purpose, so he created us. But instead of being physically made in his image, we follow his example, we create, we build, we nurture. We also control the outcome of our future as a race. We decide whether or not to believe in God, to follow him and pass our knowledge down our offspring and fellow Human beings. So, ultimately, our goal is not to simply live or reproduce, wouldn't our purpose be to ensure that a majority if not possibly all of mankind makes it heaven? | 612011 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | Ortonville | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I want you to be happy, but right now, I wish you were dead. It would be easier to cope with you being dead than knowing that you're now dating someone else. Like I said, I want you to be happy, but the path you have chosen makes me unhappy. I want you back. I need you back. And I'll never find anyone in my entire lifetime who I can or will ever love, as much as I loved you. Even though we have no contact now, I still think of you all the time. I still look at the pictures of us together and wish that I had the time back to show you how much you mean to me. Rebekah Kathleen Cook, you are the only person I want in my life. I'm sorry if I messed up our relationship. And I hope that you read this secret, and can see for yourself how sorry I am and how wrong I was in everything I did. I am now dating someone else too, but if you came back to me, I would leave her in a split second just to be with you. I can't believe I messed up my life so badly. I wear the necklace you gave me, everyday. | 5312009 | ||||||
| State | Michigan | City | portage | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I hate fat people! When i see one i think all of them should get gastric bypass there fucking discousting!They make me want to throw up. The odd thing is im a fat person now imagine how I feel about myself being a fat. | 552011 | ||||||
| State | Minnesota | City | Eden Prairie | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| i am suicidal. i have severve anxiety and depression, and i feel like im alone, ugly, fat, and no one cares about me. i cry to let my problems out. what can i do besides going to a center to help? | 1212011 | ||||||
| State | Miss | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| l am just 14 , l am pregant no one knows yet only my boyfriend knows l also like porn that is my secert. | 3312011 | ||||||
| State | Mississippi | City | Jackson | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I am sleeping with a 38 year old, father of 2. Our understanding from the beginning was that he was emotionally unavailable, yet sexually willing. Which was what I wanted. He has been close friends with my Dad for 20 years, knew me when I was born, and lived with us for a while thereafter. I'm starting to fall in love with him. | 11262009 | ||||||
| State | Mississippi | City | Oxford | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| Criticism from my mother caused me to become anorexic in high school and I've never had the courage to tell her that it's her fault. Now, even though I got better a few years ago, I'm starting to relapse fast, and to top it off I have become paranoid and anxious. I feel as though the walls are closing in all around me and there is no one I can turn to. I need help before I loose my mind. | 1192011 | ||||||
| State | Montana | City | Helena | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Yes, i lied, i'm probably bulimic. | 1272009 | ||||||
| State | NC | City | Charlotte | Gender | Female | Age | 31 |
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| I am absolutely,positively, head over heels in love with Tommy. | 11172010 | ||||||
| State | NC | City | Hickory | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| i hide money in my pocket so when i find it again, i'll get excited! | 11172008 | ||||||
| State | NC | City | Mooresville | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| I started the new year with her in my arms. I've waited so long for that. It was amazing. I hope this continues. | 122012 | ||||||
| State | NC | City | Raleigh | Gender | Female | Age | 29 |
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| I am in love with Dave, we are both married to other people. He doesn't know I love him. | 2162009 | ||||||
| State | NC | City | Winston-Salem | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I have been in a secret relationship with my best friend for 2 years. No one knows, not our friends nor our families. Now she's been dating a guy publicly, but she's still with me. I love her infinitely, but now she's having sex with him, and he's falling in love with her. I've heard them before. I'm in agony and I have no one to talk to. I'm afraid I might explode. I wish she could just be with me. She says she loves me, but she can't be with me publicly right now. So in the mean time, I have to watch her with someone else, holding his hand, kissing him, flirting with him. Who else in the world has to silently sit by while the person she loves is with someone else? Who else lives in the room next door to their love, and has to hear her giving herself to someone else? I only keep on living to stay close to her, but my life has become constant agony and suffering, and I only feel like I am alive when we are alone together. I love her so much it hurts. | 5192009 | ||||||
| State | NC | City | raleigh | Gender | Male | Age | 14 |
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| im gay and a loner by choice although now because i have no social skills. i am afraid to makes friends with guys cuz im gay (unsure really) and i dont want to embaress them or scare them. | 4182011 | ||||||
| State | ND | City | Fargo | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I have tried so hard to please everyone around me and make them happy that no one knows when I'm hurt and sad. I've learned to hide my crying so well that not even my own mother can tell when I've been crying. | 12202010 | ||||||
| State | ND | City | Grand Forks | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I am a pagan, bisexual, and a white nationalist. Though most people don't know that I am all these things, the words they say about these topics casually... hurt me. | 10112011 | ||||||
| State | NEW YORK | City | HICKSVILLE | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| im 16 years old, and i still suck my fingers. ive sucked my fingers since i was an infant. i cant stop, im addicted to it. ive tried stopping so many times and nothing has worked. i dont know what to do. nobody outside my house-hold family knows. | 722010 | ||||||
| State | NEW YORK | City | TARRYTOWN | Gender | Male | Age | 54 |
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| I USED TO SCREWW ALL MY WIFE'S FRIEND WHEN SHE WOULD GO TO WORK AND EVEN HER SISTER | 12202010 | ||||||
| State | NJ | City | Belford | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| i hate life. i have a good family who loves me, 4 true friends, and money to spend but i truly just want it all to end. i cant talk to anyone about how i feel. i dont know who i am anymore, i changed so much for people that all is left is this evil monster inside me. i cant be happy over anything, i cry every night, i have tried cutting but i got scared that i would cut to hard or deep and then i would leave this mess of pain for those few that would care. i wrote my heart out and now i just need some one to help me. | 1042010 | ||||||
| State | NJ | City | Rocky Hill | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I have had sex with more than 15 guys and had oral sex with at least 22. (I am only 20.) My mother would be horrified and my boyfriend would be disgusted and crushed. I’m afraid that he would think I was a slut. (He thinks it’s somewhere around 3). My best friend doesn’t even know about all of them. One time my female co-worker and I gave head to our 2 male managers in a car, and another time I did it in the office. I try not to hold regret but I am so ashamed of some of the things I’ve done. I didn’t know how to say no when I was younger. I hope that I can teach my daughter how to say no better than I could. | 222009 | ||||||
| State | NV | City | Las Vegas | Gender | Male | Age | 30 |
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| i think my new secretary is so hot. she has the biggest boobs and wears tight shirts. she has caught me looking at them and just smiles. I have had my dick out of my zipper and jacked off while she is talking to me. i got really messy and had to go home and change. | 9292010 | ||||||
| State | NV | City | Reno | Gender | Male | Age | 33 |
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| I think about killing myself a lot. It comes and goes, but it seems pointless to do anything about it. All of the motivations I have to leave this planet and the human race behind are constants. They are things that cannot be changed about society and human beings in general. I am really certain that this is how I will die, it's just a matter of time. | 2252011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | BROOKLYN | Gender | Female | Age | 40 |
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| I've had a very good friend for years not knowing he had a crush on me, after 8 years in a conversation he told me, about a year or more he came to NY and we went out. I had sex with him, but the strangest thing happen he said the condom broke in the highs of having sex I try to make sure the condom was on but he said what are you doing, after sex he said the condom broke and i was devastated, he show me that he had on two, I know I've made one of the deadliest mistakes of my life then, I cried he promise me that he had nothing that he was sharing. A week after I had an HIV test which came back negative, but I know it was too soon. My life is never the same again. I know if a person have on two condom one would burst not both, in my heart I think he wanted to share something I'm so afraid to get another test because I don't know if I can live with myself for making this big mistake.It kills me everyday thinking if this person intentionally give me something and wondering it there is a place or site I can go on to get any information on this situation, if someone knowingly share a disease to another what action can be taken. I cant sleep many night to know one time that's all it takes, I cant trust anyone any more my life is mess up since this ordeal. Please advice me. | 1112012 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | Buffalo | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Sometimes I wish I would get in an accident that would leave me in critical condition so that you will come running to my bed side saying that you were never so scared of losing me and that you'd never want to leave me again | 12172009 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | Buffalo | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I am a grad student. I am in love with one of my undergrad students; he's only 3 years younger. It's still wrong. And I am in a 4yr+ long-distance relationship, and it's getting so damn lonely. My bf cheated on me once (that I know of...), but I have never been with anyone else, even though I've wanted to. I feel like my life is on "pause" right now, since I can't honestly pursue a relationship, but I don't really feel like I'm in a relationship, either. I love my bf, but the distance (he's in Utah) is too much. I just want a real relationship, and even the person I like isn't available, since he is my student. I don't know what to do. | 12142010 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | Buffalo | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I thought I was in love at 14. He raped me. It destroyed me until this day. But I am happily in love with an amazing man who understands me. I forgave the boy who raped me. I'm happy now. | 1202011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | Buffalo | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I'm a bi teenage girl. I lost my virginity at 14 to a guy I met the week before. I do drugs with my friends (nothing hardcore). I drink. I hate myself beyond mesure | 792011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | NYC | Gender | Female | Age | 27 |
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| Im a good girl for my parents and most of my friends, going to private college. But I live by myself in dfrnt country, so it is easy to keep some secrets from my family. One of them really bothers me. A month ago i start hang out one guy who fall in love with me and ready to do just anth to help me with just anything I need. I didnt like him much from the beginning coz I knew he sells drugs. I cant believe I was still hanging w him for a few weeks and then i left to my country to see my parents for 2 weeks. He was on some probation I knew and had missed a meeting or a court... He got locked up for 7 days as he said. I got back home and he couldnt even pick me up at hte airport coz he was supposed to get out only in 2 days. He called me the next day and said he is so sorry and he misses me so much and he will see me tmrw. No calls still. Probly he has more than 7 days to stay there. IDK. WTF to do? To wait or to use the situation to stop so i dont fall to deep.... Ive never date a guy w such troubles. I still wanna talk to him ab stuff anyway but im scared. Even he said it will never happen again. They all say that, dont they? Sux. | 1152011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | NYC | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| from very begining i didn't have trust on god.I do all bad things including homosex,alcohol,group sex,drugs,making porn mms and even tried to rape many under age girl.I belong to muslim family, and they r very religious.I never got a single dream of my life to become true,and found my self always in a great trouble. Every 1 says i shd start praying, but its not possible 4 me.Don't knw how 2 believe. Each day i found my self on the same track.I want 2 live a good life, but don't knw what 2 do... | 1272011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | NYC | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years. we were living together and it had gone pretty sour. I left the apartment and it broke my heart. Now I am living in a new place, and I am finally back to thinking about myself and putting effort in fixing myself. I never ever want to see my ex again as long as I live. Is that awful? I was just so hurt from this relationship. And I know because in the end, he told me he didn't care. I think if I see him, I will throw up. It makes me sick just thinking of him. I hate that because I want to send positive love to him..but I am just still hurt by it. | 2132011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I slept with a colleague at work. He's 8 years older than me. We agree we would say nothing about it and it was just a one night stand. He doesn't know I may have given him HPV. Also in the past 4 months, I've cheated 3 times. Once on a boyfriend Then when ending up with the guy I cheated on my bf with, with my ex Then on that boyfriend with my flatmate I don't do it to be malicious and I can't blame the drink completely for it. I'm not a bad person. I just like sex. Someone lock me up. | 4192011 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | Rochester | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I just had sex with my ex. It was 100% my idea. We never did it when we were together. I was a virgin and too scared to ask. He knew and didn't want to push me. Months after we broke up I just decided I couldn't take it anymore. I just wanted to know how it felt. I don't really feel any different as a person per say. It did feel amazing though. I'm glad I did it with someone I trust, even though we aren't together. I don't want to date him again. Neither of us are ready to date anyone. But I still want to do it again. He's also my best friend. I don't know what to do. | 222012 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | Syracuse | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I just cut myself. I haven't cut in months. Too much stress and despair. I want to commit suicide. I want to die. | 1142009 | ||||||
| State | NY | City | camillus | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| I have tried to kill myself and hate my life, I went to therpy and the doctor told me I was lying, so I quit, now I can't trust anybody, and don't know how to get help... | 2262011 | ||||||
| State | Nebraska | City | North Platte | Gender | Female | Age | 25 |
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| i slept with my brother in-law..got preggers and convinced my hubby it is his child | 222012 | ||||||
| State | Neraska | City | Omaha | Gender | Female | Age | 12 |
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| I know it may seem like Im a bitch because I try to think about him but it turns into you . But I'd cheat on him with you because hes not giving me anything to work with. | 592011 | ||||||
| State | Neraska | City | Omaha | Gender | Female | Age | 12 |
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| I know it may seem like Im a bitch because I try to think about him but it turns into you . But I'd cheat on him with you because hes not giving me anything to work with. | 592011 | ||||||
| State | Nevada | City | Las Vegas | Gender | Female | Age | 11 |
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| Last year, I was curious to see what porn was, so I looked it up. I saw a little and was instantly addicted. I always want to hide it. I tell normal middle school jokes about watching porn. They all think I'm being sarcastic. I'm not. It's killing me, I don't want to grow up a sick pervert. This shouldn't be me. If only my friends knew who I was. It was a mistake. All it was was curiosity. If only they knew I was an 11 year old pervert. | 12292011 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | Hackettstown | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| my boyfriend and I met on a webcamming site and we talked everyday on the phone ever since. We are so in love and serious about our relationship. I'm thinking of moving in with him soon. He recently confessed to me that he lied about something really important... He told me that when he first met me on that site, he didn't think he would talk to me for more than a week, much less fall in love with me, so he wasn't completely honest about his age. He told me he was 22 years old back then, and he just confessed to me that he just turned 27. To be honest I let go from the start that he lied, I don't care at all because I've been in that position before and I know how hard it is to fix it. My main concern is the age difference.. I just turned 18. I love him so much and i'm able to hopefully see past it, but I don't think anyone else will. I don't really know how to deal with this. I'm thinking I'll just let everyone still think he's 22. I hate keeping it in from my parents and friends. | 10232011 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | Hackettstown | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| ever since i was raped by my older brother when i was 12 i've gotten more and more addicted to sex/porn/masturbating. it's soooo bad that i fantasize having sex with everyone. even my dad and brother and teacher......i'm sick in the head. this is just one of my many problems. i also cut myself...but at least my boyfriend knows about that. | 1122011 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | Montclair | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| I am aromantic, but not asexual. | 1122010 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | NJ | Gender | Female | Age | 41 |
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| I am deeply in love with life, once again! Since I broke up with my boyfriend, felt like an old lady. And now after so many years I am already 42. No one is attracted towards me. All the anti-age treatments are just rubbish! “But wait, not all the perfumes are rubbish.”- suggested my friend Annie. I tried the anti-age perfume Ageless Fantasy. Wow! This is amazing. My colleagues ask about my perfume. I’ll not turn to a young lady again, but definitely I feel like so. Men inquire about my fresh look....and beautiful smile. What more should I expect? | 7222009 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | Pomptin Lakes | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Please don't be mean, this is a real problem for me. I'm 12 years old, and i masturbate, and look at porn. I started with I was about 7, my 10 year old cousin and I had sex. I didn't think much of it, and it didn't change my life much, but whenever I look at porn my mom comes quite close to seeing it. I wish I could stop, but i can't. Up until now, the only person that knew was me. I just wanted to get that off my chest. | 12262009 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | Rahway | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I love my boyfriend. Everytime I see him with his ex, I feel like literally killing them... and I'm a pacifist. I have never got into a fight in my life. I've always been against violence. But when I see them talking or even looking at each other, I seriously feel like spreading her blood on the walls... And his. | 462010 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | Williamstown | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| When I was six, I was raped by another girl. I told my mom when I was eight. She never believed me, and the very best friends I've told, tell me to get over it, it doesn't matter. | 9152010 | ||||||
| State | New Jersey | City | union city | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| Hi I am 13 yrs.old my secret is that well nobody knows that I am suicidal nobody I was offered help but I denied it and I regret no accepting it I don't now what to do I feel hopeless and worthless. I have been like this sence I turned 13 now I am going to be 14 but I know that I failed to do something about this situation I live with my father and my mother abandoned me I don't know what to do I have suicidal thoughts everyday sence I can't lie I did try to kill myself and was so close to dieing I need help. | 8212011 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | Albany | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I dated him for 2 months before he had to be deployed back to Iraq and then to Afghanistan. Ever since he left, I wake up and cry every morning. Not because he isn't here, but because I know he is the person I should of spent the rest of my life with. | 4122010 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | Bronx | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| so I've been dating this guy for 2 yrs now, well not dating cause when we met he said he wasn't "ready to be in a relationship" cause his ex cheated on him so i had to suffer cause of his stupid ex's anyways when we made a year i started to cheat on him like crazy like started to just mess around with guys ect.. so i kinda lost feelings for him well i still LOVE HiM but i don't want a relationship with him, but he tells me that if i would ever stop talking to him he will kill himself and like i just wanna be friends i really love him and care for him but i just can't be with him nomre + his breath stinks! like idk how to tell him lol but that's not the point the point is that I've lost feelings towards him oh, i forgot to write that he has been unfaithful to me plently of times and like i just don't know what to do please help! :( | 4162010 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | Brooklyn | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I realised today that i am in love with one of my best friends. Thing is, I would never admit it to anyone because they'd think it's stupid that I don't just tell him. I've never felt this way before and if I'm honest, it scares me alot. the intensity that overwhemles me sometimes gives me this weird feeling in my stomach and I don't know if its just fear. how am I supposed to know what love is though, if I don't know if he loves me back? I don't think he does. | 10312009 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | Hampton Bays | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I am in love with my boyfriends ex girlfriend. Every time I see her, my heart flip flops. I am fascinated by her. Her beauty and eccentric nature. I want to hold her and touch her, but I am not allowed. I dream about her. I dream about kissing her and taking care of her. I deny it, but my heart doesn't lie. | 6122010 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | Long Island | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Ever since him and I began speaking on the internet/voice chatting, he's made me feel whole. But he has severe mental issues and I, severe emotional issues, yet we're so perfect for each other. I'm afraid to love him, but I couldn't bear the thought of him never speaking to me again. I'm frightened.. | 11152011 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Male | Age | 23 |
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| I am gay and I had a boyfriend, but he left me. I am torn. I feel like I should kill myself... To save him the trouble. I am so scared. | 8292009 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| Hi, I'm 14 and I have been raped twice, and have never told anyone but i need to get it off my chest the first time it was my math teacher and i had to stay after school and he forced me to have sex with him. The second time I was at a camp and this guy needed to talk to me and we went for a walk at about twelve and went deeper and deeper into the woods and then it happen again I have never told anyone this. I asking myself "why does this keep happening to me" "Am i really so stupid?" | 1232010 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 33 |
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| feeling like i want to kill myself today. i am worried about who would raise my 5 yr old | 5142010 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I've thought, and realized that the most probable reason people believe in an afterlife, either through rebirth or through heaven and hell, is because they are afraid. Afraid to realize we have ONE life to live. This is it. There are no second chances, no do-overs. And that scares me. | 7102010 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| I masturbate with porn. I don't know why but it feels amazing. I've done it everywhere. U even use my brother's electric toothbrush. The porn is amazing too, i just love to see those whores doing it to guys and I wish I was them. But no one knows, they dont even know that while I'm writing this in my room and they are in the leaving room, I'm looking at hardcore porn, half naked and with an electric toothbrush in my pussy. | 5142011 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Male | Age | 20 |
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| i wish he would talk to me and we could live happily ever after like we planned. he doesnt love me and it kills me. i cry for like ten seconds every few hours. hes all i can think about and i mean nothing to him now. | 7312011 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I used to tell everyone I kissed girls before but my first kiss was with some slightly drunk lady in a nightclub. Now i am pure crazy about her but i dont think she feels the same... | 10302011 | ||||||
| State | New York | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I'm hopelessly in love with a woman who's 20 years older than I am. | 1242012 | ||||||
| State | New york | City | New York | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I'm bisexual. i have a girlfriend, stella. i love her more than anything. | 8192010 | ||||||
| State | North Carolina | City | Gender | Female | Age | 27 |
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| More than one. Things can't be changed, just want to share. I cheated on my husband with 2 other men, was molested by my stepfather and uncle when younger, had an abortion from one of the affairs, Have slept with over 50 men in my life, yet no one knows these things. I never want my child to know. | 12152010 | ||||||
| State | North Carolina | City | Raleigh | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| They say writing helps you out, to let it all out. But I'm starting to believe that it only sets you up for worse things; we let our enemy know exactly where to strike...but I still write. Am I suppose to hold it in? Is it the stress..the constant pull of my body in separate places? I don't want my weakest part to be known, to be used against me, but I want my other half..whoever it is...to know who I am. I've been covering up so many scars, I hate I am so focused on healing. My mother was taken from me by cancer three years ago and I am still broken. I am almost convinced I will never know what it's like again, to go each day with my only worry being the common. I'm tired of hurting. I need to turn back to who is on my side, but I'm so blind I don't know where my next step will take me. S.O.S. Secretly. Over- runned. Stranded. | 3132011 | ||||||
| State | Ny | City | Long island | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I need help with addiction I am a teenage girl and I have Bren addicted to porn since I was 7 i also struggle wit addiction for masturbation precription drugs tweezing body hair my other biggest addiction is tv and computer i'm pretty smart n have potential but I have really bad anxiety depression and ADHD and I feel so ashamed and I get so nervous around people my age it is so hard to do hw because I get distracted n end up online for hrs. I've never had a bf but I picture sex in everything I just feel so insecure and uncomfortable in my own body also I'm adopted and my dad hasn't really been there for me because of his own problems he's actually y I saw porn at such a young age but my mom loves me so much I just need help can anyone help me my therapist sucks n I don't really have any friends to talk to I just wanna get past the addictions and do well in school n just be normal there's much more to my life so i will answer any questions in order to get the best help | 6142010 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Bexley | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I think i have finally found that one guy, but I might be the reason that our long distance relationship is falling apart. | 1112010 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Cincinnati | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I pretend i dont want to be with you anymore so that we can keep our great friendship. If you know me as well as you say you do, why cant you see through my act and realize I would literally do anything for you? | 12122009 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Cleveland | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| The thought of girls having diarrhea really turns me on. It's not the shit that gets me, but the distress and desperation she shows on her face. Oh, and the suspense. I wish it were somehow acceptable so that I could actually encounter a situtuation like that but, keep dreaming.... | 4282010 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Cleveland | Gender | Female | Age | 33 |
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| I am in love with someone who I know I shouldn't be in love with because I don't think he will ever love me the way I want him to. Everyone thinks I'm crazy, but I am holding on in the insane hope that one day he will realize that he loves me enough to want to commit to me. He tells me that he can't live without me, and I believe him. But, truth is, he is seeing someone else, and will not commit. I have no where else to go, and I don't want to. | 4282011 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Cleveland | Gender | Female | Age | 33 |
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| I am afraid that I will never get my "happy ending" and that I will not find someone to love, get married, and have a family of my own. I am terrified that it will never be "my turn." | 4282011 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Columbus | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I'm a 22 year old virgin. Though I'm still proud of being a virgin...I, for the first time, really want to have sex...scratch that...make love. I won't yield my v-card for just anyone...but I want a quality man to hurry up and find me. | 6152011 | ||||||
| State | OH | City | Kent | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| Oh God! where do i start from? ok I am in a relationship with this guy, imet some months ago. and thrugh him i met this sweet couple. onewhich i am having feelingfor and who i also having feelings form me. This is complicating...because i cantstop thinking about this person...I've nver felt like this for someone in my life. I am scared about the way i feel...and at the sam time, i cant help it. | 8232008 | ||||||
| State | OHIO | City | Georgetown | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| The truth is.. i cut myself. a lot. and my boyfriend said that if i do it again, he's leaving me. But being depressed, bipolar and bulimic, is really hard. sometimes i just wanna give up. end it all. but i know that he would be crushed. i love him way too much. he's my best friend. and people say i'm selfish, don't know what i've got. but i do. i really do. and i love him so much. it's just so unbelievably hard not to mess it up one way or another. i really don't know if anyone will read this.. but this is the first time i've talked about it. i've been through so much and people don't understand. i don't want attention.. i just want to be needed.. wanted. kyle gives me what i need and loves me for who i am. but me not having sex with him and always being sad or texting really makes him mad. i know its not healthy to be in a serious realtionship with a 20 year old at 15.. but i love him. i couldn't imagine life without him.. so what if i cut myself.. that doesn't change my love for him. | 1132011 | ||||||
| State | OK | City | Oklahoma City | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I want a baby so badly. I know I can't have one now though. I'm still in college, and my bf is still working on his degree too. I would do almost anything for a child. I know it would ruin the life I have now, and severely complicate my future. I just can't wait to hold my little one in my arms or on my chest and just let my love for him pour out with every fiber of my being. I want to be a mommy! | 1282012 | ||||||
| State | OR | City | Eugene | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| Years ago me and a girl were drunk and puking in the bathroom together and i had just met her that night. I can barely remember (but know i did) putting my hand in her clothes and feeling her up everywhere while she was blacked out. She started going out with my brother a week later. I'm the only person that knows it happend. Thankfully ive been sober for over two and a half years and it will never happen again but i still feel bad for taking advantage of her. I have MANY MANY secrets i need to get out. that was just the first to come to mind. | 292011 | ||||||
| State | OR | City | Portland | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I'm so small-chested that I'm less than an A cup. I'm too small to wear bras. Why is this so awful, you ask? I'm 21. | 1212011 | ||||||
| State | OR | City | bend | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| Im still madly in love with one of my ex's. I think about him everyday. And my heart brakes a lil more everyday. I cant tell him because he's with someone else. And i dont want to. I cant tell anyone. I dont want people to know. I dont want poeple knowing i brake more and more everyday. I put on a fake smile and walk around like everythings kk when really its not. I cant cry because if i cry i know i'll never heal. Sometimes i think if i block him out things will get better but i dont think so. All i can do is keep smiling and maybe someday i'll get better. I'll wake up one day and be comfortable with out him around. But until then, I'm stuck | 8242010 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I think I've developed an eating disorder. I've always had low self-confidence, and being skinny makes me feel better about myself. I made myself throw up once after I was feeling sick because I thought it would make my stomach feel better, and then a while after that, I ate too much fast food and was feeling guilty and fat...so I made myself throw up the same way. I started doing it after anytime I felt like I ate too much. Now I don't feel good after eating ANYTHING unless I go and throw it up. It's so weird. I remember watching those stupid educational videos in health class years ago about eating disorders, and I made fun of those girls. I just don't know how to stop at this point. It's not as simple as "don't do it anymore." I can't stop thinking about how fat I'm making myself until I throw up. | 3142011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Chesapeake | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I don't think I'll ever be good enough....for anyone. | 3292009 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Cincinnati | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I ended my first marriage after having an affair. I'm married again and happy. Now my long time crush has come around. we've flirted and yesterday I went to his house and made out with him. I love both of them and don't want to hurt either. I feel so guilty. but i don't want to lose my best friend either. Adultry could get you in trouble again. Please stop and save your marriage before you lose your happy marriage. | 172011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Cincinnati | Gender | Male | Age | 33 |
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| I wish suicidal people would just commit suicide. I'm tired of people believing that suicidal people are entitled to live, and everything they do is a cry for help. I don't care. Let them all die. It would make my day. | 432011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Cleveland | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| These voices in my head tell me im not good enough They tell me I'm stupid The voices tell me I'll never amount to anything I'm worthless They tell me no one cares They tell me that no one wants to listen to me when I need to talk The voices won't stop And I'm starting to believe them | 452011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Cleveland | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I am broken. At the end of the night, while sitting with my own thoughts, i dream of running away. Why run? Eventually all these feelings and memories will catch up. This isn't fair. I don't remember ever being truely happy, and it's funny because i do have an okay life. I wish the procedure in the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind was real. God, i wish i could forget, but this brain won't let go. I resent nearly everyone in my life, and they're not bad people. I can't let go, i'm sich a miserable person. I have scars all over my arms, so everytime i reach over a counter to pay for gas, or shake someone's hand for the first time, i really get a good look at them and feel ashamed/embarassed/tempted/lonely. My family, therapist, friends. Nothing has helped, and i can't help myself. I've tried for 6 years and i'm tired. I want faith, i'm sick of hope | 782011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Columbus | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| Hey Kelley, I saw you for the first time in six months last Saturday at the homecoming dance. I went to talk to you and you called me a dick and walked away. You know what I did? I went home and masturbated to your yearbook photo. Page 172. You may always have the hateful memories of me, but I will always have your face whenever I might need it. | 10192009 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Columbus | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| The most beautiful thing I have ever seen: My boyfriend, head lolled forward in pleasure, eyes gently closed, straddling me. The light filtered in through the window, and everything around him was shades of grey. I didn't know that I could love him more than I did at that moment. The light flitted when the curtains moved, his body silhouetted in gentle light. His skin was so perfect, and he was so gentle in the moment. If there is a God, then here is His angel. | 412011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Dublin | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| A year ago i went to North Fork Ranch in colorado. I met the cutest guy i'd ever laid eyes on, but was too shy to say anything to him. I've always wanted to fall in love with a cowboy, and i still feel as though i lost my chance at love | 5192010 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Gahanna | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I was going to kill myself on Friday. I didn't, because I wanted to see you one last time. Let's make it a good one, okay? | 5222010 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Mansfielf | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| When I turned three my mom started to sell my body to her 'friends' to get money. They touch me. Rape me. Torture me. Make me take drugs. And I've never told anyone.Why? Because I'm going to die anyway. I'm going to try to kill myself again. This time,success. | 10242011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Somewhere | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| There is nothing wrong with me, physically. I am not sick. But in my head all I think about is when I'll get to die. Sometimes I'll tell people I can't wait until I'm "retired" and they'll agree that it'll be nice to be through with a lot of life's difficulties. I don't want to be older, ever; even 18 is too far a stretch. Every night I wish to die in my sleep. I don't want to commit suicide, though I have thought about pills (I don't have the right kind) and being hit by a car (they just swerve away). Overall, I just want to sleep and sleep and never wake up. | 132012 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Toledo | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| I cheated on my husband.. He never found out and I dont feel guilty for it because I believe I found true love and equal companionship with the man I cheated with. He said he felt it too. It was like we were meant to be together, but I am married with a child and he has a girlfriend. We came to the conclusion together that we could only be friends and we struggle to suppress our attraction and need for each other. Later this same year my husband cheated very publicly. I am too scared to end the marriage because if i do and the man I truly love still wont be with me it might mean he doesnt really feel the same way I do about him. I dont even know what I am hanging onto by staying in this marriage. Sometimes I hate my husband but most of the time I feel so much pity for him. I wish he would die somedays but that would be far to painful for our son. | 12282009 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | Wooster | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I'm in love with my roommate, but I can't express it, or everything will crumble. It breaks my heart that such a brilliant girl is so wrapped in sorrow. It seems the only way to ease her sadness is to help her find a man who can see past the shyness to the creativity and intelligence beneath, as she prays for. I have never loved before, and the fact that we're both women confounds me. My culture will not tolerate this deviation. How do I proceed? What can I do to ensure her happiness without crushing my own heart? | 952011 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | findlay | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| My sisters ex came over to say hey to me, it was 3 in the morning and we were sitting there talking and ended up making out on the couch, we are 9 years apart, and hes my sisters ex fiance, I feel terrible, and now have feelings for him. | 662010 | ||||||
| State | Ohio | City | reynoldsburg | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| On july 5 2010 we broke up and I've wanted you back ever since. I know your with brittany, but I still can't help but think we are meant to be together. I will always remeber september 5 2009 the night you stole my heart | 2182011 | ||||||
| State | Oklahoma | City | War Acres | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I love writing and drawing. When I am praised for either, I actually feel loved. These are the two things I want to do with my life.... But I don't want to die in poverty. And I am afraid that is what will happen if I follow my dreams. | 5242010 | ||||||
| State | Oregon | City | Guilt | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| Im madly in love with my best friend. | 4172011 | ||||||
| State | Oregon | City | Portland | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I don't know if I want to go any further. I am in so much pain and I'm sick of stupid spoiled teenagers complaining about their lives when they have no idea what real pain is. My depression is awful, the anxiety everyday is paralyzing, my teachers think I'm a slacker but I'm trying so hard. How can I possibly get every thing done when it's all I can do to get myself out of bed every morning? Does ANYONE GET DEPRESSION? I wish so badly sometimes that I had cancer so my family would at least recognise that there's something wrong. I'm not a whiner or a crier. I've done everything-got into sports, called suicide hotlines (what a joke-I got some foreign who didn't know what she was talking about), talked to friends (all 2 of them), I'm REACHING OUT. I NEED HELP PLEASE SOMEOBDY HELP ME. I CAN'T DO THIS. I'M ONLY 15. I need a hug from my dad who isn't here. I need a hug from him. I want him to come back and tell me everything will be alright. But it won't happen. I'll wake up to another ntmr | 622010 | ||||||
| State | Oregon | City | Portland | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| I like to film myself smoking meth&masterbating until i squirt.I often do this at hotels leaving huge puddles. I've used the lit flame of a "pencil-torch" butane lighter to smoke my glass pipe,while fucking myself with the other end | 1282012 | ||||||
| State | Oregon | City | ugene | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I've always had a crush on this queer boy (formerly girl) but was too shy to say something. I'm sure he thought I was afraid of him because I was always too timid to start up a conversation. Leaving the university without at least befriending him was painful. | 2152011 | ||||||
| State | PA | City | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I'm obese and yet everyone around me tells me I'm not. My BMI tells me I am. I love food and can't stop thinking about it. My solution to this is bulimia. It's not working. I'm fatter than ever and my body is covered in stretch marks. I feel like vomiting when i see myself in the mirror. I don't understand how people can straight up lie to me when they're supposed to love me. | 762010 | ||||||
| State | PA | City | Dallas | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I Have the biggest crush on my Best friend. She is everything I want in a girl. She has an awesome personality, great sense of humor, and she has a nice body. The only problem is that she is currently dating someone. I think she might be into me too, but neither of us wants to risk anything by putting ourselves out there. | 1272011 | ||||||
| State | PA | City | Elderton | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I have known a guy for 11 years and been dating him for 2. Wev been fighting a lot and my school closed so i am taking my senior year at another school where i met a guy who is the complete opposite of the guy im with. He is hard working sweet, caring, and incredibly attractive... but he has a girlfriend. Yesterday we went on a school trip and after spending the day together we ended up kissing on the bus. I think i may be in love with him but do not think im worth him leaving the girl hes with and my boyfriend has threatened to kill himself if i left. When i got home my boyfriend called and i told him i loved him. This may have been a lie. I am so confused and torn to the point of depression. What kind of person would i be if i left a boy i have so much history with to be with a known player that i didnt even know existed until two months ago? | 1162009 | ||||||
| State | PA | City | Pittsburgh | Gender | Female | Age | 28 |
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| My husband recently told me that he's been refusing to have sex with me because of things I've said during arguments in the past. He said it was easier to use porn because it was emotionless. It has been a long time since we've been intimate. He claims that he still finds me sexually attractive, but cannot get beyond the things I've said to him in the past. I feel lonely in my marriage. I crave intimacy and nothing I do seems to earn his forgiveness. I cry every morning after he leaves for work. I feel guilty and awful. He constantly rejects my advances. I'm ashamed that this has caused my self-esteem and sense of sexuality to suffer. I'm afraid to look at or become friends with other men out of fear that I might act on an impulse to have an affair. Not being wanted by my husband has brought me to very dark places in my mind, like suicide. | 11102009 | ||||||
| State | PA | City | West Chester | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I've changed my mind. I love you more than i could have imagined. | 12192008 | ||||||
| State | Pa | City | Blairsville | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I am in love with my best friend. I know that I am only fifteen but I believe that I really do love him. I have tried to tell him how I feel, but he likes another. He's so smart and yet he doesnt see that she will only tear him down and walk all over him to get what she wants. I haven't told anyone that I love him. It rips me apart when someone so smart like him doesnt see that I love him and I will be there for him. I feel so emotionally sick. It's somewhat difficult to express every detail, because the way I feel about him is unlike anything I have ever known. I wish someone could love me back. | 12312011 | ||||||
| State | Pennsylvania | City | New Wilmington | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I was sitting on my bed daring to cut my self with a blade, knowing I was too afraid I put it down, layed in my bed and said quietly "you're not pretty enough for the public eye." I said more about how I'm hideous and don't deserve life. Then I began crying, turned off the light and tried to sleep. This is a typical night. | 11282011 | ||||||
| State | Pennsylvania | City | xxxxx | Gender | Female | Age | 26 |
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| I love him, and I can't imagine being without him...but I'm beginning to be so afraid that I'm wasting my time with him. Like any woman there are things I want in my life; to get married and have a home with the man I love, just for example. He's told me he wants these things as well, but there is one major obstacle, his rather treatment resistant depression (something he's dealt with since the age of 7. We're both 26.). With the way things are these desires seem a long way away, even unreachable at times. I am so confused and torn apart. There is no doubt that he is the owner of my heart, and I don't want it back...but I also don't know how much longer I can stand so still in life. | 12152011 | ||||||
| State | RI | City | providence | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| Im sooo lonely and noone knows. i have family, friends and girls interested in me but its not enough...I am not satisfied, what is wrong with me? | 7102011 | ||||||
| State | SC | City | Gender | Female | Age | 30 |
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| I have cheated on my husband several times. I guess its because he doesnt give me the time of day. So when i get attention i take it. I love my husband but i love attention too. I had an affair over the summer and it was the most fantastic man i have ever been with. I miss him terribly and i know that i love him. I cant be with him due to my kids wanting us my husband and i to be together. I dont know what to do at times. My husband knows but i continue to deny it. I feel like such a whore but then i know im not because what i felt was love and we even waited like 4 months before we had sex. I just miss him and I think about him all the time. Then i look at my husband and I love him too and i cant live without him. I am so confused. I just want to feel with my husband what i felt with him. Why cant things just work out, why does everything stay so complicated? I miss you! My loving caring man........... | 3112009 | ||||||
| State | SC | City | Columbia | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| I am about to earn my Eagle Scout, but I have yet to come out as a transsexual. I am extremely depressed and frequently desire to kill myself. My parents refuse to help me and my psychiatrist is unwilling to help me. | 4302010 | ||||||
| State | SC | City | Columbia | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| I am afraid my girlfriend will leave me when I go overseas on deployment. I am more afraid I will cheat on her. I hate myself for being weak willed. Why am I so pathetic? | 1152011 | ||||||
| State | SC | City | Hanahan | Gender | Male | Age | old |
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| Oh yea, go after the taller guy, just because he has the same name??? I'm cooler, doesn't even know the other guy. But me? You've known me for 4 years. This puts me in a worse mood than I need to be in. It's because I'm black!!! She's a racist, I'm tellin you. Why? Barack Obama is president now. We have had centuries of discrimination and this is what I get? They wonder why they don't have a white history month! Think about it, who went through years of slavery. Just the thought makes me sick!!! | 2202009 | ||||||
| State | SC | City | West Columbia | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| My ex-brother told me that no one could ever love me. I'm in college now, and all the guys seem to ignore me. I can't help but think that what he said is the truth. All I want is to fall in love, have lots of kids, and be successful. How can I have any of that if I am unlovable? | 8262010 | ||||||
| State | Sc | City | Myrtle beach | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I really hate myself and some times I want to cut my arms with a sharp knife!. | 10122011 | ||||||
| State | South Carolina | City | Hartsville | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I have a boyfriend, a boyfriend of 9 months. I, secretly hate him. I want him to die sometimes. Horrible? Yes. Can I help it? No. I don't want to dump him, I'm afraid of being alone. I'm too used to this 9 months. I'm too used to having a boyfriend, and taking cute pictures, getting kisses, and good morning and good night text messages. He NEVER calls me, NEVER text me. I always make the first move with everything, I know he loves me. & Some where deep down inside I love him too, but the rest of me hates him. I slap him, hit him, punch him, and curse him most of the time. Sometimes, I just feel like I could literally kill him. I want this feeling to go away. I WANT to LOVE him with everything I am. What do I do? also, i'm clingy. I guess it's not him I love, it's having a boyfriend. I text him constantly, 24/7.. | 12232011 | ||||||
| State | South Carolina | City | Noname | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| I'm the one putting all the effort into this relationship. So I'll get angry. And then later on you say something sweet and make me feel stupid about being angry. You don't talk about me to your friends, I bring you up in almost every conversation, even when I don't mean to. You say that you're not used to having anyone around like I am. It doesn't take that much effort just to talk to me. I say all the lovey-dovey stuff. And you barely react. I'm starting to think this was really stupid. I know I won't even remember saying this later, because like I said, you'll say something sweet and I'll be all over you again. Are you sure you mean it when you say you love me? | 6262011 | ||||||
| State | TN | City | Somewhere | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I want you. I want you so bad. I just want you to notice when I'm not around. | 6142010 | ||||||
| State | TX | City | Austin | Gender | Male | Age | 14 |
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| I am 14 and i actually live in england. My secret is: I love my science teacher. My mates think she is not fit, but I do. When I am in one of her lessons all I think about is licking her wet pussy, sticking my fingers up her ass and my dick in her mouth. Apparently she lives near me so I want to follow her home and break in so I can sniff her lacy panties, watch her bathe and have sex with her twat of a husband. I want to tell her but I dont know how. | 6222009 | ||||||
| State | TX | City | Austin | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| When I visited my ex, we traded underwear. I miss him more than anything in the whole world and he lives four hours away. I'm afraid to see him and give him his underwear back because then I'll have nothing to remember him by. Stupid I know, but at the age of 17, I have to think that this is exactly what love feels like. | 3232011 | ||||||
| State | TX | City | Buda | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I had a boyfriend for over a year, we broke up. I know have been with another guy for 2 years but still find myself constantly thinking of the other guy. To make things worse the 1st guy has recently told me he feels the same way. I cheated on my current boyfriend with my ex. I feel horrible, but at the same time, It felt so right. | 6172010 | ||||||
| State | TX | City | Dallas | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I cheated on my boyfriend of two years with my first love. I tried ending it with my boyfriend first, thinking that it would be worth it, but now my boyfriend is trying harder than I've ever seen him try to make things with us work. On the other hand, I was with my first love tonight, and I'm not sure if I felt as great as he did... I always do this. I think that I am CERTAIN that a guy is right, and then he ends up loving me a tremendous amount more than I love him. And now I am thinking about just staying with my boyfriend, because he's been the only guy to keep enough self respect for himself. I am seeing my boyfriend tomorrow. Sigh. I feel horrible. | 12292009 | ||||||
| State | TX | City | Houston | Gender | Female | Age | 50 |
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| I'm in a relationship for 3 years my partner cant make any progress to be together cause he lives with his mom which she is controling and dont like me and he listen to her he is mome's boy he is 55 years old dont know if its a good idea to break up with him all his excuse is that he can't handel us together in one house and he is waitin for his mom to pass away she is 76 years old and very healthy he loves me very much but i dont know to to do. | 542009 | ||||||
| State | TX | City | Sachse | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I'm falling in love with a guy who's just here for 164 days from today, he's leaving this summer to go back home. I secretly wish he would stay with me forever and although he doesn't know it I've been crying about this for a while now. I know I'm young and I can find someone else, but I've never met someone who could make me feel this way. I love you, and I will some how manage to always will, I just hope you don't forget me when you go back home because that will break my heart more than you leaving. Thank you for making me smile so much this year, and for making me smile the rest of these 164 days I have left with you. | 12212010 | ||||||
| State | Tennessee | City | Knoxville | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I just wanted to say that I have an amazing boyfriend. However, I can't tell anyone... | 8102010 | ||||||
| State | Tennessee | City | Nashville | Gender | Female | Age | 53 |
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| I fell in love at 50,he is not in my life, i am sick, i think i will never love again.I am so sad. Sadder than when i was married to an abusive man | 3312011 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Arlington | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| I just got out of a behavioral school for depression and cutting and I just got diegnosed with an eating dissorder | 10102009 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Austin | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I’m 20 years old and I’m lost. My dad passed away less than a year ago. My mom and my brother and I are about to face our first holiday season without him. I don’t know if I’ll survive. I’m about to loose the best thing I’ve got and his name is *****. He’s was the first guy I ever slept with and the only man I’ve ever loved. He is about to graduate from ***** ****, the school that we met at over a year ago. I am failing all 12 hours of my fall semester this year and I don’t care, other than the fact that my mom will kill me when she finds out she wasted 3000 bucks on nothing. I still don’t even know what the fuck I’m going to do for a living. I say I’ll become a speech pathologist. I don’t even know what a speech pathologist does. I owe almost 5000 to banks and lenders and credit card companies. I don’t have a job. I walked out of my last one because I was pissy, just like I had done before with my two previous jobs. And I think I have a warrant out for my arrest because I haven’t taken defensive driving yet for the speeding ticket I got over the summer. | 11262008 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Austin | Gender | Female | Age | 30 |
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| I dated my best friend a few years back and fell in love with him. but i made the mistake of cheating on him and breaking up with him, because my life took a horrible turn. i regret that more than anything. he is now dating one of my close friends, and he thinks i am ok with it. the truth is, i still love him more than i even know. the only reason why i can keep my mouth shut is because i want him to be happy. | 4132009 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Corpus Christi | Gender | Female | Age | 32 |
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| I was in a great relationship that turned terrible, harmful, and painful. I got out of it, thank goodness, two years ago. I act normal, but it has continued to haunt me. I've been to counseling but i have flashbacks and panic attacks. I hide these from my friends, family, and work so I can fit in. I especially dont want to lose my job or jeopardize my standing there, because i need to support myself. I'd been dealing well for a while lately, but next weekend i have a friend's wedding and my fears and hurt have been rushing back. My ex and I had planned to marry, but just thinking about marriage and commitment now make me sick with fear. I dont know if I'm jealous, or traumatized, or cynical, or a little of everything, but I hate to even think of weddings and I dont know how i will make it through hers and act happy for her. Getting married and having kids was always my dream and I hope I still do someday. I hope i dont get too old for that to happen. | 10162009 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Dallas | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| the only thing that stopped me from killing myself when i was 15 was the fact that you'd be grieving over your daughter instead of me grieving over my dead boyfriend. i'd rather suffer than know that you will be suffering. i am now 16 and it has been almost a year. i don't want to die. i love you, mom. | 7132009 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Dallas | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| I never tell anyone anything. I never tell anyone how I really feel. I think i might be bipolar. I think i might be suffering of hallucinations; I can see and hear thing no one can. I hold in things. I cant really take it anymore. | 412011 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Houston | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I act happy all the time but someone asked me today how i thought i would die and i knew that it would probably be suicide | 2102010 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Houston | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| im 23 and ive never told anyone this either. i was raped/ malested by my brother for 8 yrs. i was a child. i didnt understand but i was scared to tell anyone because he supported our family snd without him we wouldnt have survived. i see him everyday he lives with my parents. i hate him i have a low selfesteem i feel ugly i feel dirty i feel like trash.it never hit me until now that im older im scared to take a shower i have nightmares of being raped i feel like one day it will happen by a stranger i think about it all the time | 4202010 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Houston | Gender | Female | Age | 12 |
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| I'm in love with a 19 year old who loves me back and we had a relationship but he had a girlfriend and i'm not sure what to do because i don't know if he loves me anymore but i'm waiting for a weekend and i'll try to kiss him. I truly think i love him though and he said he loves me and trusts me. I know things even his best friend or ex-girlfriend know about. He knows things that not even my parents or friends know about. He's my bestfriend and i love him but i don't know what to do.. | 10152010 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Huston | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I've never been hurt so badly. I'm over weight and this guy decided to ruin my day and as I was walking say "wobble wobble wobble" it KILLED me. I went to the bathroom and cried I'll never forget it, wanna know why I never will? because this happened 3 weeks ago and I still cry about it everyday.. | 11222011 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Irving | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| people think i have it all. yeah, sure, whatever. try having depression and being bipolar. dealing with that is so hard. sometimes there's really nothing that will help. so, i cut myself to ease the pain. | 1192009 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Laredo | Gender | Male | Age | 16 |
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| I'm that guy. One of the star football players, that everyone is friends with. I hang out with a group of 3 girls from choir that I've known for years already. I've had a crush on one of them from the start, over the years its turned into more then just a crush. I love you. At least I hope. I've dreamed about you everyday for two months already. I've never told you any of this. It's weird, I'm not afraid of going against guys twice my size on the field, yet I'm scared of losing you as a friend. It ripped my heart to pieces when you told me that your boyfriend of a year now asked you to get engaged with him. It was sown back together when you told me that you were going to say no, but those stitches didn't hold when he finally convinced you to say yes. I've lost the last of my spirit, even if it doesn't seem like it. I've always regretted not telling you how I felt. Now its affecting my performance on the field, where ten other guys need me at my best. My coach even came over to my house "because it looks like (I've) lost my inner fire,and the passion (I) used to play with. " Next week is playoffs, but I'm not even sure about showing up, because I know that if I don't get this off my chest it could hurt the team more then it's hurting me. | 1172011 | ||||||
| State | Texas | City | Livingston | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I have a crush on one of the teachers, but that isn't the big deal. Nor is the big deal that she's more than ten years older than me, married, and straight. No, the problem is that I think she knows. | 942010 | ||||||
| State | Tx | City | Abilene | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I told my cousin today that I'm gay. She is the only in my family who knows officially. I have only told one other friend too. I'm optimistic, yet obviously terrified to tell everyone else. Wish me luck and send your prayers please. | 312011 | ||||||
| State | UT | City | Ogden | Gender | Male | Age | 36 |
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| I am biologically female. I hate it. I wonder sometimes if I would be happier male. I am scared I will not be comfortable with myself after transitioning, any more than I am now. | 6262010 | ||||||
| State | Utah | City | Salt Lake City | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I'm a happily married strait man, But I LOVE to crossdress! I feel like a lesbian stuck in a mans body | 12132010 | ||||||
| State | Utah | City | Sandy | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| i cut myself right above my waste line every night my dad has sexually, physically and meantaly abused me and i've been raped more than a few times. ive been through drugs and things that most people dont dream about i dont want help i just want someone to talk to | 3182011 | ||||||
| State | VA | City | Hampton | Gender | Male | Age | 48 |
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| First of all I love women always have, but I once had sex with a man who I actually asked him out. It was my first time so I decided to make the best of it. Next thing I knew he was in my mouth. I certainly enjoyed every inch of that man. Boy, was he hung. The last thing I remember he was delivering his full load in my ass. I dream about and fantisize about penis all the time. I can't wait to please another man | 1172009 | ||||||
| State | VA | City | Richmond | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I've never been confident in my looks, but I feel better about my appearance when I'm starving. | 1252010 | ||||||
| State | VA | City | Vienna | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I'm dating Dylan. I can't tell anyone though. We're supposed to keep it a secret. Its just so hard. Thanks. | 152012 | ||||||
| State | VA | City | Virginia Beach | Gender | Female | Age | 45 |
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| I ended up in a relationship with a guy because I was pregnant. I do not love him and it has been 10 years. Now I am so miserable because he does not love me either. None of the nice things people that love each other do for each other ever happens to me. I have to struggle with no help. No cuddling, no kissing, no sex. He has ADD and does not listen to me, ever. He only hears what he wants to. I ask him to do things and he does not. I am thinking he wants it over too. I have never in my whole life felt so unloved and lonely and angry. Why am I doing this to myself? | 1282011 | ||||||
| State | VA | City | Woodbridge | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| Sometimes I wish that someone would rape me so that I'd know what it's like to be wanted for sex. | 12102010 | ||||||
| State | Vermont | City | not available | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I have a serious addiction to shoplifting. I have been doin it for about ten years. I can't walk into a store and not steal something. I suppose its because I grew up in a poor and abusive household. I can't go to a store and see something I like and not be able to afford it, it literally tears me apart. I've stolen things as little as candy or jewelery to filling full backpacks in a store and walking out. I've never been caught. My friends know I do it and sometimes keep an eye out for me so I don't get in trouble. I need to stop doing it, but just can't bring myself to not steal. Shoplifting is my drug. | 1272010 | ||||||
| State | Virginia | City | Chesapeake | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I broke it off with my fiancee because I was scared of the idea of sleeping with only one person for the rest of my life. I told him it was because I was afraid that I was holding him back in the pursuit of his college education. I'm sorry I lied. | 1132010 | ||||||
| State | Virginia | City | Crozet | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I'm currently helping the guy I love get with the girl I hate. That's how much I love him. She makes him happy. | 2102011 | ||||||
| State | Virginia | City | Newport News | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| theres this boy who means the world to me and i would do anything for him but everytime he leaves the room i make out with his best friend. I dont know who to choose and i dont want to ruin anything between me and either one of them.. | 10122009 | ||||||
| State | Virginia | City | fredericksburg | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I was having sex in the back seat of my dads car with my boyfriend, and it was feeling soooooooo great! But then, all this liquid came out.. I'm not sure of it was my cum, cuz it felt soooo great or of I accidentaly peed on him.. because I really had to go pee. but still it was A LOT of liquid.. . I just hope it don't stain my dads car.. . | 11182011 | ||||||
| State | WA | City | Edmonds | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| The only thing I want in this life is a wife who I can love and cherish and spend my life with. I just want a family and to be a good dad and husband. But I'm an awkward, lame teenager that nobody really likes. I don't know any girls who have any possible interest in me. At this point I'm not confident that I won't end spending my life alone. | 672010 | ||||||
| State | WA | City | Seattle | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| a lot of my friends have had sex, and i want to, but im scared. they make it seem like no biggie and i feel left behind. i have had a steady, wonderful boyfriend for 5 months and i know i could definately lose my virginity with just a phone call to him. i just don't know what to do or when to do it! | 1192008 | ||||||
| State | WI | City | Madison | Gender | Female | Age | 25 |
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| I love my boyfriend but don't tell him because he's moving across the country in 9 months and want to get more attached. I think saying it out loud will make it more true. | 1252010 | ||||||
| State | WI | City | Milwaukee | Gender | Male | Age | 39 |
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| I am a porn addict. | 4302010 | ||||||
| State | Washington | City | Edmonds | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| It's my birthday and anniversary today, but I feel like crying. I know I'm blessed with a good family, but it doesn't feel like it. I'm away from home. My cousin is running a high fever. And I hate to sound snobby or rude, but no one payed attention to me today. I mean, I was really really worried about my cousin, until she got home fine andthen these feelings started to fester. Then my aunt started to cry, making me feel like a horrible person... I just feel like crying. | 782010 | ||||||
| State | Washington | City | Seattle | Gender | Male | Age | 17 |
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| My dad killed himself when i was three. My mom tried to kill herself the day after my sixteenth birthday after we didn't talk for a month. I live alone with my mom, she has always said i'm her best friend. She now is very depressing to be around and i hate myself for hating her. I've had persistant thoughts of suicide since fifth grade and i always feel sh*t. I want to talk to my friends about this so they know why im such an ass sometimes but i know how emotionaly draining my mom is and i dont want them to resent me. It's nice to talk about it finally. | 9152010 | ||||||
| State | Washington | City | Seattle | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I miss our late night drunken walks with 40s in our hands. | 12192010 | ||||||
| State | Washington | City | Seattle | Gender | Male | Age | 27 |
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| I sneak into a woman's bathroom and smell her dirty underwear. I got caught peeping through my blinds at some neighbor women today, too. I am in a position of some influence and am expected to model a virtuous life. I feel cold and alone and need help. Please pray for me if you are a praying person. | 6212011 | ||||||
| State | West Virginia | City | Denver | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I was on my way over to his house, when this boy from school met up with me. We talked about school and then he saw my thong and bumped me on purpose, which made me drop my lipgloss I held. I bent down to pick it up and he snapped my thong and said "See ya around," in a smooth voice. Nowadays in school whenever he sees me bending down or leaning over he looks under my skirt or pick at my underwear! OMG! | 4252011 | ||||||
| State | Wi | City | Kenosha | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| If there weren't children involved, I wouldn't have reported my specific incidence of the sexual assault, battery, and false imprisonment. | 862011 | ||||||
| State | Wisconsin | City | Madison | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| We've been together about 3.5 years and for 2.5 years he's just made me feel hurt, helpless and small. I'd give anything to go back to the first year. I'd give anything to get up the courage to leave. | 142010 | ||||||
| State | Wisconsin | City | Madison | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| im suicidal everyday. i feel like no one is here for me, im lonely,ugly and i always let my feelings out by crying. at school, i cry, and i dont want people to think something is wrong, or that im wierd. what can i do to get help without going to a center? | 1212011 | ||||||
| State | Wisconsin | City | Oshkosh | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I hate myself. I hate my hair. I hate my smile. I hate my body. I hate my personality. I hate everything. I try to pretend to be happy, to put on a front so no one knows what I'm feeling. I've never liked sharing my feelings and I won't let myself cry infront of people because then that makes me weak and vulnerable. I can't stand looking weak. It makes me hate myself even more. But I can't pretend to be okay anymore it's becoming too hard to hide my self hatred. Everytime I find someone I like I stop liking them instantly. I don't know why, maybe it's because they all walk away from me or because I think they are too good for me. I feel as if there is a deep hole where my heart should be. I constantly feel like I'm sinking into oblivion and I'm falling into a pit that never stops it just gets deeper. I want to tell someone but they'll just think there is something wrong with me. I've never seriously considered suicide until a fee months ago. I want to be void of thought and emotion. | 10132010 | ||||||
| State | Wisconsin | City | Washburn | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I am a mermaid. I promise. I am not kidding. I wish I was. | 7222009 | ||||||
| State | ca | City | fresno | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I have avoidant personality disorder, and I feel weak at times. I feel inferior to poeple. I view porn not because I like it, but because it makes me feel more powerful. Its absolutely disgusting, but I fight so hard to solve it. | 10182011 | ||||||
| State | california | City | malibu | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| all my friends are skinny and have bfs while im fat and single im 13 5"6 and 135 pounds.And i hate it.Being around my friends makes me jealous and to the point where i hate myself ive never really been the jealous type but seening them makes the envy really start burning | 12262011 | ||||||
| State | california | City | palo alto | Gender | Female | Age | 14 |
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| i cut myself. shoulders, hips, forearms. and i don't have the will to stop. | 5312011 | ||||||
| State | colorado | City | commerce city | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| my best friend and boyfriend tried to hook up, they think i forgave them and moved on, little do they know that even though i got my way and they didnt end up getting together, i still hate them both. | 2222011 | ||||||
| State | fl | City | ocoee | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| long story short i met someone 4 years ago and i need him but im not in love with him for reasons i know. But i went to far with him (just 2nd base) and now he says if u dont love me i cant stay it hurts to bad. So i told him i love him because i have to be connected to him in some way. but he wants me to prove it by having a baby or marrying him. and he said i dont even have to have sex if i dont wanna i can just have artificial insimination. and i didnt want to ruin his life so i put off choosing for a longtime but i lost it and my selfish side took over and i chose the baby but i wanted sex so we did but im not pregnant so id like to find another solution b4 we try again. because i cant marry him, im not good for him that way. and dignity means nothing to me if it means keeping him id give all his friends bjs if i could keep him without these conditions. please i dont want to do this but unless i find another way, i dont care if i ruin him as long as i have him. | 882010 | ||||||
| State | illinios | City | marshall | Gender | Male | Age | 42 |
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| it started as nsa couple times a month now shes all i think about shes my lover best friend and want top be with her all the time. I love another mans wife and hate my own | 10152011 | ||||||
| State | illinois | City | Peoria | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| ever since my i broke up with my boyfriend i cant stop thinkin about him and i just miss him so much. i think my friends can tell i want to talk to him and be with him but im just so shy i cant. | 882010 | ||||||
| State | illinois | City | sterling | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| my life sucks nobody knows what happened to me when i was little and nobody cares its like they think oh wow nothing could be wrong with miss smarty pants... well im tired of it i tried to kill myself but lost it and now im in therapy because the world just kinda looks me over and people think im bulletproof and nothing hurts me well ex boyfriends let me tell you it hurts it feels like someone stabs you in the heart and twists im not bullet proof im just like you. | 10102010 | ||||||
| State | indiana | City | indianapolis | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I'm afraid that I will never be able to love or be loved. As soon as I start feeling something I run in hopes I wont get hurt. I'm scared of rejection and have become way too comfortable with being single. I need someone in my life. The guy I have finally given my heart to only sees me as a booty call. | 7192011 | ||||||
| State | indiana | City | indianapolis | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| im not a virgin counting every time ive done it 16 times im a sex addict | 11142011 | ||||||
| State | ky | City | Fairdale | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| My name is Zorica and I wanted to have someone any one hear my story so here it goes. When I was a little girl I was so happy and I did so good in school and I always stayed after school to run with my teacher and we did that almost every day. So one day I stayed after just like any other day and my dad was suppose so come and pick me up at the school every day at 5pm that day he never showed up. He was to busy yelling at my big brother because my dad seen him smoking weed and yahh he forgot all about me so I tried to call him and my mom but they did not pick up so I started walking home it was my first time walking him at the age of 14. I seen a van and it stopped in front of me he put a gun up to me and told me if I did not get in thin he would kill me...I did not know what to do or what to say so I just got in and he raped me and throw me out I want back to the school and cleaned my self off I was so scared to tell anyone so I just kept it to myself....my dad finally came and he asked me how my day was and I told him it was ok. But what my dad did not see was that nothing was ok I was scared, hurt, sad, mad....So I just kept it in never told anyone will on my 15th day it happened again not just one time at 15 but 2 so all together it happened 3 times. After that I stopped talking I never talked in school and wanted nothing to do with anyone. But one day at school I meet a girl named Shelbie she was in the same class as me she was sitting right behind me, and she asked me how to say my name and I told her it was Z>O>R>I>C>A thin she was like I like that name and I stopped talking after that but she kept talking to me trying to get me to talk to her to just say anything to her. So I told her that I go by Zee and she was like no ur name is zorica and that's what people r going to call u. And at first I did not know what she meant by that but as the days kept going she always talked to me thin be became best friends I told her everything and she told me everything too I never thou that I could ever have a best friend I never had a best friend so her being my best friend I never wanted to loss but we want to high school together and that's when everything changed me and her stopped being friends over a guy. I really liked this guy is name was Rickey and I meet him first day off school he sat down with me at lunch cuz I was sitting by my self and he started to talk to me and me and shelbie always had this thing if wee see some one that we like thin we have to tell one a nether so we would tell each other if they was nice or mean.. So I told shelbie and she meet him, that's win all 3 of us stared hanging out and one day she passed me a note saying "I kissed Rickey" but I thou she was just playing with me so I asked her and she said "No I am really sorry but I really did kiss him" I was so mad at her I stopped talking to her for a little and thin Rickey and shelbie started to go out and i did not care at that time so me and shelbie started being best friends again and as for me and Rickey we was best friends too so I thou it was going to work out... So they was going out for about 2months and shelbie passed me a nether note this time it said "I cheated on Rickey with matt" so thin I was like shelbie please tell me u did not his like my best friend u cant do that to him he has not done anything to u for u to do that to him... So he found after shelbie broke up with him and started going out with is guy named matt and she did not talk to me like we always did she never told me anything and we never hang out again but me and Rickey was still best friends and one day I told him what shelbie told me and he got really mad not at me or shelbie or matt juat at the world and thin shelbie tried to fix things with wis and told me to go out with Rickey so I asked her " if I do go out with him will that stop us from being best friends cuz if it will he is not writh me losing my best friend for 7 years" and she said "no not at all go for it" some we tried going out and she stopped being my friend me and him was together for a year and 3 months..........thin I lost them all So here i am 16 years old and stopped talking to every one will once again I got raped so that was 4 time all together and I just started to gave up on life... But thin one day after school this guy named Kevin came to see me.. he was shelbies big brother I liked him for a long time and he liked me for a long time to we have knowing one another for 10years and I never tried talking to him more thin friends cuz I was his sisters best friend and she did not want us together so we did not get together but that day win he came to see me I was so happy to see him... will I had to walk home from school and go to work and he and some of is friends was walking the same way as me so he walked with me and talked to me he asked me if I had a boyfriend and I said "no" then he stopped and looked at me and asked me y not and I told him that there was no one out there for me....that's when he said " look u know that I like u so much and I came just to see u and talk to u and hang out with u, u know that I can get any girl that I wan but I don't want just any girl I want to be with u" that's in I stopped and looked at him I did not know what to say so I did not say anything so we walked me him and he gave me a hug and told me that he will call me and told me to have a good day at work.... Thin he called me win I got off work and told me to come out sid so I did and we hung out and talked....so we talked for a few days and thin started to go out and one day me and my friend want over to his house and he looked at me and asked me to go for a walk with him so I said ayah that's win he broke up with me and he told me that he loves me but I was best friends with is sister and that he was so sorry....I did not say anything to him I just walked back to the house and want and hung out with my friend stephane and she hured about it and she tuck me home thin one day she asked me to hang out with her so I said yes and Kevin was there and I did not talk to him or anything so we left and the next day I want to work and got a phone call so I poked up and this is what happened.>>>>>> Me__hello Kevin__ hey what r u doing Me___ nothing at work who is this Kevin__ its me Kevin Me__ o umm hey Kevin___ look I need to talk to u can u call me win u get off work?? Me__ I guess but y Kevin__ win u know that one day win I told u something Me___ Kevin u told me a lot what r u talking about Kevin__ am talking about that day we broke up Me__ o umm yahh Kevin___ will I have been thinking and I fell like I mad a big mistake Me__ o umm Kevin__ just call me win u get off please Me___ Ok Kevin___Bye I love u Me___ bye thin I hung up not telling him I loved him cuz I was scared to... so I called him win I got off work and he did not pick up so I just felt like he was just playing...I was a little mad but tine I felt like I should have seen it coming.... But I was wrong he called me back and asked me win my next day off was and I told am it was {5/3/11} so he asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and I said idk thin he was like plezz I really want to talk to u so I said ok thin we hung out and he told me that he wants me back....I stopped and looked at him and said " look am not a little play toy that u can keep running back to every time u need something" and he said "NO its not like that I really do care about u and love u so much plezz talk me back" and I asked him " r u sure that u want to be with me this time cuz if ur not sure thin for get it" that win he told me that he was 1000% sure and I said ok all talk u back so we was boyfriend and girlfriend again... thin one day we did something that I was so scared to do and in a moth I frowned out that I was prago I did not know how to tell him or how to tell my family what was they going to thank of me or say about me....I told him and my mom frowned out she told my dad and my dad said that he wanted to talk to Kevin so they talked my dad was so nice to him and I have never seen my dad be nice to any guy like that but he told him that its time for him to step up and be other then me and Kevin started leaving together.... we want to go find out wit that baby was going to be a boy or girl and they told us that it was a baby boy and we got so happy we name him Jadin Reese Marlett and thin they told us that he was died in sid of me thin I broke down crying and he did too.... we left home and we moved in with some friends thin my dad stared to hate Kevin cuz I lost the baby and tall this day my dad hate's him and me I don't talk to my dad at all but I leave back at home with him and my mom as for Kevin he leaves with his brother me and him are still together but struggling so bad we have to tell my family that we do not go out and we cant really talk or see one another and win we do we have to be so carful...... will that's my storey for now and it just keeps going as the days go but My dad told me that I have to find a place to leave cuz he does not want me here but am only 17 years old we or who old let a 17 year old and her boyfriend rent a place not any one that I know of..... I have been working for 3years at the same place it is my first job and only job...........I just don't know what to do any more I love Kevin so much and he is the only one that I have left he knows everything about me from my raps to my favorite color he knows it all he is my boyfriend and my best friend why does this have to happen to me I don't get it its like all I did was try to help people and be happy but now its so different I have asked my self all the time home am I still here or y am I still here will I still don't know that...... But if some one reads this and if u thank that u can gave me some advice then plezz e-mail me or if u have any Q~S just ask me all be 100 with u thank u for reading this | 7292011 | ||||||
| State | nevada | City | Las Vegas | Gender | Male | Age | 23 |
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| I would have probably committed suicide if I thought my family could afford to bury me. | 1252011 | ||||||
| State | neverland | City | neverland | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| My secret is my dad started sexually abusing me at 3 years old and its still going on... I am very embarassed but dont know how to stop it. (Please contact us with your city and state or at least the state in order to put you secret on the main page.) | 6182009 | ||||||
| State | new hamshire | City | some town in | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I hate my life, especially myself. I have been strugging with my behaviour all my life, ever since I was molested (only by my grandmother) as a child, 3-5 years of age( that I can remember). @ 5 years of age I moved to florida. At 10 years of age I moved back home. Her last attempt: After a few visits to my grandmothers house she finally asked if she can see how long it has gotten and began to reach towards my pants. Laughing when I resisted, my father and two brothers across from the room watching as my father swiftly turning his head acting like everything was okay. These experiences has shaped and formed me one way or another from how I walk speak to how I act towards others. I don't know who I am @ 21 years of age. Because of this experience and being extremely mentaly & emotionally abused even til this day, these things hold me back one way or another. I don't act like a 21 year old should act. I feel underdeveloped. There is so much more to this story but not enough characters... | 5262011 | ||||||
| State | new mexico | City | truth or consequences | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| I have a wonderful boyfriend who has been my best friend since i was 5. He is sweet and funny and everybody thinks its the perfect relationship. So why am I falling for another guy I know is only playing me and is comepletely no good for me? And I'm slowly starting to be annoyed by everything my boyfriend does. I wish he was the kind of guy who would get pissed off not heartbroken if I told him the truth. He is the perfect choice. I guess perfection is so not my thing. | 3132011 | ||||||
| State | new york | City | new york | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I am leaving next week to murder the man that raped me for three years when I was a child. Ready or not. | 10192011 | ||||||
| State | ny | City | ny | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I'm miserable at the college I go to. I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone I haven't made friends. | 10312011 | ||||||
| State | ohio | City | Granville | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| When I call you "mister", it's a substitute for "I love you". I don't think I can tell you, because I'm afraid it would make our relationship awkward, but I do, mister. | 2112011 | ||||||
| State | oregon | City | portland | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| well just wanted to say im a sex fiend i crave tearing apart a womans pussy extreme fisting its not normal but it just gets me so damn horny just the thought of it | 10192011 | ||||||
| State | pa | City | walkens glenn | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| i have the best older brother in the world. he has always been there for me no matter what, however, in our 20 years of knowing each other he has never once failed at anything or been stressed out. and now he is dropping out of college and making some bad life choices and i feel like if i were paying more attention to how he was doing i could have done something to help. | 2112011 | ||||||
| State | phil | City | pque | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I really wish I was born white. I'm in love with their fair skin and their hair, and the possibility of having blue, brown, green eyes. I'm sick of looking at myself and seeing this boring face - black hair, black eyes - with no trace of my ideal beauty. Some people consider me pretty, but I just don't see it. I am not fond of being Asian, at least physically. | 8212010 | ||||||
| State | sC | City | charleston | Gender | Female | Age | 15 |
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| i didnt love my boyfriend. i didnt even like him. i just went out with him becas he was cute. we were the worst couple. we never spoke before he asked me out, and we never spoke when we were going out. i could tell he liked me tho. he would ride a rollarcoaster with me. he would ask me to slow dance. but we still never talked. soon i started asking him questions. he would give a one word answer and then look away. i made my friend ask him why he wouldnt talk to me. he said he never actually liked me that much. i was very mad at him so i cussed him out. i couldnt keep a strait face so it ended ended up into a drunk looking break up. it was humiliating. later that month i went out with his best friend. i was still in love with my ex tho so i broke up with his friend. now i am madly in love with the first ex. i think about him ALL the time. he is the only thing i care about anymore. we dont talk and its extremely awkward. i dont think he likes me anymore. i dont know wat to do. | 7182011 | ||||||
| State | somewhere | City | somewhere | Gender | Male | Age | old |
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| There's this girl I like, she says she doesn't like me but she does. She goes and finds a guy with the same name that I have, but it's not me.It annoys me to think about it. She's such an idiot, that I want. | 2202009 | ||||||
| State | tx | City | c | Gender | Male | Age | 22 |
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| i want to kill myself because last time i tried i ended up blacked out and assaulted my mom and went to jail just to end up as someones sex slave and they give me over 5 years of probation i cannot do this anymore i fucking hate my life man all day long all night long the voices command me to die tell me i am a worthless piece of shit and deserved to get sexually abused i just want to end it all man cause i cant take this probation shit they are trying to set me up for a life of getting raped and hiv i hate people all have ever done is mock me and abuse me except for my parents everyone i come into contact with dislikes me im not going to make it till 2015 on this probation i WILL NOT GO BACK TO JAIL TO BE RAPED AGAIN i will instead kill myself like what should have happened in 2008 | 10202011 | ||||||
| State | utah | City | Gender | Male | Age | 25 |
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| I'm a strait married man that loves to crossdress and my wife has no idea | 862010 | ||||||
| State | utah | City | salt lake | Gender | Female | Age | 13 |
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| Hello, my secret is and always will be my secret, but I am making an exception now. I have never been in love, but I'm broken. Ever since last year. No way out and no way to fix it. Bye. | 1242011 | ||||||
| State | wa | City | walla walla | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I dont give a fuck how much stuff in the world talk about it no one should ever get rapped and givin STD just because you think they are crazy. The world needs better test the fake as psychology and just asking people what they think. yes this happen to me and it will put you on the edge of loosing it and you may stay there for a while but if this ever happens to you i fell for you because know one else will. At least take them to a psychiatrists because life isnt worth dying and people are always that strong. p.s. im pretty sure people in my town have committed suicide over this because the people who do it to you are good at hiding and making all the evidence sound out of this world + your drugged | 282012 | ||||||
| State | wv | City | Charleston | Gender | Female | Age | 40 |
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| I tell you I'm lonely, when really I'm in love with you and would give anything just to feel your arms around me. | 782010 | ||||||
| State | City | Kampala | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| I dont know if this counts as a secret, but, I'm 19, virgin, never had a boyfriend though there's been lots of offers. I act like I'm ok with being single and independent and I kinda am, but, I'm a huge pervert. I read literotica and look at porn pictures. Should I just sleep with a random good looking stranger I meet at a party this week? | 8152010 | ||||||
| State | City | Edinburgh | Gender | Female | Age | 25 |
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| I had a relationship with an actor - he asked me out, but I said no because of our mutual friend (his ex), I have never regretted anything more in my life, especially as I had become pregnant | 12292010 | ||||||
| State | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 20 |
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| I am a uni student, and I have been in a secret relationship with one of my housemates now for nearly 10 months. We haven't told anyone other than my 3 best friends who are very understanding and accepting. Other than that we are scared as we know that not everyone else will be as understanding, especially our families. Because our relationship is a secret I have to watch other guys flirt with her right in front of me as she is very pretty | 1302011 | ||||||
| State | Dunbartonshire | City | Glasgow | Gender | Female | Age | 16 |
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| I said to myself, im sixteen how can i be sure hes the one, then i answered of course he his. but now im not sure, sometimes i think you are now. | 2262011 | ||||||
| State | England | City | London | Gender | Male | Age | 18 |
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| I had a HUGE crush on one of my teachers when i was in college and even now I still cannot stop thinking about him. I am a guy and he is a guy and we seem to have a lot in common, he used to flirt inadvertently sometimes and he used to stay behind to help me finish work and stuff. I was head over heels in love with him and still am. I saw him a few weeks ago for the first time in a long time and he said he wanted me to come and watch a concert he was doing the next day. What do I do? | 852010 | ||||||
| State | Greater London | City | london | Gender | Female | Age | 18 |
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| He made me cry. He made me want to hurt myself. Why do I still love him.. I fucking hate myself. | 6232010 | ||||||
| State | Lancashire | City | Manchester | Gender | Male | Age | 21 |
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| I Stole Your Catylic Converters To Get Money So I Could See The Girl I Love I'm NOT Sorry | 1062010 | ||||||
| State | London | City | London | Gender | Female | Age | 21 |
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| I am in love with my best friend. We have been unofficially seeing each other for a couple of years and now that we have stopped i find it so hard to go back to just seeing him as a friend nothing else. i am so jealous of other girls that he likes and the more i try not to think about him the more i do! | 3312011 | ||||||
| State | Scotland | City | Glasgow | Gender | Male | Age | 19 |
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| I'm definitely a narcissist, of that much I'm sure, I've accepted that. The only literary character I've ever truly understood was Raskolnikov from Crime & Punishment. I'm not sure I feel any real empathy for anyone. I can see suffering but it never truly effects me. I went to a Nazi concentration camp and while the rest of the visitors were in tears, I didn't feel a thing. Is that right? Normal? In school there was a girl who obsessed about me for years. After years, I eventually went out with her. We had sex and it didn't change anything. I had a complete absence of any sort of feeling towards her. I've had feelings for girls before but I don't know if it was anything more than just lust. The whole irony of the situation is that nobody suspects a thing. I'm happy, I have lots of friends, people find me easy-going, easy to talk to. I can strike up a conversation with almost anyone about anything. What the hell is wrong with me? | 3152011 | ||||||
| State | Wales | City | Penarth | Gender | Female | Age | 24 |
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| I am a 24 year old woman and for 10 years I have been battling with myself against Trichotillomania (TTM) The compulsive act of pulling my hair out. I felt embarrassed and ashamed for soo many years. I felt i couldn't talk with anyone about my condition. then I found more information through websites, forums and documentaries and finally found i wasn't alone in my fight. The support was amazing. In the past year my condition has moved from an Extreme to acute case. I am happy I can now be strong enough to no longer harm myself. and I have a full healthy head of hair. | 7162010 | ||||||
| State | Indiana | City | Muncie | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| I lost my belief in God this year. Everyone in my family, my friends, and even my fiance is religious. I dont think I will ever tell any of them I dont believe. | 2222011 | ||||||
| State | Il | City | Chicago | Gender | Female | Age | 23 |
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| I married the wrong man. He verbally and mentally abuses me, and doesnt appreciate anything I do for him. I know I could have it worse off but I am never happy. | 2282011 | ||||||
| State | City | Caracas | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I met this guy about 4 years ago, from a friend I found out that he liked me. At that moment of my life, I felt like I was the uglyiest girl in the world, I felt like a boy because of my short, and really felt insecure. I was afraid,I've heard that eventhough he "liked" me he talked crap behind my back so, I told this boy I was a lesbian, revenge I guess. We really never talked again, but later he contacted me, we talked a lot and I started to develop feelings for him, I thought he still liked me, but then someone told he was gay, I really never believed it, so I continued my fantasy and keep talking to him, we developed a great friend, and yes he's gay. But I still have feelings for him, and I really like him, sometimes I feel he likes me too, he trats me well, and tells me pretty stuff, but I know he is gay, and I know he doesn't likes me anymore. I've been in love with this guy for almost 3 years now, and I don't really know what to do. Yeah Karma's a b**ch. Ever since I like him, I haven't been able to like anyone else. | 592011 | ||||||
| State | City | Caracas | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I met this guy about 4 years ago, from a friend I found out that he liked me. At that moment of my life, I felt like I was the uglyiest girl in the world, I felt like a boy because of my short, and really felt insecure. I was afraid,I've heard that eventhough he "liked" me he talked crap behind my back so, I told this boy I was a lesbian, revenge I guess. We really never talked again, but later he contacted me, we talked a lot and I started to develop feelings for him, I thought he still liked me, but then someone told he was gay, I really never believed it, so I continued my fantasy and keep talking to him, we developed a great friend, and yes he's gay. But I still have feelings for him, and I really like him, sometimes I feel he likes me too, he trats me well, and tells me pretty stuff, but I know he is gay, and I know he doesn't likes me anymore. I've been in love with this guy for almost 3 years now, and I don't really know what to do. Yeah Karma's a b**ch. Ever since I like him, I haven't been able to like anyone else. | 592011 | ||||||
| State | City | Caracas | Gender | Female | Age | 17 |
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| I met this guy about 4 years ago, from a friend I found out that he liked me. At that moment of my life, I felt like I was the uglyiest girl in the world, I felt like a boy because of my short, and really felt insecure. I was afraid,I've heard that eventhough he "liked" me he talked crap behind my back so, I told this boy I was a lesbian, revenge I guess. We really never talked again, but later he contacted me, we talked a lot and I started to develop feelings for him, I thought he still liked me, but then someone told he was gay, I really never believed it, so I continued my fantasy and keep talking to him, we developed a great friend, and yes he's gay. But I still have feelings for him, and I really like him, sometimes I feel he likes me too, he trats me well, and tells me pretty stuff, but I know he is gay, and I know he doesn't likes me anymore. I've been in love with this guy for almost 3 years now, and I don't really know what to do. Yeah Karma's a b**ch. Ever since I like him, I haven't been able to like anyone else. | 592011 | ||||||
| State | Zambia | City | Zambia | Gender | Female | Age | 19 |
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| i've a boyfriend but i'm afraid am falling for a close.we have kissed several times but no one knows.plz help me | 11202009 | ||||||
| State | bc | City | parksville | Gender | Female | Age | 22 |
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| My ex's girlfriend asked if I would have a 3-some with them...I'd never do it...But I secretly loved to rub it in his face that even she wanted me.... Now we are together and hes fucking her behind my back....hmmm wat to do... | 5112011 | ||||||
| State | maharashtra | City | mumbai | Gender | Male | Age | 15 |
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| i am in love with a girl.. shes really sweet.. but like the problem is she is only 12.. thats like 3 years younger than me.. and im fat and ugly and shes just so beautiful.. but i dont want to be with her.. because ill just get hurt like last time.. | 7162011 | ||||||
| State | City | kirkcaldy | Gender | Female | Age | 12 |
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| ive never told anyone but ive never kissed a boy, or had a boyfriend, ive had one boyfriend but it was like he was being forced to date me and then he broke my heart. im twelve years old and i feel like im not pretty enough. i even tried too cut myself because i was worried i wasnt ment too live and noone liked me, now i have the most amazing friends, but still no boyfriend. i sort of liked my bestfriends boyfriend and he dumped her after a while and shes been really upset but then he asked me out and i told him i couldnt, but last night i was out with all my friends and me and him were having a laugh but he leaned in to kiss me and i had too push him away. and now i dont know what to do. wether i should tell her or i shouldnt | 7132010 | ||||||
| State | pa | City | philadelphia | Gender | Female | Age | 31 |
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| I am in love with a man that hates me. We started off as just some hot, passionate sex, but then at some point it became more, then jealousy intervened and I behaved poorly. I have no excuse but now he no longer trusts or likes me. It makes me so sad because I can't stop thinking about him. I am so angry at myself for betraying his trust and I'm angry at him for not forgiving me. | 962011 | ||||||